WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION FOURTEEN:

 12:27PM EST - 1:41PM EST

TUESDAY JANUARY 30TH, 2024

1.30.2024

WRISTS BATHED IN RED

SESSION FOURTEEN: LIFE IS LIFE LP TRACK EIGHT: NO CADENCE FREE FORM CREEPY MOVIE ORIGIN STORY

CREEPY MOVIE

THERE'S A CREEPY SILLY MONSTER FOLLOWING

FOLLOWING YOU EVERY WHERE YOU SEEM TO BE

AND THIS MONSTER ONLY HAS ONE MISSION AND

THIS MISSION IS TO GET YOU QUESTIONING YOUR REALITY

THE MONSTER TOLD YOU EVERYTHING YOU SEE IS FAKE

AND EVERYTHING YOU EVER SAW WAS JUST A LIE

AND THE MONSTER DOESN'T EVEN FROM TRY TO HIDE

THEN HE TELLS YOU HE KNOWS HOW TO FLY

YOU SEE HE COULD FLY ANYWHERE HE WANTED TO

YET AND STILL HE CHOSE TO WALK AROUND WITH YOU

POINTING AS YOU WALK TO EVERY LITTLE THING YOU EVER SEE

ASKING YOU TO QUESTION IT AS HE CLOWNS AROUND WITH YOU

I DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU BUT CREEPY IS WHAT THIS SEEMS TO ME

THIS MONSTER TELLS YOU HE WOULD RATHER BE FISHING AND

HE CAN DO SO ONLY AFTER HELPING YOU CHANGE BANALITY YOUR PERSONALITY

HE TOLD YOU EVERY DOLLAR YOU EVER MAKE

WAS MADE FROM A KID'S TEARS ROLLED UP INTO A BALL OF DOUGH AFTER HE IS MADE TO CRY

THEN TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE STREET THIS MONSTER TRIES TO SLIDE

TELLING YOU A CAR IS COMING BUT YOU CAN NOT DIE

HE TOLD YOU HE WOULDN'T LET THE CAR HIT YOU EVEN IF IT WANTED TO

CAUSE YOU WERE MEANT TO TALK AROUND AND GLUE

AT EVERY SINGLE THING YOU EVER SAW AND CONTINUALLY

VIEW AS YOUR MIND IS RELEASED INEVITABLY FROM BEING SUBDUED AND ABUSE IN A WORLD NOT MEANT TO BE MISUSED OR MISUSE YET THE PEOPLE WITH THE POWER ONLY MISUSE YOU

YOU SEE YOU ARE JUST LIKE EVERYONE YOU SEE

FOR EVERYONE YOU SEE IS STUCK INSIDE THEIR MIND

YET NOT STUCK IN THERE ENOUGH TO REALIZE THE TRUTH

THAT EVERYONE YOU SEE IS REALLY YOU

YOU SEE IF YOU TREAT EVERYONE JUST LIKE THEY ARE YOU

THEN TELL ME WHY YOU EVER ON EARTH SELF HARM?

