CRAZY HOUSE DIARIES

THE CRAZY HOUSE DIARIES

WRITTEN BY: CHAD XZAVIER HARRIS

THE INTRODUCTION:

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I NEEDED PROFESSIONAL HELP SINCE CHILDHOOD.
SINCE THE AGES OF 7-15 I NEEDED PROFESSIONAL HELP.
AT 27 THE NEED GREW WAY MORE OBVIOUS TO MYSELF.
SINCE 27 I HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH THE BUILDING PRESSURE.
THE DAY AFTER TURNING 33 I WAS RELEASED.
I COMMITTED MYSELF FOUR DAYS VEFORE CHRISTMAS.
I WAS ONE OF FOUR PEOPLE AT THE CENTER DURING THIS 10 DAY PERIOD WHO COMMITTED THEMSELVES TO THE FACILITY.
I FELT MY EMOTIONS SPIRALING OUT OF CONTROL. 
THE CRYING SPELLS WERE INTENSIFYING.
IT WAS GROWING MORE AND MORE UNBEARABLE OR INTOLERABLE WITH EACH PASSING HOURLY CANDLE.
I FELT MYSELF LOSING COMPASSION.
I DIDN'T WANT THAT.
SO ON A SATURDAY I BEGAN CALLING AROUND.
BY MONDAY I WAS PREPARED TO GO AFTER MAKING ARRANGEMENTS.
ON THE 20TH OF DECEMBER 2022 I WENT INTO A CRISIS STABILIZATION UNIT.
THE MENTAL HEALTH REHAB CENTER.
I WAS THERE FOR 10 DAYS.
THEY TURNED OUT TO BE THE TEN MOST PEACEFUL DAYS OF MY VERY EXISTENCE.

THE INTRODUCTION.

CHAPTER ONE:

I PACK MY BAGS AND HEAD FOR THE CENTER.
I PACK ENOUGH CLOTHES FOR THE STAY.
I LEFT MY PHONE.
I TOOK NOTEBOOKS AND PAPER.
I WAS ALLOWED THREE OUTFITS FOR THE STAY TO TAKE IN WITH ME.
THEY WASHED THE CLOTHES DAILY WVERY MORNING.
I RANG THE BELL.
ADMINISTRATION CAME OUT TO SPEAK WITH ME.
I HAD TO GO SOMEWHERE ELSE FOR STEP ONE.
I GO IN THE CAR TO DO THAT.
HANNAH COMES TO THE CAR DOOR.
SHE SCARES ME.
SHE SAYS IF I AM READY TO GO NOW THEY WILL TAKE ME IN NOW.
IT STARTS.
I GO INSIDE OF THE FACILITY AFTER HAVING MY LAST TOBACCO SMOKE BREAK FOR 10 DAYS. 
I DIDN'T FINISH THE BLACK AND MILD.
SHOULD HAVE.
BUT DIDN'T. 
THOUGHT ABOUT THAT BLACK AND MILD FOR THE NEXT TEN DAYS.
THEY GAVE OUT NICOTINE PATCHES LASTING FOR 24 HOURS.
EVERY NEW ONE YOU GET YOU MUSH THEN GIVE BACK THE PREVIOUS DAY'S PATCH.
JAFFI THE MALE NURSE TOLD ME ABOUT THE PATCH. 
HANNAH USHERS ME INTO A WAITING ROOM BEFORE I MEET JAFFI AND MIKE.
MIKE IS THE NEXT TO PROCESS ME AFTER HANNAH AND BEFORE JAFFI.
HANNAH INTERVIEWS ME IN THE WAITING ROOM WHILE I EAT THE DINNER MIKE BROUGHT IN FOR ME.
I EAT THE.CHICKEN NUGGETS FRIES AND SALAD.
HAVEN'T HAD SALAD IN A WHILE.
HANNAH ASKS ME ABOUT THE DETAILS.
I TELL HER THE DETAILS.
I JUST WANTED TO GET PROFESSIONAL HELP AND THERAPY AND MEDICATION FINALLY.
THE INTERVIEW WRAPS UP.
I DIDNT FIND OUT WE WERE BOTH CAPRICORNS UNTIL MY LAST DAY.
SHE WAS VERY HELPFUL TO ME.
THE FIRST PERSON I MET THERE.
THE FIRST STAFF MEMBER AS WELL.
HANNAH JAFFI AND MIKE AND TAMRA WERE THE FIRST STAFF MEMBERS I SPOKE TO.
TALKED TO JAFFI FOR ABOUT 2 HOURS WHILE PROCESSING MY PAPERWORK AND TAKING A COVID TEST.
FIRST COVID TEST AND IT CAME BACK NEGATIVE THANK GOD.
HAD A GOOD TIME CHOPPING IT UP WITH JAFFI.
WHEN IT WAS DONE I WENT BACK INTO THE NEXT ROOM WITH MIKE.
JUST TALKED TO MIKE ABOUT HOW THE FACILITY IS AND IT'S RULES.
DIDN'T KNOW ALL OF THE RULES BEFOREHAND BUT THEY WERE AGREEABLE.
I HAD NO IDEA HOW LONG I WOULD BE IN THE UNIT FOR.

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