CHAD DIARY ENTRY #3

CHAD DIARY ENTRY #3

6:45PM EST -

1.28.2023

JANUARY 28TH, 2023

I COULD HAVE USED THIS GREAT MIND FOR ONLY MYSELF.
WHAT I SAW MADE IT EASY NOT TO MAKE SUCH CHOICES.
IF I AM MEANT TO APPLY THE SECRET INFORMATION I ACQUIRED IT IS MEANT TO BE AND WILL HAPPEN IN TIME.
BEING CHOSEN TO FIND THE SECRETS IN THE FIRST PLACE IS THE ULTIMATE TEST.
WHAT WILL HE DO WITH THE SECRETS ONCE WE GIVE THEM TO HIM?
HE DIDN'T HAVE TO FIND THEM.
WE DIDN'T HAVE TO GIVE THEM TO HIM.
BUT WE DID.
NOW WHAT IS HE GOING TO DO WITH THEM?
WHAT IS HIS PLAN?
MORTAL PLANS VS THE IMMORTAL DESTINY IS THE TEST.
WHAT DID I DO WITH THE INFORMATION WHILE I APPLIED IT MYSELF?
SHARED IT IN MY FREE ART.
IT'S THE DEDICATION TO FREE ART THAT ALLOWED ME TO FIND THE SECRETS IN THE FIRST PLACE.
WITH THE GIFT COMES THE CURSE.
THE EQUAL OPPOSITE IS THE UNIVERSALLY POLITICAL CORRECT WAY TO STATE THE CONCEPT.
THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COIN.
YOU DIDN'T HAVE MY TRAUMA NOR PERCEPTION THEN AT THAT POINT.
THAT TRAUMATIZED PERCEPTION LED TO THIS CURRENT PERSPECTIVE.
IT'S AN ADMIRAL PERSPECTIVE TO HOLD YES.
BUT WHAT WAS THE COST?
I GAVE UP A LARGE PORTION OF MY SANITY TO REACH THIS POINT.
I EXCOMMUNICATED ANYONE WHO TRIED TO STOP ME.
I BOYCOTTED EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE WHO GOT IN MY WAY.
IF YOU MADE LIFE HARDER FOR ME I EVENTUALLY KICKED YOU OUT OF MY LIFE.
YOU COULDN'T GET ME ON THE PHONE IF YOU HAD MY NUMBER.
I HOLD THE SECRETS I HOLD THE POWER BUT I CHOSE TO USE THAT TO MAKE THE ART I CREATE RESONATE WITH THE UNIVERSE.
EVERYONE WAS TRAUMATIZED BY SOMETHING.
THE ILLUSIONS WE WERE RAISED TO CONFIDE IN EVENTUALLY COLLAPSED ON TO US AND IT NEVER FELT GOOD ONE TIME.
SHATTERED ILLUSIONS WILL NEVER FEEL GOOD AND WILL KEEP SHATTERING BEFORE YOUR VERY EYES AS LONG AS YOU PLAY THE GAME.
WHEN YOU DIE YOU FIND OUT NONE OF THIS WAS REAL IT WAS ALL AN ILLUSION TO SEE IF THE DEVIL COULD DISTRACT YOU FROM YOUR DESTINY.
BUT I WAS SEVERELY TRAUMATIZED VERY YOUNG WITH A GREAT MIND FROM THE START.
I WAS THE GREAT TRAUMATIZED MIND.
I REBELLED BY USING THE GREAT MIND TO ENSURE A GREAT FUTURE FOR THOSE WHO OBSERVED MY ARTISTIC CREATIONS.
I WAS EXPOSED TO DEMONS AT AGE SEVEN AND BEYOND AND THEY STAYED IN MY MIND REMINDING ME OF HOW THE DEVIL TRIED TO DRAFT ME.
THE SMARTER I GOT THE MORE MY DEMONS ATE AT MY MEMORIES.
THE MORE I REALIZED I WAS WRONG THE MORE IT HURT AND THE LESS I WANTED TO LIVE.
THE LESS I WANTED TO LIVE THE LESS I PLAYED THE GAME FORCED UPON ME.
THE LESS I PLAYED THE GAME THE MORE I REALIZED THE NEED TO LEARN THE ECONOMIC SECRETS.
NOW WITH THE ECONOMIC SECRETS I PUT THE CODE IN THE ART CREATED.
WHAT IF JUST LEARNING THE SECRETS WAS THE GIFT TO ME THE WRITER?
MAYBE ME THE ACTOR NEVER HAPPENS.
MAYBE ME THE DIRECTOR NEVER HAPPENS.
MAYBE ME THE CEO OF A PUBLICLY TRADED BLOCK CHAIN SMART CONTRACT COMPANY AND INVESTMENT FIRM NEVER HAPPENS.
BUT AS A WRITER I GAVE THE SECRETS TO MY READERS AND THEY LIVED OUT THERE DESTINY.
I DON'T FEAR FOR MY FUTURE BC I HOLD THE SECRETS.
MY PERCEPTION AND PERSPECTIVE ARE SO DIFFERENT I AM SAFE FROM NORMALITY.
BECOMING AT PEACE WITH THE DEMONS AND THE CURSE IS THE HARD PART.
YOU WERE CHOSEN TO LEAD THE FUTURE GENERATIONS WITH YOUR PRESENT PAST AND FUTURE THOUGHTS.
THE UNCERTAINTY OF DEATH'S TIMING IN RELATION TO YOUR MORTAL PLANS VS YOUR DESTINY ALWAYS LOOMS OVER YOUR HEAD.
NOT TO GET TOO CAUGHT UP IN HOW I WILL USE WHAT I LEARNED.
HOW TO MAKE SURE THE FUTURE KNEW THE SECRETS YOU LEARNED FOR THEIR LIVES TO BE BETTER.
GET TOO CAUGHT UP IN THE GAME OF PERSONAL ACQUISITION AND YOU MISS THE WHOLE POINT.
THE MATERIALS YOU ACQUIRE WON'T LAST FOREVER AND EVEN IF THEY DO YOU DON'T.
I HAVE A GREAT MIND.
GREAT MINDS MUST DO GREAT THINGS.
GREAT MINDS SACRIFICE THEMSELVES.
WHAT I WOULD DO WITH MY GREAT MIND WAS NOT TOP PRIORITY IT WAS SOMETHING THAT WILL PLAY ITSELF OUT UP TO A CERTAIN POINT.
TOP PRIORITY WAS TO REMEMBER THERE WILL BE A CERTAIN POINT WHERE I AM OUT OF THE GAME AND TO NEVER LOSE THAT PERSPECTIVE. 
THE FUTURE WILL REMEMBER ME BC I REMEMBERED THE FUTURE.
I USED MY MIND FOR THE BETTERMENT OF MANKIND WHICH IS HOW I SAID