FOR WHEN YOU HARM ANOTHER PERSON YOU'RE JUST HARMING YOU

ANTS KILLING ANTS INSIDE OF AN ANT FARM SO SHAME ON YOU

SHAME ON THE ANTS FOR THINKING THEY WERE REALLY ANTS

AND EVERY ANT WAS REALLY OF THE SAME BRAIN

YOU SEE DIVISION IS HOW THIS WORLD HAS TAKEN CONTROL OF YOU

ONE PAIN BODY SEPARATED FROM ONE ANOTHER FROM THE SAME PAIN YET NOT SEPARATED FROM THEIR PAIN

YOU SEE HE SAYS ONCE YOU'RE SEPARATED FROM HUMAN EMOTION

EVERYTHING YOU SEE AND FEEL BECOMES A JOKE

AND ONCE YOU'RE ABLE TO LAUGH AT LEAST MOST OF THE TIME

YOU BECOME THE LINE ON WHICH TIME TRAVELS ON

AND TIME TRAVEL IS THE FINE LINE

THE FINE LINE OF WHAT YOUR MIND CAN DO

IT'S NOT ABOUT RACE BUT ABOUT EDUCATION

AND WHAT THE SPIRIT INSIDE FINDS THE TIME TO LEARN

SEGREGATION IS ALL A PART OF THE PLAN

SEGREGATION ABUSE OF POWER AND TYRANNY

THE REAL A HOLES WHO PRODUCE AN ELITE TEAR IN ME

THE ELITE CONTROL US WITH A PRISON CONTROLLED BY BELIEFS

IF WE WERE MORE SPECIAL THAN WE REALIZED 

THAN THE FALSE MEDIA AND ENTERTAINMENT SYSTEM HAS CLOGGED OUR REAL EYE 

THERE'S PURE EVIL BEHIND THE DIVISION

A LONG TIME AGO THE DEVIL CHALLENGED GOD

THE DEVIL SAID HE COULD CORRUPT GOD'S NEWEST CREATION

A NEW CREATION SUPPOSEDLY CALLED HUMAN BEINGS AND GOD ALLOWED HIM TO STICK US IN THIS POD

THIS POD LINKING US INTO THE MATRIX OF MENTAL SLAVERY

YOU SEE OUR MINDS ARE CONNECTED THRU THE PODS TO COMPUTERS

SENDING US INTO THIS WORLD OF ROBBERS AND LOOTERS 

NOW WE'RE EVEN MORE SURROUNDED BY HEART THROBBERS AND HEART SHOOTERS

LIVING IN THE WORLD FULL OF ART DILUTERS 

AND ART POLLUTERS ROBBING THE YOUTH OF AN INSPIRING FUTURE

THEY TELL YOU ALL YOU CAN DO TO MAKE MORE CASH IS TO SELL CRACK

AND IF YOU CAN'T SELL ENOUGH THEN YOU CAN JUST SMOKE IT

BUT WHEN YOU'RE HIGH THE MIND IS MORE SUSCEPTIBLE TO SLAVERY

THEN EVERYONE AROUND YOU FOR THEMSELVES ENGAGES IN YOUR SLAVERY WITH THEIR BEHAVIOR SEE?

YOU CAN SELL YOUR VALUES IN EXCHANGE FOR MATERIALS

THEN ONCE YOU DIE YOU LOSE YOUR SOUL AND LEAVE THE MATERIALS

OR YOU CAN SEE ONLY THE IMMATERIALS 

AND INTANGIBLES AS THE TOOLS YOU NEED TO GET WHERE YOU REALLY WANTED

FOR IF YOU KNEW THIS WERE ALL A DREAM THEN WHAT WOULD YOU DREAM FOR

OR WERE THE WHOLE TIME WERE YOU REALLY HAUNTED?

TOO HAUNTED AND SCARED INSIDE BY WICKED DOUBT TO EVEN DREAM MORE

NATURE AND TIME IS ALL WE EVER NEEDED

AND FOR YOU TO SEE IS THIS THE SEED FOREVER PLANTED

FOR SEEDS GROW INTO TREES UNTIL THEY ARE CUT DOWN

BUT TO CUT A TREE BEFORE IT'S GROWN ISN'T DEFORESTATION

FOR THE FOREST NEVER HAD THE TIME TO BE WATERED INTO A FOREST

THEN YOU LEAVE THEM AS A FORREST GUMP AND TELL THEM TO RUN FOR IT

SO JUST RUN FOR YOUR DREAMS AS IF THERE WERE NOTHING STOPPING YOU

FOR THE ONLY THING POSSIBLE ENOUGH TO STOP YOU IS YOUR SELF CONFIDENCE 

SO CONFIDENTLY CONFIDE IN YOURSELF WITH AFFIRMATIONS UNTIL YOU BELIEVE

BELIEVING IN YOURSELF UNTIL CONVINCED

CONVINCINGLY CONVINCED WITH THE CONVICTION OF A SUPERSTAR

THEN THIS FENCE IS MINCED 

MINCED INTO PIECES DO TO YOUR BELIEVEMENT 

AND BELIEF YOU CAN TRULY BE

ANYTHING YOU EVER SAW OR HAVE NEVER SEEN

BELIEVING IN YOUR ABILITY IS ALL YOU EVER NEED

AND WITH PERFECT PRACTICE COMES A MAJOR SKILL SET

AND WITH THESE SKILLS YET YOU SHALL TRULY SEE

THE LEGACY YOU LEAVE BEHIND LASTS FOR ETERNITY

JUST AS THE SOUL DOES IN YOU AND I NOT YOU AND ME

GRAMMATICALLY CORRECT AND INCORRECT AT THE SAME TIME

I SAY THESE WORDS PRIORITIZED TO PROVE THE POINT AND MAKE IT RHYME

AND TO SHAKE THE JOINT WITH THIS GROOVY TUNE

YOU SEE I'M A MONSTER YET I LOVE TO RHYME ALL OF THE TIME JUST TO MAKE YOUR MIND SEE THE FINE LINE

BETWEEN UNITY AND DISHARMONY

WHAT'S INSANE ABOUT THINKING EVERYTHING IS SEPARATED?

WHAT'S SANE ABOUT THINKING THE SAME THING

AND IT'S SUCH A BRAIN GAME I'M PLAYING WITH YOUR MIND

YOU CAN PLAY WITH YOUR MIND AS WELL FOR THE MIND'S A TOOL

BUT WHEN YOU BELIEVE YOUR MIND IS YOU THEN THE MIND'S A FOOL

THEN THIS MINDSET IMMEDIATELY BECOMES A WEAPON FOR

THOSE AGAINST YOU FOR YOU'RE AGAINST YOU YO WHAT'S YOUR SET AND WHO ARE YOU REPPING FOR?

