THE CHAD XZAVIER FACEBOOK DIARIES INTRO

 

1. BRB...
2. OK...WE ARE OFFICIALLY BUYING NASDAQ OVERNIGHT AND INTO LONDON AM SESSION UNTIL ABOUT NOON...
3. I DID NOT BUY SPY...THAT'LL BE IN IT'S OWN ACCOUNT LATER. I KEPT THE TRON SELLS IN ON ACCOUNT TWO...
4. I CONDUCTED A $5 FREE MARGIN BUFFER PER 0.01 NASDAQ TRADE...0.03 IN ACCOUNT ONE AND 0.02 IN ACCOUNT TWO...
5. 0.05 LOT NASDAQ MINI BUYS...NO TAKE PROFIT...
6. NO STOP LOSS EITHER. THE STRATEGY SIGNAL IS THE STOP LOSS...SNIPER ENTRY...
7. ACCOUNT ONE BALANCE? $16AUD.
   ACCOUNT TWO BALANCE? $13AUD...
8. ACCOUNT TWO EQUITY IS $13AUD MY BAD.
   BALANCE IS $10AUD...
9. GOING TO GO TO DEMO AND CALCULATE PROFITS @$20,200...WHERE IT CAME FROM FRIDAY BUT IT WILL PUSH FURTHER...
10. GOING TO TELL ISAIAH NASDAQ IS BUYING NOW...
11. HE STOPPED TRADING NASDAQ...I'M TRYING TO GET HIM BACK TO IT...TOLD YOU HE'S A QUITTER...
12. ICT RUINS TRADER'S BRAINS.
13. IF IT GOES TO $20,600USD THAT'S $26AUD...15M MAY RETRACE BEFORE THEN THO...
14. IT'S EARLY AND I'M BORED...
15. I'M PROBABLY NOT GOING TO CHECK THE CHART UNTIL THE MORNING...
16. SO NOW I WAIT FOR 15M 12 GREEN MOVING AVERAGES BOXES AND A GREEN MACD THEN 5M CCI 14 RED OR 15M CCI 10 NEGATIVE...
17. 5HR WAVE IS BULLISH. HIGHER HIGHS PAST $20,200USD...
18. SMOKE BREAK THEN WORK ON PAIGE PAGES...
19. I TOLD ZAY IT IS NOW BUYING ON THE 15M.
20. AT THIS POINT I'LL ONLY LOOK AT 15M INVESTING US500 FUTURES OR NASDAQ USTECH FOR 12 GREEN AND GREEN MACD.
21. BRB...
22. THE NASDAQ LOW ON META TRADER SAYS $19,950USD...HIGHER LOW THAN $19,900USD...
23. 10:54PM EST – 11.3.2024
24. I'M BACK...
25. ATE TACOS AND TOOK ANOTHER SMOKE BREAK...
26. I PEEKED AT THE CHART LOL...
27. ACCOUNT ONE 0.03 NASDAQ BUYS UP $3.50. EQUITY IS @$20AUD...
28. ACCOUNT TWO UP $4.50AUD 0.02 NASDAQ MINI BUYS AND 0.15 TRON TRXUSD SELLS.
29. CURRENT NASDAQ PRICE ON TRADELOCKER IS @$20,122USD...
30. I'M GOING TO WRITE A LITTLE FOR PAIGE PAGES THEN GO TO SLEEP EARLIER THAN NORMAL SOMETIMES SO I'LL BE RESTED BY 10AM EST...
