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FRIDAY MAY 30TH, 2025 -
5.30.2025 -
SATURDAY MAY 31ST, 2025...
5.31.2025...
MONOLOGUE WRITING SESSION...
WBIR PHONE SESSION ACT TWO PAGE 40...
VISUAL...
WE SEE...
CHAD (OFF CAMERA)
๐คณ๐ฑ ๐ธ ๐ท ๐ฝ️๐ฅ
SO I BURNED DOWN ๐ ๐ MY PRISON NIGGA...
YEP... THAT'S JUST WHAT I DID...
YEP...CAUSE THAT'S JUST HOW I ROLL...
THEY TRAPPED ME IN A FAKE REALITY...
SO I SLOWLY POISONED ๐คข THE IMPRISONING BODY I WAS HELD CAPTIVE IN...
I DOOMED MYSELF TO A SLOW AND POSSIBLY VERY QUICK AND OR PAINFUL OR A PAINFULLY SLOW DEATH...
TIME WOULDN'T BE ON AN ADDICT'S SIDE...
NOW I JUST HAD TO USE THE TIME LEFT AS WISELY AS POSSIBLE...
NOT SEEKING A COMFORTABLE LIFE FOR MYSELF AS THE FIRST ๐ฅ PRIORITY...
MORE SO...CREATING A COMFORTABLE DEATH ☠️ ๐ FOR MYSELF AS IN I LEFT AN INSPIRATIONAL IMPACT ON THIS FAKE REALITY WITH THE SHORT TIME I HAD IN THIS FAKE ASS REALITY...
I JUST WANTED TO LEAVE POTENT MESSAGES BEHIND TO THE FUTURE ADULTS OF THE WORLD...
I OWE YOU A RETROSPECTIVE ACCOUNT OF WHAT I DID...WHAT I DIDN'T DO...WHAT I WISH I DID AND WHAT I WISH I DIDN'T DO...
I WISH I NEVER HAD SEX ONCE...
I WISH I NEVER TURNED TO ADDICTION...DESPITE HOW MUCH I LOVE THE FEELING...
I WAS CONSUMED BY MY PASSIONS AND MY ADDICTION TO SMOKE...
MARIJUANA AND TOBACCO...
I DIDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH IN PAIN I WAS AND I TURNED TO ADDICTION INSTEAD OF PROFESSIONAL HELP...
GET HELP IMMEDIATELY...
REHAB HOSPITALS HOSTED THREE OF THE BEST SETS OF 5-10 DAYS I'VE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE... ๐งฌ...
I LOVE REHAB...MY EXPERIENCES WERE BEAUTIFUL ๐ ❤️ ๐...
I EXPERIENCED SEXUAL TRAUMA FROM AGES 7-14 IN MY HOMETOWN OF MIAMI, FLORIDA...12/29/1989...
I ENCOUNTERED TWO PEDOS IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD AND ONE WAS THE COUSIN OF MY BEST FRIEND...I WAS FUCKED...
I HAVE HORRIBLE MEMORIES...
I ENTERED A ROOM AT 13 AND WAS TOLD I COULDN'T LEAVE AND IT'S THE WORST MEMORY OF MY LIFE...I WAS ONE OF THREE MINORS IN THE ROOM WITH THE ADULT AND I CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT THEIR PAIN LEVEL...ARE THEY OK? ARE THEY MAD AT ME? IT WAS THEIR FAMILY...I WAS THE OUTSIDER CAUGHT UP IN SOME FAMILY BULLSHIT...
WILL GOD FORGIVE ME?
DID IT REALLY HAPPEN?
WAS IT JUST A SIMULATED EVENT?
WAS IT JUST A TEST DRILL?
DID I FAIL?
DID I REMEMBER THE LESSON?
I REMEMBER THE LESSON...
SEX IS SO DANGEROUS
⚡ ⚡ ⚡...
AND IT'S THE EASIEST WAY TO THE DARK SIDE ๐ ๐ถ️ OF THE FORCE...