SO USE YOUR WEAPON MORE AND FOR YOURSELF IN GOD'S HONOR

VALOR WITH THE EDICT OF A STRINGENT CODE

LIVE FOR WHAT'S THE MOST IMPORTANT IDEA TO YOU

HOPEFULLY AT THE END OF THE MOUNTAIN CLIMB YOU PEN GOD AN ODE

TO TELL HIM THANK YOU FOR THE GIFTS THE DEVIL TRIED TO TEMPT YOU TO

USE AGAINST WHO GAVE THEM TO YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE

OR YOU CAN IGNORE THIS MESSAGE UNTIL YOU WAKE UP IN A BIRD CAGE

WITH SCIENTISTS STARING AT YOU WITH THE WORST FACE

FOR YOU NEVER REALIZED YOU WERE JUST A BIRD IN A BIRD CAGE

ENRAGED BY HATE IN A DREAMING SIMULATION  SEEMINGLY FOR 80 YEARS YET IN TRUTH THIS LIFE LASTED ONLY FIVE MINUTES

IN THAT CASE THAT'S THE WORST CASE

SO REALIZE THIS WORLD'S NOT YOUR HOME YET A DOME IN IT AND FLY IN IT UNTIL YOU DIE 

WHICH ISN'T THE END JUST ANOTHER BEGINNING OF ANOTHER ENTRANCE

THEN THE MONSTER DISAPPEARS AND YOU AWAKE IN BED

WONDERING IF HE'S STILL WATCHING YOU WITH A GRIN OR IS IT JUST ALL IN YOUR HEAD? 

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION THIRTEEN:

 4:07AM EST - 4:57AM EST

TUESDAY JANUARY 30TH, 2024

1.30.2024

WRISTS BATHED IN RED

SESSION THIRTEEN: LIFE IS LIKE ALBUM TRACK EIGHT

PART TWO ON THE RUN CADENCE

PART TWO ON THE RUN

I'VE ALWAYS BEEN LONELY

SADLY IT'S THE ONLY SITUATION I'VE EVER KNOWN

PARENTS DIVORCED AND I WAS SEVEN

BOOM THE ILLUSION WAS BLOWN

MY MOTHER'S MOTHER IN THE SAME YEAR ENTERED HEAVEN

THE NEXT YEAR MY FATHER'S MOTHER WENT TO THE SAME PLACE

I'LL CHERISH THE MEMORIES EQUALLY AND I'LL MAKE THE SAME FACE

MY FATHER AND I USED TO WATCH MOVIES

FIVE YEARS AFTER HE LEFT I PICKED UP A CAMERA TO SOOTH ME

I WROTE MY FIRST POEM AT SEVEN

THE SAME YEAR I FIRST GRACED THE STAGE

I REALIZED THE TALENT WAS A GOD GIVEN BLESSING

I VOWED WE WOULD HAVE THE SAME AGE

IF I AM THIRTY FOUR NOW THEN MY PASSIONS ARE TWENTY SEVEN AND TWENTY TWO

I CAN GUARANTEE THE FUTURE WILL MENTION ME BUT I CAN'T GUARANTEE THEY WILL MENTION YOU

SEE I HAVE SEEN PLENTY BLUE

IF EMOTIONS HAD A COLOR

I'VE SEEN SO MANY COLORS OF THE EMOTIONAL SPECTRUM

MY MAIN AIM IS JUST TO HELP ANOTHER

HELP ANOTHER PERSON GET THRU

HELP ANOTHER PAY THEIR DUES

I STARTED WRITING BLUES

REGARDLESS OF THE SUBJECT THEME OR GENRE I START IT WRITING TRUE

I'LL KEEP IT REAL UNTIL I REACH THE MIDDLE

THEN I'LL END IT WITH AUTHENTICITY

I WRITE WHEN I'M CRYING UNTIL I GIGGLE

I FOCUS MORE ON EMOTIONAL DEPTH MORE SO THAN VIVID IMAGERY

I PAINT THE PICTURE OF WHAT CAN'T BE SEEN

SMELLED FELT TOUCHED TASTED OR HEARD WITH YOUR EARS

I TOUCH ON THE BASES OF MY FEARS

AS I STRETCH THE MIND TO KEEP THE BASIS CLEAR

I TRY TO KEEP THE ACTIONS OBJECTIVE

ONLY DOING WHAT THE MISSION DEMANDS

THE GOAL BEING KEEP THE THOUGHTS SELECTIVE

EVEN THOUGH THEY OFTEN RUN AWAY

THEY RETURN WITH A TON OF PAIN AS IT WEIGHS

ENOUGH TO WATCH GRAVITY PLUMMET THE HAND

AND AS THE HANDS HIT THE GROUND

THE KNEES THEN FOLLOW SUIT

SO I CLOSE MY EYES AND HANDS TOGETHER

WHILE PRAYING "GOD I JUST WANT TO FOLLOW YOU" 