31. I AWOKE 12 HOURS AGO. NOT TIRED YET BUT BORED. THE CHART'S GOING TO START SPEEDING UP FROM NOW TO NOON...
32. THANK YOU GOD AND THANK YOU ANGEL GANG...GANG - GANG...
33. WATCHING BUCKETS VIDEOS WHILE I WRITE HER THIS BOOK...
34. I'M JUST GOING TO REFER TO HER FROM NOW ON AS BUCKETS BUECKERS OR JUST BUCKETS...
35. SHE REMINDS ME OF KOBE. CLARK IS MORE OF A CURRY ILK...
36. I MIGHT WATCH THE AMAZING SPIDERMAN 1 ON TUBI...
37. EMMA STONE IS SO FUNNY...SHE'S ONE OF MY FAVORITE ACTRESSES MY AGE.
38. I WOULD LOVE TO ACT IN A FILM WITH HER OR HAVE HER IN A FILM I WROTE THE BOOK FOR.
39. LET'S START WRITING.
40. I'M GOING TO WRITE UNTIL MIDNIGHT THEN SMOKE BREAK...MAYBE TELL A STORY ON HERE THEN SNOOZE...
41. I GOTTA GANG OF ANGELS ROLLING WITH ME NOW AND WE OUT HERE TERRORIZING DEMONS AND NON BELIEVERS.
42. LOL?
43. 12:15AM EST I'LL COME BACK WITH WHAT I WROTE...
44. GUYS TELL ME THEY WON'T WATCH WOMEN'S BASKETBALL BC THEY DON'T DUNK...
45. SO YOU LIKE WATCHING A MAN PUT HIS NUTS IN ANOTHER MAN'S FACE HUH?
46. SUS PECT...
47. I BOYCOTTED THE NBA...I'M ATTRACTED TO WOMEN. I'D RATHER WATCH THEM PLAY SPORTS THAN A GANG OF TESTICLES...
48. THIS IS THE GENERATION RAISED ON KOBE...THEY PLAY LIKE JELLY BEAN...
49. IT'S SO COOL TO WATCH A WOMAN BALL OUT ON THE COURT MAN...IT'S INSPIRING...
50. I LOVE IT WHEN THEY ROAR. PAIGE HAS THE BEST ROAR. IT'S ALMOST SCARY...
51. I LOVE HOW CLARK PUMPS UP THE CROWD WITH HER ARMS AND MAKES HAND HEARTS...
52. VAN LITH BE STOMPING HER FEET ON THE GROUND...IT'S LIKE A TANTRUM...
53. I STARTED WATCHING WOMEN'S BBALL BC OF VAN LITH. I WAS LIKE DAM SHE PLAYS LIKE KOBE...
54. THEN I WAS LIKE WHO THE HELL IS CLARK? THEN I FOUND OUT...
55. THEN I FOUND OUT ABOUT REESE, BRINKS AND BUCKETS.
56. THE LAST FEW MONTHS I'VE BEEN WATCHING BUCKETS VIDEOS ALL DAY WHILE TRADING AND LOOK AT ME NOW...
57. BUCKETS BALLING IS JUST MESMERIZING TO ME...SO I DEDICATED THE ENTIRE BOOK TO HER AND VAN LITH...
58. I'M DEDICATING
    WRISTS BATHED ROJAS
    TO BUCKETS AND VAN LITH...
59. I'M GOING TO START WRITING IN 10 MINUTES UNTIL 12:30AM EST...
60. SEE YOU IN AN HOUR AND TEN MINUTES.
61. THE HOUR STARTS NOW...DAMMIT MAN...12:45AM EST...
62. I STOPPED 10 MINUTES AGO...
63. THIS ONE IS CHALLENGING AND INTIMIDATING TO ME TBH BUT IT'S GOOD I'M CHALLENGING MYSELF.
64. SMOKE BREAK...
65. THIS IS THE INTRO TO THE BOOK. ONCE I FINISH IT I'LL WRAP UP THE POEMS AND FINISH PROOF READING.
66. I WANT TO WRITE HER AN ALBUM...
    THE PAIGE BUCKETS LP...
67. WHILE I FINISH THIS I'LL START THE STOCK MARKET PICK SECTION...
68. IT'S 1AM AND I WANT TO WATCH A MOVIE OR SOMETHING SO GOODNIGHT SLUTS CLUB...
69. IS SLUT GANG ANY BETTER?
70. SLUT IS JUST A FUNNY WORD.
71. I USED TO BE A SLUT...
72. THEN I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL.
73. 18-23 WAS MY FIRST ABSTINENCE BINGE...