BY 18 I WAS PURSUING SEXUAL ABSTINENCE...
SINCE 17-18 I'VE HAD SEX 3-4 TIMES... I'M 36 IN 6 MONTHS PENDING MORE LIFE ๐งฌ...
I'VE NEVER BEEN MARRIED...
THE ONLY OFFICIAL ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP WAS WHEN I WAS 13-14...WHEN THE TRAUMA WAS OCCURING...
I'VE NEVER BEEN IN AN ADULT RELATIONSHIP ROMANTICALLY...
I'VE NEVER GOTTEN A WOMEN PREGNANT... I'VE NEVER LIVED WITH A WOMAN UNLESS I WAS JUST A ROOMMATE SOMEWHERE...
I SHY AWAY FROM PEOPLE...
I'M A SOCIAL RECLUSE...YOU ONLY SEE ME ONCE EVERY FEW YEARS...
SOCIALIZING WITH SELF PRESERVATIONAL ZOMBIES IS POINTLESS ๐ ☝️...
EVERYONE ONLY CARES ABOUT THEIR OWN BODY... IT'S LITERALLY LIFE... EVERYONE JUST WANTS TO SURVIVE...
LET THEM MAKE THEIR SET APPOINTMENT...
I WRITE ✍️ BOOKS ๐ ๐ IN MY ROOM ALONE AND STUDY THE FINANCIAL MARKETS...
I USE MY SMOKING ๐ฌ ๐ญ MONEY ๐ฐ ๐ค TO FUND MY INVESTMENT ACCOUNTS...
I TRADE CURRENCY... ๐ฒ ๐ต...
MY NAME IS SILVER BURGER RAINMAN...
๐ฅ ๐ ๐ง️ ☔ ๐ ♂️...
I'M A QUANT...I MAKE ALGORITHMS AND I USE WEBSITE DATA...I DON'T ANALYZE CANDLES...I CREATE ALGORITHMS... I'LL SHARE THE ALGO WITH YOU SOON...
TRADING CURRENCY AND LEARNING TO INVEST IN EMERGING TECH STOCKS SAVED ME FROM ADDICTION...
SINCE I STARTED TRADING CURRENCY ๐ฒ ๐ต IN JUNE 2018...YEAR SEVEN APPROACHES IN A FEW DAYS...MEMORIAL DAY 2018 WAS THE LAST HOLIDAY BEFORE I WAS THE RAINMAN...
2018 WAS WHEN THE TRAUMA RESURFACED WITHIN MY MIND AND BECAME A DAILY HASSLE...
BEFORE THIS POINT ๐ ☝️ I DIDN'T HAVE THE PAIN SO PREVALENT ON MY MIND...
SO I HAD TO CONCOCT A CURRENCY ๐ฒ ๐ต TRADING ALGORITHM WHILE EXPERIENCING THE TRAUMATIC BLOWBACK...
THE CURRENCY TRADING AND THE WRITING OCCUPIED MY TIME AND MY MIND...
THE CURRENCY ๐ฒ ๐ต TRADING WAS THE FIRST THING I REALIZED I WANTED TO SPEND MY MONEY ON MORE SO THAN SMOKING ๐ฌ ๐ญ...I WAS SO EXCITED...
I THREW MYSELF INTO TRADING...MAY 2017 I STARTED RESEARCHING EMERGING TECH STOCKS AFTER HEARING ABOUT BITCOIN FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE I HAD BOUGHT AND SOLD THREE BOUGHT IN JULY 2013 FOR $88 A PIECE...ISAIAH NOBLE...TOLD ME ABOUT THE BITCOIN AND I BOUGHT HIM ONE...
WE BOTH SOLD OURS IMMEDIATELY...
WHEN I TOLD MY MOM I BOUGHT BITCOINS SHE FREAKED OUT...
IT SCARED ME...I TRUSTED HER...
WHAT THE FUCK DID SHE KNOW RIGHT?