GOD PUT MANY DREAMS ON MY HEART

AND THE TOOLS AT MY DISPOSAL TO SEE THEM BORN

MY DREAMS LEADS ME TO THE SUMMIT OF THE PLANS

ON MY DEATH BED I WOULD RATHER SEE HELL FIRE CONSUMING ME THAN MY UNCONSUMED DREAMS SCORN

WE CAME TO YOU TO BRING US TO LIFE

AND NOW WE ALL HAVE TO LEAVE TOGETHER

MY WORST NIGHTMARE AND SO I AIM TO LEAVE A CLEVER

LEGACY ON HOW TO BE FOREVER

I HAVE TO DIE SOMEDAY 

BUT MY DREAMS CAN LIVE ON EARTH FOR ETERNITY

I'M SO SELF CONSCIOUS OF MY HOURGLASS ON THE TREADMILL OF LIFE

WHAT'S AN EQUAL PAIN COMPARED TO HOW A WASTED DAY IS HURTING ME

I GAVE UP EVERYTHING I COULD HAVE EVER HAD FOR THE DREAMS ON MY HEART

INCLUDING CHILDREN AND A WIFE

I MAY NEVER SEE THOSE BUT I CAN SEE MY DREAMS ENTER THIS DIMENSION

I CAN'T GUARANTEE SOMEONE ELSE WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME

YET I CAN ALWAYS LOVE MYSELF

I CAN'T PROMISE MY CHILD THEIR PARENTS WILL ALWAYS WANT TO BE TOGETHER

HOWEVER I CONTROL IF THIS MANUSCRIPT GETS FINISHED

I CAN GUARANTEE THIS ALBUM IS COMPLETED

UNTIL MY DAILY CANDLE IS DEPLETED

I CAN PROMISE TO KEEP CLIMBING THE CHARTS

UNTIL MY ACCUMULATION DISTRIBUTION IS DELETED

INDEED IT'S NOT A DEFEATIST

MINDSET I WEILD 

IT'S MORE LIKE I NEVER YIELD

DESPITE THE EMOTION I FEEL

NO MATTER HOW I FEEL I WILL CONTINUE

CONTINUE STRIVING TOWARDS MY GOAL

IT IS EXHAUSTING I ADMIT IT

BUT MY EMOTIONS AND THOUGHTS ARE THE ONLY THING ON EARTH ACTUALLY UNDER MY CONTROL

ONLY WHILE EMBRACING THE EMOTIONS I HOLD

CAN I GUARANTEE IF I'LL A STAND B ASK HIT ME OR C FOLD

I JUST REPLACED COMMAS WITH LETTERS

MAYBE NEXT TIME I'LL USE NUMBERS INSTEAD

KEEP GOING STRONG YEA YOU BETTER

I CALCULATE NUMBERS OF PROFITS FROM INVESTING MY BREAD ALL DAY IN THE HEAD

I'LL USE A CALCULATOR AFTERWARDS FOR LORD KNOWS EVERYTIME I FAILED MATH

I STILL HAD THE HIGHEST GRADES IN ECONOMICS

ONE THING TO ALWAYS MAKE ME LAUGH

I ALWAYS TRY TO FIND THE FUNNY

IN A SITUATION OF DESTITUTION LIKE WHERE'S THE MONEY?

IF I CAN FIND SOMETHING FUNNY 

ABOUT SOMETHING I DON'T EVEN WANT TO LAUGH ABOUT

THEN WHAT ABOUT IT WAS WORTH REMAINING SAD?

INITIALLY

THEN NEXT THING YOU KNOW I'M SHOUTING AS I LAUGH

OFFICIALLY

INSTEAD OF POUTING AS I GRAPH

GRAPH OUT A NEGATIVE VIBRATION

MANIFESTING MY FUTURE PRESENT MOMENTS BASED ON IMAGES FROM THE PAST

NEGATIVE EMOTION STUCK IN THE MIND IS A VIRUS

MAYBE ONE DAY I'LL DISCOVER CURES

IF NOT THEN AT LEAST IN AN IMPERFECT WORLD

I'LL FIND A WAY TO REMAIN SURE

IN MY ABILITY TO SMILE THRU THE PAIN

AFTER EMBRACING THE PAIN OF COURSE

EMBRACING THE PAIN UNTIL IT NO LONGER YEARNS TO STAY

IT'LL ALWAYS RETURN FOR MORE

OF THIS LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP IT SEEMS SO MUCH TO ENJOY

AS IT ONLY AIMS TO RUN ITS COURSE

EMOTION ISN'T BAD EITHER WAY

EVERYONE WAS CREATED FOR A REASON

CREATED TO HAVE ITS SEASON

TO RESIST ANYONE IS ALWAYS TREASON

MAYBE THEIR PURPOSE IS TO TEACH US TO REMAIN EVEN

TO REMAIN EVEN KEELED

THRU OUT THE BAD ONE UNTIL THE GOOD ONES COME BACK UNTIL THEY ARE ALL EVEN STILL

IF I PRAY TO BE HAPPY WHEN I'M SAD

THEN SADNESS ALLOWS ME TO APPRECIATE WHAT HAPPINESS CAN BRING

WHAT IF SADNESS WERE THE REASON I WOULD EVEN SING

BUT IF I'M REALLY HAPPY THEN I END UP DOING THE SAME THING

SO IF I SING REGARDLESS?