74. THEN I RELAPSED...
75. THEN I WENT ABSTINENT ANOTHER 3 YEARS...
76. THEN I RELAPSED AGAIN...
77. I WAS A SUPER SLUT...
78. I MISS BEING A SLUT...
79. MY DICK HATES ME....
80. ALL DAY ALL I HEAR IS IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA USE ME JUST CHOP ME OFF CHAD...
81. MY DICK HAS SUICIDAL THOUGHTS...
82. YOU WON'T EVEN PLAY WITH ME ANYMORE HE SAYS...
83. THAT'S A FUNNY STORY IDEA. THOUGHTS FROM AN ABSTINENT PENIS...
84. I'M GOING TO WRITE THAT. THAT'S HILARIOUS...
85. I'LL START THAT BOOK LATER TODAY...
86. I'M HAVING SO MANY FLASHES OF THE DRY DICK DIARIES...IT'S GONNA BE SO FUNNY...
87. I'M THE UNDISPUTED DRY DICK HEAVYWEIGHT CHAMPION OF THE WORLD...
88. MY DICK HAS MAJOR DEPRESSIVE DISORDER AND SEVERE ANXIETY...
89. GOODNIGHT YA'LL.
90. I CAUGHT MY DICK TRYING TO HANG HIMSELF THE OTHER DAY...
91. I SAY I'VE HAD SEX 3 TIMES SINCE 18 BUT TECHNICALLY THE 1ST WAS RIGHT BEFORE TURNING 18...
92. TECHNICALLY HE'S BEEN WET TWICE SINCE 18...THAT'S SO TRAGIC...
93. IF MY DICK HAD A GUN I'D BE GONE BY NOW YA'LL...
94. GOODNIGHT...
95. A DIARY FROM THE PERSPECTIVE OF MY DRY DICK IS GENIUS...
96. THAT CAME OUT OF NOWHERE.
97. SEE YOU IN ABOUT 8 HOURS...
98. 10:45AM EST – MONDAY NOVEMBER 4^TH, 2024 11.4.2024
99. GOOD MORNING DRY GANG...
100. I AWOKE AT 9AM EST NATURALLY...
101. WOKE UP AND NASDAQ HAD TOUCHED THE LOW @$19,900USD...
102. I GOT NERVOUS YA'LL...
103. HIT 12 RED 15M INVESTING SITE AGAIN...
104. $20,081USD AGAIN NOW...
105. THE RUSH IS OFFICIALLY IN EFFECT...
106. FEELS LIKE I'M TRAPPING CRACK COCAINE AND RUNNING FROM THE COPS AFTER ROBBING THE BANK...
107. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WRITE A BOOK WHEN I'M TRAPPING CRACK, BANK ROBBING AND RUNNING FROM THE FUZZ YA'LL...
108. I GOTTA START MEDITATING AND CENTERING MY CHI YA'LL...
109. I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A JAPANESE SWORD FIGHT WITH SAMURAI...
110. YOU: OH HELL NAH...
111. THIS SH
     NEED FOR SPEED 2:
     HOT PURSUIT YA'LL...
112. I HAVE NASDAQ BUYS IN ACCOUNT TWO WITH TRON TRXUSD CRYPTO SELLS TO BUILD EQUITY FOR MORE TRX...
113. THAT'LL HELP ME REACH $100AUD IN ACCOUNT TWO FASTER FOR MORE TRX LOT SIZES...
114. TRX IS SUPER PEACEFUL...IN 4 HOURS IT'LL HAVE BEEN SELLING FOR 72 HOURS SINCE MY ENTRY...
115. NASDAQ JUST BREACHED $20,100USD AGAIN...HIGHER HIGHS OTW YA'LL...
116. PAST $20,200USD...
117. ONCE ACCOUNT IS WORTH $100AUD I CAN DO 1-2 LOTS OR 100-200 0.01 TRX TRADES...
118. I'LL MAKE AN ACCOUNT THIS WEEK FOR AUDNZD...GOT A SIGNAL FOR THAT PAIR...MY OG FAVORITE FIAT PAIR. IT'S SLOW THO...
119. DO LIONS COMPLAIN ABOUT CHASING SLOW GAZELLES THO?
120. ACK - ACK - ACK...
121. IF THE 5HR WAVE NASDAQ IS BULLISH I SHOULDN'T SELL IT FOR ANY REASON YA'LL...
122. WHEN THE 15M SELLS I'LL JUST SIT THAT OUT...IT'S A BEARS TRAP...INDUCEMENT...OR THE STOP HUNT...
123. BEARS WILL SELL AND PLACE A STOP LOSS AT A HIGHER PRICE...
124. THE MARKET CAN SEE OUR ORDERS...BIG BROTHER WATCHING THO...
125. THEY GON SEND THEY SHOOTERS TO HUNT DOWN YOUR STOP LOSS AND POP YO STOP THEN POP THE TOP...
126. AS THE BEARS WATCH THE PRICE SHOOT UP $100-$200USD IN COMPLETE AND UTTER DISBELIEF...
127. MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
128. GET IT?
     UTTER? MOOOOOOOOOOOOO?
