CHAD DIARY ENTRY 2

6:00PM EST -

1.28.2023

JANUARY 28TH, 2023

THEY COULDN'T PREVENT THE TRAUMA YOU SAW.
THEY BROUGHT YOU INTO A WORLD THEY WERE STILL STRUGGLING IN - IN SOME WAY.
THEY BROUGHT YOU INTO A SICK WORLD.
A SICK WORLD PLAYING AN EVEN SICKER GAME IS NOT THE SICKEST THING YOU EVER DID SEE?
EVERY ONE PLAYS THE SICK GAME THE SSME GAME.
YOU CAN'T SEPARATE HOW YOU SEE WHAT YOU SEE FROM WHAT YOU SAW AND HOW YOU FELT SEEING WHAT YOU SAW.
THEN TO SEE EVERYONE ELSE DAM NEAR PLAYING THE SAME SICK GAME.
FROM THERE YOU JOURNEY TO ISOLATE THE INDIVIDUAL SICK QUALITIES OF THE GAME THEY PLAY AND ASK YOU TO PLAY.
THEY NEVER ASK IT WAS BEING FORCED ON YOU.
THINK AND ACT LIKE EVERYONE IN THE SICK GAME.
PLAY THE SICK GAME.
AFTER GOING THRU SICK STUFF THAT MADE YOU MENTALLY SICK.
NOW YOU'RE ON PAPERS FOR LIFE.
DIAGNOSED AS SICK IN THE MIND AND PRESCRIBED 5 PILLS PER DAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE UNLESS YOU NEED MORE AS THE JOURNEY CONTINUES.
5 PILLS PER DAY IS A LOT TO START WITH.
TO GO FROM NO MEDICATION EVER TO 5 PILLS DAILY BETWEEN 3 DIFFERENT MEDICATIONS.
YOU WOULD WANT THAT TO SUFFICE WOULDN'T YOU?
THEN THE ONES WHO RAISED YOU JUDGE YOU.
THEY MOCK YOU THEY PERSECUTE YOU THEY CONDEMN YOU FOR NOT MEETING THEIR EXPECTATIONS. 
THEY DIDN'T LIVE UP TO YOUR EXPECTATIONS EITHER.
THEY ABSOLVE THEMSELVES FROM ANY GUILTY EMOTION BY DEMANDING YOU DEAL WITH WHAT THEY COULDN'T PROTECT YOU FROM FASTER AND BETTER.
THEY PLAY WITH EMOTIONS THEY CAN'T MATCH LIFE EXPERIENCE THEY CAN'T MATCH AND INFORMATION ACQUIRED THEY HAVEN'T MATCHED.
BEING ONE WHO NEVER PLAYED THE SICK GAME FROM THE START AND REBELLED AGAINST THE ACTIONS WITH HOW THEY LIVED LIFE YOU WERE BLESSED WITH THE KEYS TO UNIVERSAL ACQUISITION.
BUT WHAT DID YOU CHOOSE TO ASK FOR FROM THE UNIVERSE?
WHAT WERE YOU PRAYING FOR?
WHAT DID YOU WANT THE MOST?
AFTER EVERYTHING YOU EXPERIENCED?
YOU GAVE YOUR LIFE TO MASTERING THE ARTISTIC PROCESS AND LEAVING THE BLUEPRINT AND PRACTICE FILES BEHIND.
SPENT LIFE MAKING DEMOS KNOWING EVERYONE DOESN'T LIVE TO SEE THE DEAL.
KNOWING THE DEMOS ARE YOUR CAREER IN DEATH AND LEGACY FILES.
MAKING THE LIFE GOAL SO DEEP ITS NEEDED IN THE UNIVERSE AND WOULD ALWAYS HAPPEN.
NOTHING SUPERFICIAL IN THE REQUEST WILLING TO GIVE UP ALL REWARDS IN LIFE JUST FOR IT TO HAPPEN AUTOMATICALLY IN DEATH.
NOT TO SPEND THIS LIFE PLAYING EVERYONE ELSE'S GAME.
I SPENT LIFE PLAYING MY OWN GAME.
I FOLLOWED THE UNIVERSAL LAW.
I FOLLOWED THE JUNGLE LAW.
I FOLLOWED THE FOUR FATHER'S ORIGINAL CONSTITUTION.
I STUDIED THE SECRETS OF ECONOMICS.
I LEARNED HOW TO EARN A DOLLAR FROM ANY STOCK I EVER BOUGHT.
I NEVER LOST A DOLLAR FROM THE STOCK MARKET BC I KNOW WHAT AND FROM WHERE I AM BUYING.
I ONLY BUY INTO THE FUTURE BUSINESSES OF AMERICA.
ECONOMICS IS MY SUPERPOWER.
BUT I USE THE INFORMATION AS A TRUE LEADER AND NOT A SELFISH INDIVIDUAL.
SO THE TRAUMA I EXPERIENCED MADE ME WISH EVERY DAY I WOULD DIE AND NO LONGER HAVE TO BE INSIDE OF THIS SICK GAME.
I WON'T FORFEIT MY DESTINY NOR BETRAY IT FOR THIS SICK WORLD.
YOU HAVE TO READ SENECA ON THE SHORTNESS OF LIFE TO CLICK WITH THAT MOST LIKELY.
I GAVE UP THE PERCEPTION OF EVERYONE AROUND ME TO GRAB MY DESTINY.
YOU LIVE YOUR LIFE PLAYING THIS SICK GAME I WILL NOT. 
I WILL CUT ALL TIES WITH YOU ALL BEFORE THAT EVER HAPPENS.
I USED THE GREAT MIND I WAS GIVEN TO BETTER THE FUTURE GENERATIONS WITH THE SECRETS I RELEASED IN MY ART.
I BROKE DOWN THE GATES FOR THE FUTURE
I WAS SEEKING REDEMPTION FOR MY DEEP DARK PAST.
I WAS MAKING SOMETHING RIGHT WITHIN MY SOUL.
I WAS TAKING CARE OF MY DOUBLE SIDED KARMA.
I'M THE ONE WHO WAS TRAUMATIZED.
I OWN MY PAST.
I HAVE TO LIVE WITH THOSE DEMONS.
THEY WANT ME OUT OF THE GAME.
THEY TRY SO HARD.
IF I PLAY THE SICK GAME I WON'T WANT TO LIVE THEREFORE MAKING YOU THE ENEMY TO MY DESTINY.
I WON'T LET ANYONE ROB MY DESTINY.
THE FUTURE UNIVERSE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER ME.
I STOOD FOR WHAT I STOOD FOR.
ONE OF THE GREATEST MINDS YOU WILL MEET OR NOT MEET EVER AND I SELFLESSLY GAVE THE CODE AWAY FOR FREE BC IT WAS NEVER ABOUT ME IT'S ABOUT WHAT'S NEEDED IN THE UNIVERSE.
I COULD HAVE USE THIS G