REGARDLESS OF HOW I FEEL EITHER WAY

THEN WHAT REALLY WILL DESTROY MY BLING BLING?

THE JEWELS I CHERISH ARE IMMATERIAL

NOT TO BE SEEN BY THE NAKED EYE

THE CROWN I WEAR IS ETHEREAL

BORN FROM A SOUL FAMILY ROYAL ENOUGH TO KNOW

I CAN NEVER MAKE IT UNTIL I TRY

I WAS SAD WHEN I WAS LOSING

YET IT NEVER STOPPED ME FROM TAKING ANOTHER SHOT

I'LL BE EVEN SADDER WHEN I MAKE IT AND I'M WINNING

CAUSE I WOULDN'T FEEL TOO GOOD KNOWING MY DESTINY BOILED THE HOTTEST IN THE POT

I'LL GIVE MY DESTINY EVERYTHING I HAVE UNTIL IT IN RETURN GIVES ME BACK EVERYTHING IT HAS FOR ME

I CAN'T WIN THE GAME OF LIFE FOR YOU I CAN ONLY WIN MINE BUT I WILL I PROMISE FOR THIS IS HOW IT HAS TO BE

I HAVE TO BE

THE ONLY ONE WHO MAKES IT THRU

IF NO ONE ELSE IS PAR FOR THE COURSE

BUT I CAN LEAVE THE BREADCRUMBS BEHIND ON THE TRAIL

FOR THE FUTURE GENERATIONS OF EMOTIONAL SOLDIERS WHO THEN ARE AT THEIR WORST

THEIR WORST FEELING CHALLENGES

I CAN LEAVE THE INSTRUCTIONS ON BUILDING THE TOOLS USED TO CHALLENGE THIS

WHETHER YOU USE THEM TO SALVAGE FOR FISH

OR TO CABBAGE A DISH 

NO MATTER WHAT YOUR CALLING MAY BE 

I CAN HELP YOU ANSWER THE CALL AND HEAR IT BABY

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION TWELVE: LIFE IS LIKE ALBUM TRACK SIX: BMF

8:35AM EST - 9:00AM EST

SATURDAY JANUARY 27TH, 2024

1.27.2024

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ROBERT GAUSE AGAIN 🥳🎉

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION TWELVE: LIFE IS LIKE ALBUM: TRACK SIX: BMF 

CHORUS: 

 I THINK I'M DEEPAK CHOPRA

BETTER YET NAW MAN I'M KRISHNA MURTI

I'M LAYING ON THE DEEPEST SOFA

AND MY MOST PAINFUL THOUGHTS DON'T HURT ME

THEY THINK THEY BIG MEECH?

BUT AIN'T HE STILL IN JAIL?

YOU SELLING CHEMICALS TO PEOPLE

TO SMOKE NO JOKE END UP IN HELL 😞😭😭

CHORUS: 

 I THINK I'M DEEPAK CHOPRA

BETTER YET NAW MAN IM KRISHNA MURTI

IM LAYING ON THE DEEPEST SOFA

AND MY MOST PAINFUL THOUGHTS DON'T HURT ME

THEY THINK THEY BIG MEECH?

BUT AIN'T HE STILL IN JAIL?

YOU SELLING CHEMICALS TO PEOPLE

TO SMOKE NO JOKE END UP IN HELL 😞😭😭

VERSE ONLY

FIRST OF ALL THIS WHOLE WORLD IS FAKE

AND EVERYONE IN IT JUST LIED TO YOU

THEY TRIED YOU BOO THEY TRIED YOU DUDE

THEY'RE ALIENS JUST SPYING BRO

EVERYTHING YOU SEE IS LYING TO YOU

I GUESS YOU JUST LIKE TO BE

DECEIVED AT ANY TIME OF THE DAY

THE NEWS IS A LIE AND THEIR BLUES IS A LIE

I WATCH CARTOON SHOWS CAUSE THEY'RE CLUES IN DISGUISED

AND THE CLUES GET DISGUISED IN A BRAND NEW WHY

THIS IS A BRAND NEW WORLD AND A BRAND NEW TWIRL

I GOT A BRAND NEW WORLD YOU GOT A BRAND NEW GIRL

SHE'LL SOON HAVE A BRAND NEW GUY

AND IT CAN'T BE YOU CAUSE BY THE BRAND NEW TIME

YOU'RE NOW THE OLD DUDE AND I'M HERE TO SHOW YOU

EVERYTHING YOU THINK YOU HAVE SEEN

NEVER EVEN REALLY HAPPENED

FALSE MEMORIES

TELL HER ITS HIM OR ME I'M A BRAND NEW GUY WITH SOME BRAND NEW EYES

AND THESE BRAND NEW EYES SEE A BRAND NEW LIE AND I SEE THE OLD ONES TOO

THEY USED TO SAY EARTH IS FLAT THEN A BRAND NEW LIE WAS THE EARTH WAS ROUND

NOW I CALL MYSELF A FLAT EARTHER

THE BRAND NEW ROUND EARTHERS SEEM TO HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT? 