     DAD JOKE...
129. ONCE ACCOUNT TWO IS @$100-$200 FOR TRX IT'LL BE ENOUGH TO DOUBLE THAT ON A REGULAR BASIS.
130. WITH $150AUD I CAN DO A 2 LOT FOR $40 IN FREE MARGIN AND HAVE A $50 BUFFER PER 1 LOT...
131. AMY JUST ASKED ME ON DISCORD IF I'M HOLDING NASDAQ FOR THE LONG TERM...
132. I'M ABOUT TO TELL HER SOME GANGSTER SH...
133. I'MA TELL HER THE BANKS ARE BUYING AND WHEN THE BANKS ARE SELLING I AM NO LONGER HOLDING BUYS...
134. GANGSTER...GANGSTER...
135. SHE'S GONNA WONDER AND OR ASK ME HOW DO I KNOW THE BANKS ARE BUYING?
136. NIGGA SAID HE KNOW WHAT THE BANK IS DOING...
137. I GOT THE ANGEL GANG WITH ME...CALL IT BLACK EDGE...INSIDER TRADING...GANG-GANG...
138. I GOT THE ANGEL GANG WITH ME...CALL IT BLACK EDGE...INSIDER TRADING...GANG-GANG...
139. I HAVE INSIDER INFORMATION...I'M INSIDER TRADING YA'LL...
140. I HAVE ANGELS INSIDE OF MY MIND TELLING ME WHAT TO DO...
141. IS THAT LEGAL?
142. PRICE IS DROPPING TO $20,030USD...THEY TRAPPING BEARS...
143. THE ICT TRADERS JUST LOOK AT CANDLES...THEY JUST SEE PRICE DROPPING AND THEY MAKING UP NAMES FOR IT...
144. LOOKING AT THE CANDLES IS THE EASIEST WAY TO MAKE THE WRONG DECISION...
145. I LOOK AT THE META TRADER QUOTES PAGE AND INVESTING SITE...I JUST WANT TO SEE THE PRICE AND MY SIGNAL...
146. I READ THE TAPE. I'M A TAPE READER. AND I AM A QUANT. I HAVE AN ALGO...
147. PRICE IS HITTING $20K EVEN...THEY TRAPPING BEARS...
148. THEY GOT THE BEARS IN AN EMPTY ROOM FULL OF EMPTY BAGS...THEY ABOUT TO LOCK THE DOOR AND BLOW UP THE ROOM YA'LL...
149. LOOKING AT PRICE I'M NERVOUS. LOOKING AT THE SIGNAL THO...I'M NOT...WE BUYING...HOLD THE LINE BULLS...
150. NASDAQ JUST HAS A CRAZY RANGE THAT'S ALL...$100 PRICE MOVE THE OPPOSITE WAY IS JUST TOUCHING THE HIGHER LOW IN THIS CASE.
151. THAT'S WHY YOU DON'T PYRAMID NASDAQ INBETWEEN 12 RED OR 12 GREEN ON THE 15M CHART...
152. THAT MEANS DON'T USE THE NEW EQUITY FROM OLD NASDAQ BUYS TO BUY MORE...
153. PRICE IS @$19,980USD...BEARS HAVE NO IDEA WHAT'S COMING...
154. BITCOIN AND ETHEREUM ARE STILL SELLING. I CAN'T SEE TRON ON META TRADER FROM THIS BROKER
155. BUT IT'S SELLING AS WELL TOO THEN STILL...
156. I JUST NEED TO MAKE SURE I HAVE A $5-$10 BUFFER PER 0.01 NASDAQ TRADE AND ONLY CATCH 12 RED 15M IN THIS 5HR BULL RUN...