THAT WAS MY INTRODUCTION TO CURRENCY TRADING...CRYPTO AND STOCK HOLDING...NOW I'M THE RAINMAN...
I HAVE A LOT TO LIVE FOR...
I'M EXTREMELY AMBIVALENT...
I AM CONFLICTED...
DO I STAY OR DO I GO?
THAT'S NOT UP TO ME...
MY JOB IS TO WRITE MY BOOKS AND LEARN TO INVEST MY MONEY AND TO GROW CLOSER TO GOD...
THE ONLY THING ABOUT GROWING CLOSER TO GOD IS...
SOONER OR LATER... HE'S GOING TO WANT TO MEET YOU AGAIN...
MY NEXT THOUGHT EXPERIMENT ๐ฅผ ๐งช IS TO CONVERT MY BODILY LUST ❤️๐ฅ ❤️๐ฅ ❤️๐ฅ FOR SEX AND CHEMICALS INTO MENTAL FOCUS...
THE SEXUAL URGE ALREADY GOES INTO MY WRITING...SEXUAL TRANSMUTATION... NAPOLEON HILL...THINK AND GROW RICH... ๐ชด ๐ค...
I'M NOT UNGRATEFUL TO BE ALIVE...
I'M PISSED I'M IN A SIMULATION SO I'M NOT GOING TO WASTE THE TIME THINKING ABOUT MYSELF AND WHAT I CAN GET OUT OF THIS PREDICAMENT...
WHAT I CAN GET OUT OF THIS PREDICAMENT IS AN INSPIRATIONAL LEGACY TO LEAVE BEHIND...
I CAN'T TAKE ANY OF THIS SHIT WITH ME... IT'S ALL FAKE...IF IT'S DOWN HERE IT AIN'T REAL...
I FEEL STUPID CHASING FAKE SHIT...
CHASING GREEN PIECES OF PAPER...
๐งฉ ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐️...
PIECES OF PAPER NOT BACKED BY ANY NATURAL RESOURCES...
FUCKING USELESS...BUT THEY TAUGHT US ALL TO BELIEVE THEIR LIES AND THEN TAUGHT US TO THINK LIKE EVERYONE ELSE...
I'M TRAPPED WITHIN A MAZE ๐ฝ OF LIES...A LABYRINTH OF DECEPTION INDEED NIGGA...
I JUST WANTED TO UNCOVER THE LIES AND PUBLISH THE TRUTH AND LEAVE THE MESSAGE TO THE FUTURE...
THE GOAL OF BEING STUCK IN AN ILLUSION... IS TO SEE THRU THE ILLUSION...
I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN HERE TOO MANY TIMES BEFORE...SEEING THRU THE ILLUSION MEANS I'M NOT HAPPY IN A WORLD OF LIES BUT THERE'S A PEACE THAT COMES WITH IT...
I'M JUST PISSED... ๐ก...
BUT I'M AT PEACE WITH MYSELF...
I'M SURROUNDED BY ANGELS AND THEY KEEP ME SAFE...
THEY TELL ME SECRETS...
SECRETS OF MY FUTURE AND SECRETS OF THE PAST...
I'M SENT HERE ON AN IMPORTANT MISSION...
I'M NOT BEING TORTURED FOR NO REASON...
BEING A PROPHET IS TORTURE...
IT FUCKING SUCKS... ๐ ๐...
I WOULDN'T TRADE IT...
MY PERSPECTIVE IS SO RARE... I'M INCREDIBLY LONELY...
I RARELY MEET A MIND OPEN ENOUGH TO HAVE AN UNBRIDLED CONVERSATION WITH...
MY NEXT THOUGHT EXPERIMENT ๐ฅผ ๐งช...
IS TO USE MY BODY'S CRAVINGS AS A FOCUS TOOL...
HERE'S THE LOGIC...
I ALWAYS WANT TO SMOKE...
SO IF I HAVE NOTHING TO SMOKE...NATURALLY I'M FRUSTRATED AND DEPRESSED AND DON'T WANT TO BE PRODUCTIVE...