NOT HERE TO TALK ABOUT THE EARTH

MAN THE EARTH AIN'T REAL

I WAS SENT DOWN HERE TO HELP YOU HEAL YOUR PAIN

CAUSE IN YOUR BRAIN THE PAIN IS ALL IT FEELS

SENT HERE TO HELP YOU HEAL YOUR HURT

BEFORE OUR BODIES BACK IN THE FAKE DIRT DIRT

 SHOUT OUT TO DIRTY DIR YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE 

I AIN'T TRYING TO SAY MUCH CAUSE YOU STILL DOING DIRT

MORE THAN PROBABLY LIKE ACTUALLY

I LEFT CAUSE IT WAS THE MOST LOGICALLY AND FACTUALLY LOGICAL ACTION GRAVITATING WITH GRAVITY NOW LOOK AT WHAT'S HAPPENING

ACTUALLY I'M HAPHAZARDLY NEARING A DESTINY TRAGICALLY MIXED WITH FATE WITH ALL OF MY CREATIVE FACULTIES

THAT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO MAKE SENSE TO ANYONE ELSE BUT ACTUALLY IF IT DID ACTUALLY YOU CAN'T KID ME MAGICALLY

A GENIE IN A LAMP ACTUALLY CAUGHT ME SLIPPING ATTACKING ME HE DID FOR HE WAS TRIPPING

GAVE ME MORE THAN THREE WISHES NOW WATCH AS THESE THREE WISHES START ACTUALLY HAPPENING 

BUT I'M REALLY I'M REALLY SILLY 

AND I'M GOOFIER THAN CHILDREN

WHAT IF CHILDREN WERE BORN ENLIGHTENED

BUT YOU FRIGHTENED THEM TO THE POINT

WHERE THEY ENLIGHTENMENT WASN'T BRIGHTENED NO MORE YOU JUST CUT OFF THEIR SOURCE OF LIGHT AND 

NOW THIS IS THE SOURCE OF THEIR PAIN I'M FRIGHTENED

AS A KID I WAS MORE THAN SLIGHTLY SLIGHTENED

BUT IF THIS WAS THE SOURCE OF ALL MY FUTURE ENLIGHTENMENT

I'M CLOSE TO THE WORD ENLIGHTENED

I DON'T TRUST ANYTHING BUT GOD

AND A MASON TOLD ME DOUBT EVERYTHING

NOW I JUST DOUBT EVERYTHING

I DON'T BELIEVE IN ANYTHING THAT MY EYES TO SEE

HOW CAN I CALL THEM MY EYES IF THEY ONLY LIE TO ME

I DON'T BELIEVE I HAVE A BODY

OR MALCOLM WAS KILLED WITH A SHOTTI

OR MARTIN WAS HIT IN THE THROAT 

OR PAC GOT CAUGHT SLIPPING IN VEGAS WHERE THEY GO TO ELOPE

I JUST HAVE A DREAM AND A HOPE

I ONLY HAVE A DREAM AND A QUOTE

AND A SPEECH AND A SPEECH WRITER

WRITING WITH SPEED AND A LIGHTER

NICOTINE AND CAFFEINE IS WHAT I USE FOR ALL NIGHTERS

USED TO SMOKE WEED IN PAIN 

NOW THE IMAGERY IS GETTING BRIGHTER

IN MY BRAIN I'M SO INSANE I USE THIS INSANE TO MY PAIN

THEN I TELL MY PAIN TO CHILL YOU DON'T WANT TO BOTHER ME

THEN MY PAIN JUST WENT AWAY AFTER IT HAD THE TO CHANCE

IT'LL BE BACK ON ANOTHER DAY

BUT I'LL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING 

THE ACCEPTANCE OF ALL OF MY EMOTIONS ENDED ALL TRUST IN FRUSTRATION

AGITATION AND AGGRAVATION I TAKE THE PEN TO THE PAPER

PAIN BLEEDS OUT NO MENSTRUATION 🩸

MAN I'M JUST SITTING RIGHT HERE CREATING 

AIN'T IT AMAZING?

LIKE WHEN SO HIGH CAJUN BE SAYING

TELL MARCUS I'M PLAYING

BUT WHY'D YOU LET A CAT STRAY IN

IF THAT OUTSIDE CAT COMING IN THIS HOUSE HE GETS LOCKED IN THE BASEMENT. 