157. PRICE IS @$19,960USD...
158. THE 12PM HOURLY CANDLE OPENS IN 10 MINUTES...THE BULLS WENT TO LUNCH IN LONDON. THEY RELEASED THEIR POSITIONS PARTIALLY.
159. WHEN THE LONDON BULLS FINISH EATING FOOD THEY WILL COME BACK AND EAT THE BEARS STOP LOSSES...
160. ON THE PROP FIRM I'M TRADING ETHEREUM AND BITCOIN FOLLOWING TRX SIGNAL 5HR WAVE...
161. ON THE LIVE ACCOUNT WHEN I HAVE $50AUD IN IT'S OWN ACCOUNT I'LL DO 0.01 BITCOIN AND 0.01 ETHEREUM...
162. I'M SO NERVOUS I DIDN'T CALL IT THE BITCOIN YA'LL...YOU CAUGHT THAT?
163. THE PRICE JUST DROPPED $170...BEARS ATE NICE. THEY BETTER LEAVE...
164. THEY MIGHT GET ANOTHER $50 DROP AGAIN BACK TO THE PRICE IT WAS OTW TO AT 9AM WHEN I WOKE UP EST.
165. IT'S NOON...PRICE SHOULD SPIKE UP OVER THE NEXT 5 HOURS...
166. AT THIS POINT IN MY JOURNEY...IK THE 5HR WAVE...WHERE IT'S REALLY GOING...
167. WE PUSHING HIGHS...HIGHER HIGHS...HIGHER LOWS...
168. NOW JUST ONLY BUY FROM 15M WAVE RESET 12 RED AND WORK ON HAVING A $10 BUFFER PER 0.01...
169. EVERY DOLLAR IN PRICE PAYS A PENNY ON THE MINI SO A $5-$10 BUFFER PER 0.01 BUFFERS A $500-$1000 PRICE MOVE...
170. IF YOU'RE TRADING WITH THE 5HR WAVE IT WON'T MOVE THAT MUCH AGAINST YOU. ESPECIALLY FROM THE 15M WAVE RESET...
171. NASDAQ LOW IS @$19,900USD...
172. PRICE IS NOW @$19,910USD...
173. THE BEARS BETTER TAKE PROFITS YA'LL...
174. BEARS JUST SAW A $230USD SPIKE DROP DOWN...
175. AN ICT TRADER IS SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW...THEIR STOPS BOTH WAYS GOT POPPED BY NOW...
176. THE PROS KNOW PRICE IS AT THE 1-5M CHART BOTTOM PRICE LEVEL IN A 4-5HR BUY WAVE...TIME TO BUY...
177. THE ICT TRADERS I CAN IMAGINE BOUGHT AND SOLD WITH STOP LOSSES. THE SELLS ARE A TRAP...
178. AND THE BUYS SHOULD HAVE NO STOP LOSS AND SHOULD BE BOUGHT FROM THE LOW PRICE...
179. MAYBE THEY BOUGHT AT $20.130USD AND HAD A STOP LOSS POPPED.
180. THEN NATURALLY THEY WOULD SELL WITH A STOP LOSS...
181. IF PRICE DOESN'T POP THE STOP RIGHT THEN IT'LL TOUCH THE LOW AND THE SELLS ARE IN PROFIT...
182. THE ICT TRADER WOULD FEEL PLEASED AND HOLD THE SELL...
183. THEN PRICE POPS THEIR STOP LOSS EGREGIOUSLY WITH A VICIOUSLY UNSEEN VELOCITY…
184. PRICE BACK TO $19,970USD...
185. US500 SPY SPX HIT THE LOW PLUS ANOTHER $5 AND FROM THERE WENT UP $15...
186. $19,980USD...
187. THERE'S NO WAY I'M THIS GOOD...
188. WHAT I JUST DID EMOTIONALLY WAS THE IMPOSSIBLE...
189. I MAINTAINED MY COMPUSURE YA'LL...
190. THIS PLAY BY PLAY SPORTS COMMENTARY DIARY DEFINITELY WAS THE SECRET...
191. I JUST WEATHERED THE STORM YA'LL...WE ARE RE BREACHING $20K EVEN...
192. THIS LIVE DIARY HELPED ME MAINTAIN MY LOGIC...
193. WAS I NERVOUS?
194. I JUST TYPED 4 PAGES IN POSTS...SH YEA I WAS...
195. $20K...LONDON LUNCH IS OVER...BEARS STOPS FOR DESSERT BABY BABAE...