THIS WOULD MEAN I WON'T END UP GETTING MY PROJECTS COMPLETED...
SO IF I HAVE NOTHING TO SMOKE...I HAVE TO APPLY THE CRAVING TO MY WRITING OR STUDYING...
I'LL NEVER STOP THINKING ABOUT SMOKING...
I'LL ALWAYS DESPERATELY CRAVE THE CHEMICALS...EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY...
REALIZE THE LOOP...
IF I HAD 100 CIGARETTES ๐ฌ ๐ญ I'D JUST SMOKE 100 CIGARETTES ๐ฌ ๐ฌ AND THEN WANT MORE...
IF I HAD 100 BLUNTS I'D SMOKE 100 BLUNTS AND THEN LOOK FOR THE DOPEMAN AGAIN...
IF I HAD SEX 100 TIMES...I WOULD JUST CRAVE 101 DALMATIANS...
IT'S A LOOP THAT WILL NEVER BE SATIATED...
THE CRAVING WILL NEVER BE SATISFIED...
I HAVE TO USE THE CRAVING TO MY BENEFIT...
NOT AS IN ONLY GIVING IN TO IT...FEED IT WHEN I CAN...WHEN I CAN'T...SUCK IT UP... IT'S ONLY POISONING ME IM EXCHANGE ๐ฑ FOR A CHEMICAL RISH DESTINED TO FADE...AS THE CHEMICALS STICK TO MY ORGANS AND CRAVE COMPANY...
I'M INGESTING LONELY HOMESICK POISON...
THE POISON IN MY BODY IS HOMESICK AND IT MISSES IT'S FAMILY...AND IT'S ADDICTIVE SO NOW I KIDNAPPED IT'S FAMILY AND I JUST KEEP HOLDING THE CHEMICALS HOSTAGE WITHIN MY BODY...
UNTIL INEVITABLY...MY BODILY ORGANS ๐ซ ๐ซ GIVE OUT AND I FUCKING DIE...
I MIGHT BE DOOMED...MY FATE MAY BE SEALED...
BUT LORD KNOWS I CAN LEAVE THE MESSAGE TO YOU...
HOW I WAS COPING WITH IT...
HOW I WAS PLANNING TO COPE WITH IT...
THE NEXT THOUGHT EXPERIMENTS I WAS CONCOCTING...
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WBIR PHONE SESSIONS ACT TWO...
VISUAL...
WE SEE...
CHAD (OFF CAMERA)
A DRUG ADDICT IS A VERY PERSISTENT PERSON...THEIR DETERMINATION IS UNRIVALED...
IF THE DRUG ADDICT CAN MANAGE TO PURSUE ANYTHING OTHER THAN THEIR DRUG ADDICTION...THEY WILL THE BEST AT IT...RIGHT?
ARE DRUG ADDICTS NOT PERSISTENT ASS MOTHER FUCKERS?
HUH?
I BET THEY ARE...
WE'RE NOT AFRAID TO POISON OUR OWN BODIES FOR SOME SICK ๐คข ๐ท PLEASURE BEFORE WE DIE ๐ฒ ๐ฒ ๐ฒ...
WE ARE FEARLESS...AND LET THE LAW TELL IT...LAWLESS...
IF WE TAKE THIS PERSISTENCE AND APPLY IT ANYWHERE ELSE...BOOM...NIGGA WE MADE IT...
I ADVISE YOU TAKE YOUR DOPE MONEY AND LEARN TO INVEST IT...
I'LL SHARE MY NOTES...
IF WE SPEND OUR DOPE MONEY ON ASSETS INSTEAD OF A LIABILITY...OUR LIFE CONDITIONS WILL ENHANCE... EXTERNALLY...WE JUST HAVE TO FOCUS ON THE INTERNAL HEALING PROCESS...
I TRY TO REMEMBER THIS ISN'T REAL...