CHORUS: 

 I THINK I'M DEEPAK CHOPRA

BETTER YET NAW MAN I'M KRISHNA MURTI

I'M LAYING ON THE DEEPEST SOFA

AND MY MOST PAINFUL THOUGHTS DON'T HURT ME

THEY THINK THEY BIG MEECH?

BUT AIN'T HE STILL IN JAIL?

YOU SELLING CHEMICALS TO PEOPLE

TO SMOKE NO JOKE END UP IN HELL 😞😭😭

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION ELEVEN: LIFE IS LIKE TRACK FIVE

7:11AM EST - 7:22AM EST

SATURDAY JANUARY 27TH, 2024

1.27.2024

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION ELEVEN: LIFE IS LIKE ALBUM TRACK FIVE: AM I CHOOSING IT? 

AM I CHOOSING IT?

CHORUS:

I'M LOST IN MY SOUL

THE METAPHYSICAL IN A PHYSICAL VEHICLE

AM I CHOOSING WHAT'S IN MY MIND? AM I CHOOSING WHAT I FEEL? 

ONLY THEN AM I EMOTIONALLY IN CONTROL

ONLY THEN AM I EMOTIONALLY HEALED

I THINK I'M CHOOSING IT? I MIGHT BE CHOOSING IT

CHOOSING WHAT THOUGHTS I BRING UP IN MY MIND

THESE EMOTIONS ABUSE AND THESE EMOTIONS ARE BEING MISUSED 

I NEED TO CHOOSE THE EMOTION I WANT TO FIND

JUST LIKE THE MIND FINDS A RHYME

I THINK I'M CHOOSING IT? I MIGHT BE CHOOSING IT

CHOOSING WHAT THOUGHTS I BRING UP IN MY MIND

THESE EMOTIONS ABUSE AND THESE EMOTIONS ARE BEING MISUSED 

I NEED TO CHOOSE THE EMOTION I WANT TO FIND

JUST LIKE THE MIND FINDS A RHYME

CHORUS:

I'M LOST IN MY SOUL

THE METAPYSHCIAL IN A PHYSICAL VEHICLE

AM I CHOOSING WHAT'S IN MY MIND? AM I CHOOSING WHAT I FEEL? 

ONLY THEN AM I EMOTIONALLY IN CONTROL

ONLY THEN AM I EMOTIONALLY HEALED

I THINK I'M CHOOSING IT? I MIGHT BE CHOOSING IT

CHOOSING WHAT THOUGHTS I BRING UP IN MY MIND

THESE EMOTIONS ABUSE AND THESE EMOTIONS ARE BEING MISUSED 

I NEED TO CHOOSE THE EMOTION I WANT TO FIND

JUST LIKE THE MIND FINDS A RHYME

I THINK I'M CHOOSING IT? I MIGHT BE CHOOSING IT

CHOOSING WHAT THOUGHTS I BRING UP IN MY MIND

THESE EMOTIONS ABUSE AND THESE EMOTIONS ARE BEING MISUSED 

I NEED TO CHOOSE THE EMOTION I WANT TO FIND

JUST LIKE THE MIND FINDS A RHYME

 

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION TEN: LIFE IS LIKE TRACK FOUR

 4:35AM EST - 5:03AM EST 

SATURDAY JANUARY 27TH, 2024

1.27.2024

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR THE THIRD TIME ROBERT GAUSE

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION TEN: LIFE IS LIKE ALBUM TRACK FOUR: SPIRIT BALL

SPIRIT BALL

HEY HE THINK HE'S BALLING CAUSE HE BOUGHT SOME WATCHES

NAW MAN I'M BALLING CAUSE ROUND ME EMOTION HOPSCOTCHES

YO HE THINKS HE'S BALLING IN A GUCCI SHIRT OOH

NAW I'M BALLING CAUSE IM FEELING GUCCI EVEN WHEN IT HURTS TO

HE THINKS HE'S BALLING CAUSE HE BOUGHT A NEW WHIP

NAW MAN I'M BALLING CAUSE SPIRIT PRODUCES A NEW QUIP

HE THINKS HE'S BALLING WHEN HE'S SPENDING MONEY?