196. THE DUMB BEARS GOT STOPPED OUT OR ARE CRASHING OUT BY NOW. OR ALMOST AT BREAK EVEN...
197. THE SMART BEARS GOT OUT AT THE LOW FOR THEY KNOW THE 5HR WAVE IS BULL GANG...GANG-GANG...
198. WAS THAT EXCITING TO READ LIVE?
199. THE AVERAGE TRADER COULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT...
200. I'M HAVING TROUBLE PROCESSING EVERYTHING I JUST DID...
201. I KNEW THE 5HR PRICE IS BULLISH AND WHEN THE 15M WENT BEARISH I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING NEW...
202. I CAN SEE THE BEAR TRAP SET DOWN UNDERNEATH THE PRETTY RED ROSES...
203. THE BEARS: AW LOOK AT THE PRETTY FLOWER
     OW MY ARM...
204. AFTER SEEING THAT I'M NOT SELLING. THAT WAS TERRIFYING FROM MY PERSPECTIVE AND I'M WITH THE BANKS...
205. I SAW PRICE ACTION IN ADVANCE BULLET TIME YA'LL...
206. I'M GOING TO TRANSLATE WHAT I DID INTO PAIGE PAGES AFFIRMATIONS...
207. NEXT CHAPTER IS FOR REMAINING CALM UNDER PRESSURE AND SEEING THE PLAY IN BULLET TIME...
208. PRICE WAS NOT MOVING SLOW AT ALL YA'LL...BUT I SAW IT ALL SLOWED DOWN...
209. RIGHT? I TOLD YOU EVERYTHING THAT WAS HAPPENING AND WAS ABOUT TO HAPPEN...
210. I HAVE THE PROPHECY SIGNAL...NOW I JUST NEED TO ONLY CATCH THE LOW PRICE...
211. NOW I HAVE TO PONDER ON SOMETHING THE ANGELS ARE WHISPERING...
212. THE QUOTES PAGE SHOWS THE BUY PRICE, SELL PRICE AND UNDER EACH IS THE LOW AND HIGH PRICE...
213. I KNOW WE ARE PUSHING THE HIGHS SO ONCE THE LOW IS TOUCHED BUY IT...
214. AND ONCE THE LOW IS TOUCHED THEN CONSULT THE CCI 10 OR ANY ONE...
215. IT'S THE BEGINNING OF THE WAVE SO THERE IS NO EXTRA EQUITY TO RE ENTER AT THE LOW...
216. BUT AFTER TODAY THERE WILL BE FOR NEXT TIME...
217. THAT WAS SOME INTENSE SH YA'LL...
218. I JUST AFTER EARTH GHOSTED THE URSA YA'LL...
219. THE MOVIE TAGLINE SHOWED YOU THE CODE AND YOU DIDN'T NOTICE IT...
220. DANGER IS REAL
     FEAR IS NOT
     OR IT WAS DANGER IS REAL FEAR IS A CHOICE
221. EMOTIONS ARE NOT REAL YA'LL...STFU UP...
222. WHAT IF EMOTIONS ARE ACTUALLY THE ANGELS AND THE DEMONS?
223. EMOTIONS ARE EITHER ANGELIC OR DEMONIC...
224. WHAT IF THE ANGELS AND DEMONS FEED OFF OF OUR EMOTIONS?
225. WHICH ONES ARE YOU FEEDING?
226. IN REHAB IN FEBRUARY I HAD A BREAKDOWN AFTER AN AA MEETING...
227. THEY BROUGHT UP THE MAKE AMENDS STEP AND I HAD TO FACE MY WORST SINS FROM MY CHILDHOOD...
228. I WAS IN MY ROOM ALONE ON MY KNEES CRYING I COULDN'T HANDLE IT...
229. I WAS ON FACEBOOK TOO DESCRIBING IT...
230. I COULD FEEL THE DEMON FEEDING OFF OF THE PAIN AND I ENVISIONED ME STARING IT IN THE EYE...
231. I STARED IT IN THE EYE AND REFUSED TO BE BROKEN. YOU WILL NOT BREAK ME...BUT ENJOY YOUR MEAL...