WHEN IT GROWS TO BE TOO MUCH... ๐ชด...
I REMIND MYSELF I'M LIVING ONLY WITHIN A DEAD MAN'S DREAM...
I'M ALREADY IN THE AFTERLIFE THAT'S WHY EVERYONE SEEMS LIKE ZOMBIES...
SPIRITUALITY IS NOT AN OPTION...
ONLY GOD CAN SAVE US...
THE MAIL ๐ ๐ฌ ๐ ♂️ MAN
CAN'T SAVE US...
THE NEXT DOOR NEIGHBOR CAN'T SAVE US...
THE GIRL NEXT DOOR...OR THE BOY NEXT DOOR ๐ช...
CAN NOT SAVE US...
OUR PAIN COMES FROM OUR IDENTITY...
I THINK I'M CHAD AND CHAD THINKS HE IS REAL AND CHAD WENT THRU PAIN AND HE THOUGHT THE PAIN WAS REAL AND NEITHER CHAD NOR HIS PAIN EXISTS...BUT CHAD BELIEVED THEY DID...
AND THAT...WAS THE MOTHER FUCKING PROBLEM...
THERE'S YOUR EPIDEMIC THIRD ๐ฅ ๐ฅ ๐ชจ...
THIRD ๐ฅ ๐ฅ ๐ชจ ROCK...IS MY TERM FOR PLANET EARTH
๐ ๐ ☀️ ๐ ⭐ ✨...
JUST REALIZE YOU'RE NOT REALLY HERE...NONE OF THIS IS TRULY...REALLY... ACTUALLY... HAPPENING...IN ALL ACTUALITY...
I LIVED AN ADDICT'S LIFE... ๐งฌ...
I DESERVE AN ADDICT'S DEATH ☠️ ๐...
THE INEVITABLE OVERDOSE...
OR THE UNTIMELY ORGAN ๐ซ ๐ซ FAILURE...
I MIGHT DIE SAVING THE LIFE OF A KID IN AN ACCIDENT...
THE ANGELS TOLD ME THAT AT AGE 22...SUNDAY OCTOBER 28TH, 2012...I DAY I FOUND OUT VANESSA HONEY MALONE...WAS MURDERED...5 DAYS EARLIER...I MISSED HER FUNERAL... ⚱️...
I EITHER DIE SAVING A KID IN AN ACCIDENT OR THE ACCIDENT WAS I OVERDOSED OR MY ORGANS ๐ซ ๐ซ FAILED...
AND MY MESSAGES SAVE SOME KID'S LIFE...
I'M SHARING THE TIPS I USED TO KEEP GOING...
I WAS RESISTING THE URGE TO KILL MYSELF YET I KILLED MY ORGANS ๐ซ ๐ซ BY SMOKING ๐ฌ ๐ญ...
THAT'S SO FUCKED UP...
ISN'T IT IRONIC?
THE CRAVING WILL NEVER GO AWAY...
SO LET US LEARN TO ALOWLY REDIRECT IT...
I DON'T WANT YOU TO KILL YOURSELF...
I DON'T WANT YOU TO GIVE UP...
I DIDN'T GIVE UP...AND I DIDN'T KILL MYSELF...CHEMICAL POISONING FROM ADDICTION SHOULD COUNT AS SUICIDE...
UNINTENTIONAL...I DID IT INTENTIONALLY... LET'S SAVE THE CAP ๐ ๐งข...
LET'S LOWER CASE THOSE LETTERS ๐ค ๐ CAUSE THAT'S CAP...
ALL CAP... ๐ ๐งข...
DON'T WORRY...
IT'S ALL GOING TO WORK OUT...FOR ALL OF US...
I WAS ON YOUR SIDE...
MY TOP PRIORITY IN LIFE ๐งฌ WAS TO LEAVE A POSITIVE MESSAGE TO YOU...
I CAN RELATE TO YOUR PAIN AND I CARE ABOUT YOUR WELL ❤️๐ฉน BEING...
MY BODY WILL GIVE OUT BEFORE I GIVE UP...
RAZORS ๐ช PAIN YOU...
RIVERS ARE DAMP...
ACID STAINS ๐ซ YOU...
DRUGS CAUSE CRAMPS...
GUNS ๐ซ AREN'T LAWFUL...
NOOSES GIVE...
GAS SMELLS ⛽ ๐ ๐ฝ AWFUL...
YOU MIGHT AS WELL LIVE...
LISA ROWE...
GIRL, INTERRUPTED...
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WAS I SUPPOSED TO ATTACH?
I WOULDN'T BE HERE FOREVER ♾️...THE BODY NEVER SEES FOREVER ♾️...THE CONCEPT OF FOREVER IS UNKNOWN TO THE HUMAN BODY...
THERE WAS A TIME LIMIT...
MOST WILL PLEASE THEIR BODY UNTIL THE TIME LIMIT HITS...
๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฏ...
HOW MUCH CAN YOU TOUCH BEFORE THE LIMIT IS UP?
IS THAT THE MISSION?
HOW MUCH CAN YOU SEE?
HOW MUCH CAN YOU FEEL?
HOW MUCH CAN YOU TASTE?
HOW MUCH CAN ONE SMELL?
HOW MUCH CAN I IMPACT THIS FAKE REALITY WHILE I'M DOWN HERE ๐๐?
HOW MUCH CAN I LEAVE BEHIND?
I'M NOT REALLY HERE...
I WAS NEVER HERE...
I AM...SOMEWHERE ELSE...
I CAN FEEL IT...
I WANT TO FEEL IT MORE...
I WANT TO TAP INTO WHAT I CAN'T SEE TO HELP NEUTRALIZE THE URGE OF THE SENSES...
HOW CAN I NEUTRALIZE OR NEGATE THE SENSES?
THE FIVE SENSES ARE THE TEST...
IT'S A SENSE...
CAN WE SAY ESSENCE?
THE WORDS ARE SIMILAR...
WE ARE IN THE MIDST OF THE ESSENCE...
ESSENCE OR ILLUSION?
IN THE ILLUSION ALL WE CAN SENSE IS THE ESSENCE? OR IS THE SENSE THE ILLUSION?
WHAT WE SEE... ISN'T REALLY HAPPENING...
IS THAT NOT ๐ญ ๐ซ WHAT AN ILLUSION IS SIR?
OR MA'AM?
EVERYONE IS INSIDE OF THIS SAME CRISIS...
I DON'T WANT TO BE THEIR FRIEND...
GOOD LUCK ON YOUR TEST ASSHOLE...
MY TIME LIMIT WAS PRETTY MUCH SHOWN TO ME...
I WAS NEVER GOING TO GROW OLD... ๐ชด...
PEOPLE LIKE ME DON'T GROW OLD...
THEY ONLY SEND ME WHEN IT'S WARTIME...
IF WHAT I'M GOING THRU SEEMS AS ROUGH AS IT DOES TO ME... I'M STILL ALIVE...
THE MENTAL PAIN NEVER KILLED ME...
IT JUST SUCKED...REALLY BAD...
I REALLY HATE IT...
IT'S THE BEST FRIEND I NEVER WANTED...
THIS WORLD IS PLAYING WITH YOUR MIND...
SO YOU HAVE TO RESET IT...
THEY WIRED US FUCKED UP...
WE ALL ARE BAFFLED BY HOW FUCKED UP HUMANITY CAN BE...
IT'S BECAUSE WE'RE NOT HUMANITY... WE'RE NOTHING BUT ZOMBIES...
YOU CAN'T TRUST A ZOMBIE...
YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO BE FUCKING NEAR A ZOMBIE...
FUCK IS MY FAVORITE WORD YES!
TOO SHORT THAT'S MY FAVORITE WORD...
CAUSE THAT'S ALL Y'ALL DO...