232. DINNER'S ON ME TONIGHT DEMON BUT YOUR DAYS ARE NUMBERED...
233. I WASN'T EVEN ON THE MAKE AMENDS STEP YET WHY TF THEY DO THAT?
234. I'M NOT REALLY READY TO DISCUSS THE TRAUMA AND HOW I ROSE ABOVE IT...IT'S STILL FRESH...
235. FROM 7-14 I HAD TWISTED SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS.
236. AT 13 I ENTERED A ROOM AND WAS TOLD I COULDN'T LEAVE. I STAYED. IT BOTHERS ME.
237. JUST THE CARDS I WAS DEALT...
238. IT'S TOO EARLY FOR THIS...WE JUST DID THE IMPOSSIBLE ON THE CHARTS. YA'LL..
239. WELL AT LEAST NOW I KNOW HOW TO NEUTRALIZE THE TRADING HIGH TO REMAIN FOCUSED AND STAY HUMBLE...
240. GIVE THE DEMON SOME PAIN TO EAT...
241. I JUST NEUTRALIZED THE TRADER'S RUSH WITH MY DEPRESSION YA'LL...
242. I'M BORDERLINE EMO ASF RN YA'LL BUT AT LEAST I CAN SEE THE CHART WITHOUT EMOTION...
243. IDK HOW I FEEL RN. I GOTTA GO. PEACE OUT...
244. I DIDN'T EAT YET. I'MA CHILL TO MYSELF THEN COME BACK AND WRITE PAIGE PAGES...
245. WRITING THE DRY DICK DIARIES WILL DEFINITELY CHEER ME UP LMAO...
246. I'M THE MOST FEARLESSLY HONESTLY INTIMATE WRITER EVER...I GAVE THE PAGES MY SOUL...
247. I AM A WRITER. THE READER IS MY BEST FRIEND. BARE YOUR SOUL...
248. DID I JUST GO FROM A MANIC HIGH TO A MANIC LOW EPISODE?
249. AT LEAST THE TRADER'S RUSH IS GONE...
250. WHEN I SAY THE RUSH IS GONE...I'M DEADASS...THE FLASHBACKS KILLED ALL THAT SH...
251. MY DEPRESSED PAIN IS MY BEST FRIEND. I CAN DEAL WITH THAT ALL DAY...TRADER'S RUSH IS NOT PRODUCTIVE.
252. I'M GOING TO USE THE FLASHBACKS AS A WEAPON TO KEEP ME FOCUSED AND CALM ON THE CHARTS YA'LL...
253. THE DAY KEEPS GETTING BETTER AND BETTER NIGGA...
254. I NEED SOME ME TIME THO SO DUECES...
255. NIGGA JUST DID THE IMPOSSIBLE ON THE CHARTS AND FIGURED OUT HOW TO NEUTRALIZE THE TRADER'S HIGH...
256. I GOTTA GO BORDERLINE EMO AND JUST STAY THERE ON THE PRECIPICE...
257. LET'S SEE IF THE RUSH COMES BACK...WHILE MOVING AWAY FROM THE PRECIPICE...
258. I'LL BE OK. THIS PAIN ISN'T REAL.
259. @4-5PM I'LL RETURN...
260. I'M THE FKN MAN YA'LL...ON MANY LEVELS...
261. YOU'RE GONNA MISS ME SO MUCH...I'M SO AWESOME...
262. BE BACK LATER...
263. 40.9K WORDS. 191 PAGES. 3021 POSTS...
264. AND NOT ONE PERSON DELETED ME YET...THANK YOU...I'M SHARING THE CODES...
265. I NEED ME TIME THO THAT WAS THREE INTENSE SITUATIONS BACK TO BACK...TO BACK...
266. $20,050USD NASDAQ BTW...
267. I WISH I WAS IN CONTACT WITH SOME BEARS WHEN THAT HAPPENED...
268. YOU GOT TO SEE THAT SH FROM MY SIDE...I WAS WITH THE WINNER'S THIS TIME...
269. I NEVER RESPONDED TO AMY...I HAD A SWORD IN BOTH OF MY HANDS...
270. 6:50PM EST – 11.4.2024
271.