WHOOP YA WHEN I WANNA
ALL YOU DO IS FUCK UNTIL FALLING ASLEEP AND THEN DREAMING OF PUSSY...
WE KNEW RIGHT FROM WRONG YOUR HONOR...WE JUST DIDN'T GIVE A FUCK...
FASTEST WAY TO GET THE MAXIMUM SENTENCE...
BUT I WAS WRONG AND THUS DESERVE TO SUFFER FOR MY ACTIONS...ADDED AT THE END MIGHT HELP BC THAT'S WHAT THE JUDGE IS GONNA SAY...
YOU KNEW IT WAS WRONG BUT YOU AIN'T GIVE A FUCK!
RIGHT?
I MEAN?
RIGHT?
OR AM I THE ASSHOLE?
ZOMBIES ARE EXCITED BY TREACHERY...
THE URGES OF THE CRAVE IS JUST TOO TOUGH...
THE CRAVE...
WHAT WE FEEL...ALL DAY...
CRAVERS...WHAT THEY CALL US... ๐ค ๐ค ๐ค...
I USED TO THINK A WOMAN WAS A PRINCESS MORALLY...THEY TURNED OUT TO BE CON WOMEN...
WHO AM I TO THINK ๐ฌ ๐ค I CAN KEEP A ZOMBIE HAPPY?
I'LL BE ENSLAVED TO MY CRAVING AND HERS...
I'M DOUBLING UP ON KY EXISTENTIAL CRISIS...
ONE EXISTENTIAL CRISIS IS ENOUGH...
THEY TAUGHT US TO TAKE ON MORE...
THEY TAUGHT US COMPLETELY OPPOSITE IN TERMS OF GENDER...
THEY TAUGHT US TO ATTACH TO EACH OTHER WITH OUR NEVER ENDED CRAVING AND DESTROY EACH OTHER...
WE ARE CRABS ๐ฆ ♋ IN THE OCEAN ๐ชธ ๐...
A FAKE ASS OCEAN...
CRABS IN A GOLDFISH BOWL ๐ฅฃ ๐ NIGGA...
YEA - YEA I SAID IT...
ALL WE DO IS CRAB...
CRAB - CRAB - CRAB ๐ฆ ๐ฆ ๐ฆ...
SKIPPITY SCOOP ๐ช ๐ช ๐ช...
I DENIED THE OTHER CRAVINGS AS MUCH AS I COULD...
I CHOSE THE CRAVING TO SMOKE WEED...
ENDED UP SMOKING TOBACCO AS A BACKUP...
IT WAS MY ARTISTIC MUSE...
AND I DEDICATED MY LIFE TO MY ART...
MY ART WOULD NEVER BETRAY ME...
I WANTED THE BIGGER LEGACY...
I WANTED TO DO SOMETHING UNFATHOMABLE...
YOU CAN'T FATHOM WHAT I THINK OF...
THAT'S WHY I WROTE IT DOWN ๐ ๐ ✍️ ✍️...
MY MIND WAS TOO GREAT TO JUST THINK OF MYSELF...
WASTE OF GREATNESS...
GREATNESS MISPLACED...
THE FUTURE NEEDS SOMEONE TO LEAVE A MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE...
IF THIS WORLD IS FAKE THEN SO ARE IT'S TREASURES...
I'M JUST REALLY ANTI SOCIAL...
WE'RE ALL ZOMBIES...
MIGHT AS WELL JUST KEEP ON Z WALKING...
I ENVISION THE Z WALK AS THE CRIP WALK...THESE ZOMBIES
Z WALKING TO THE CRAVING...
ASKING SOMEONE TO STAY WITH ME FOREVER SOUNDS LIKE KIDNAPPING...
WHO WANTS TO BE KIDNAPPED?
WE ALREADY ARE KIDNAPPED...
BY OUR BODIES...
THE BODY...IS PROMISCUOUS...
THE BODY IS A FLIRT...
THE BODY IS A TRAIN ๐ ๐ WRECK THE DAY BEFORE...
THE BODY IS A WHORE...
DO WE NOT EAT ALL TYPES OF FOOD?
DO WE NOT DRINK ALL TYPES OF DRINK? ๐ท ๐ป ๐ฅ ๐ฅ...
DO WE NOT LUST AFTER A LONG LIST?
DO WE NOT KEEP THIS LIST ON OUR MIND?
WHEN ARE WE NOT CRAVING?
MAYBE THEIRS A HUGE PARASITE ๐ชฑ ๐ชฑ ๐ชฑ
INSIDE OF US ๐ ๐ ๐ ...
THE BODY BEHAVES LIKE A PARASITE...
WHY DON'T YOU TRUST OTHER PEOPLE?
HUH?
TELL ME...
PLEASE...
THE NIGGA PLEASE...
YOU KNOW WHY...
THEY'RE ALL ZOMBIES AND YOU FUCKING KNOW IT BITCH...
ACK - ACK - ACK...
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WHAT'S MORE IMPORTANT?
MY SURVIVAL OR THE BLOODLINE I LEAVE BEHIND?
I'M NOT REALLY HERE...
NOW I CAN DO ANYTHING...
AND I DEFINITELY WILL...
ONLY DEATH STOPPED ME...
...๐๐ ❌...
WHAT I DIDN'T KNOW BEFORE WAS...
THE MENTAL PAIN CAN'T KILL YOU...
IT'S UNREALISTIC...
IT'S UNREAL...REALLY UNREALISTIC...
ACTUALLY...
WE'RE TRAPPED WITHIN A PHYSICAL BODY BC IN HERE ONLY GOD WILL SAVE US...
...๐ ๐ ๐...
WE ARE TRAPPED WITHIN A DEEP CAVE...
WE ARE SUBMERGED...47 METERS OF PRESSURE OF BULLSHIT...
ALL DAY IT'S BULLSHIT...
RIGHT?
WHERE'S THE BULLSHIT?
LIKE OOPS...
YOUR FRONT DOOR ๐ช NIGGA...
IF NOT...
NIGHT'S STILL YOUNG NIGGA...
SHE'S GOING TO CRAVE NON-STOP ALL DAY...JUST LIKE ME...WHENEVER SHE CRAVES DIFFERENT SHE CAN ABANDON MY PRESENCE...
FUCKING CON ARTIST MAN...
RIGHT?
I SPEND A BILLION DOLLARS ON HER CRAVINGS AND SHE MIGHT STILL LEAVE ME...
NOTHING MATTERS...
SHE CAN FORGET ANYTHING...
AND EVERYTHING...
IN SECONDS ๐ญ...
SECONDS NIGGA...
LESS THAN 2...
OOPS...
I KINDA LIED BUT AM I KINDA LYING?
THIS IS WHERE YOU REMIND ME TO REWIND ⏪...
I'LL SAY THAT AGAIN...
FOR DRAMA...
REITERATION...
SHE LOVES HER BODY MORE THAN YOU...OTHERWISE IT IS SUICIDE...
BY DEFAULT...
FAULTY NIGGA...
I'M AN ADDICT...
AND I'LL DIE THE DEATH I DESERVED...IF I HAVE A KID NOW THE NAME WOULD BE ROYAL...
I GAVE MY LIFE TO MY CRAFTS...
THEY WILL HAVE A PLACE IN THOSE INDUSTRIES...
THE OPPORTUNITIES I WANTED THEY WILL BE BORN WITH THEM IF I DIE BEFORE THEY ARE BORN...
I MIGHT LEAVE A REPLACEMENT...
BORN INTO THEIR OWN STRUGGLE UNDER MY LEGACY AS MY LEGACY...
THE KID IS THE LEGACY SO I LEFT THE KID AN INHERITED LEGACY...IF NOT THEN MY BIRTH FAMILY GETS ALL OF THE MONEY...
BUT A KID TO REPLACE ME SEEMS FITTING...
IT'S UP TO GOD NOW TO DO THE REST...
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