NAW I INVEST MY CAPITAL TO ME THAT MESS IS FUNNY

HE THINKS HE BALLING IN HIS MANSION HOMIE

IT'S HARD TO REACH ENLIGHTENMENT IN A MANSION PHONY

HOMIE THE CLOWN COULDN'T MAKE YOU LAUGH AS MUCH AS I DO DO

ITS ALWAYS FUNNY WHEN OUT OF THE BLUE YOU HEAR THE WORD DOO DOO

HE THINK HE BALLING AND HE'S PROBABLY RIGHT

BUT HIS EYES ARE LYING TO HIM LIKE MINE ARE TOO AYO CHAD YOU JUST AIN'T RIGHT

WE LIVING IN A WORLD THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE

UNTIL YOU DO THE OPPOSITE

REVERSE ENGINEERING MY WAY TO THE MOUNTAIN TOP

AND WHEN I REACH THE SUMMIT I PLUMMET POPPED BY A MOUNTAIN COP

IT'S GATEKEEPERS OUT HERE BLOCKING PEOPLE FROM THE CODE

AND SO I EMBEDDED THE CODE IN POEM FORM BUT THIS ISN'T AN ODE

MAYBE IT IS BUT IF IT WAS THEN I WOULD NEVER KNOW

THIS AIN'T IAMBIC PENTAMETER RIGHT NOW PAC THIS FREE FORM FLOW

I'M GOING FROM THE DOME

WRITING IT DOWN AS I SEE IT

AND AS I SEE FIT I'LL DROP A BIG OR BAD WORD

AS LONG AS I CAN PROUNOUNCIATE IT

MY ARTWORK'S NOT SATURATED BY MY OWN SUCCESS

BUT FOR IT TO BE THIS WAY 20 YEARS LATER YOU STILL HAVEN'T HEARD OF ME YET

AND THAT'S COOL ONE DAY YOU PROBABLY WILL

BY THEN I WAS PROBABLY KILLED

IN A TRAFFIC ACCIDENT SAVING THE LIFE OF A CHILD

A CHILD I NEVER MET UNTIL THAT DAY AYO THIS NIGGA WILD

DON'T SAY I AIN'T WARN YOU LIKE MY ANGELS WARNED ME

BACK WHEN I WAS 23 IN MY CLOSET SMOKING WEED AND MOURNING

THE LIFE OF VANESSA HONEY MALONE

DIED OCTOBER 23RD A TUESDAY IN 2012 I DIDN'T FIND OUT TIL SUNDAY

IT WAS A FUN DAY PEACEFUL AT WORK UNTIL I HEARD SOME BLUES BLUES

I'M SO IN TOUCH WITH MY OWN SOUL THAT'S A BLUES CLUE

IF YOU NOT IN TOUCH WITH YOUR SPIRIT MAN I HOPE IT LEAVES YOU

CAUSE YOU JUST DON'T APPRECIATE HOW MUCH THE SPIRIT WORLD NEEDS YOU

I SPEND ALL OF TIME AS A GENERAL

AND GENERALS LAY DOWN PLANS ON THE VISUALS IN GENERAL

IN GENERAL I USE MY TIME TO TOUCH THE GOALS I SELF SET

I'M GOD SET REP THE SET SET TIL MY LAST SET

TIL MY LAST BREATH

MY LAST BREATH I SET

I INHALE AND EXHALE LIKE IM SMOKING WEED BUT I'M REALLY NOT

AND WHEN I WAS SMOKING TREES I REALLY THOUGHT

IT WOULD CURE THE PAIN BUT IF THIS THOUGHT IS TRUE

THEN WHY'D I END UP SMOKING TWO?

OH ADDICTION I AM SO ONTO YOU

I'M ON YOUR CASE LIKE THE LAWYER YOU JUST PAID

THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR PLAYING IN THE STREETS OF DADE

I'M FROM DADE COUNTY THAT MEANS I'M COMPLETELY NUTS BABY

YEA I'M CUCKOO WITHOUT A CLOCK FOR COCOA PUFFS HOLD UP WHAT CRAZY

I'M SO CRAZY I MADE A MIXTAPE CALLED HALIEGH BABY

AND PASSED 20 CDS OUT AT OUR MUTUAL JOB IN FRONT HER GIRL LADY

GOT FIRED ON THE SPOT

NAH IT's OVER THE PHONE DAYS LATER

THEY SUSPENDED ME BUT THEY COULDN'T EVEN CALL THE COPS

THAT WAS THE BIRTH OF WHO THEY CALLED CHADFILMS

NAH I'M LYING I WAS 12 WHEN I BECAME CHADFILMS

CAN'T EVEN PROVE IT CAUSE MY OLDEST BROTHER QUENTIN JEALOUS OF ME

HE WAS BORN ON FRIDAY THE 13TH OF MAY 1982

I GOT THAT ZEALOUS ENERGY

I'M NEW YEARS WEEKEND 1989 YEA THE LAST 80'S BABY

TECHNICALLY I SAW EVERY DAY OF THE NINETIES

IN 1992 HURRICANE ANDREW TRIED TO MURK ME BUT HE COULDN'T FIND ME

WHOLE FAMILY IN THE HALLWAY CLOSET

I'M SLEEPING LIKE A BABY

ANDREW TORE OUR WHOLE ROOF OFF AND IT AIN'T EVEN PHASE ME

I'M SUPER CALM UNDER PRESSURE DAWG BETTER STAY FOCUSED

ONCE YOU LOSE YOUR COMPOSURE

THE RIFLE SLIPS OFF OF YOUR SHOULDER

I CAN'T THINK IF IM NOT THINKING CLEARLY

AND SO I TRAIN MY SPIRIT FOR TOUGH TIMES TO MAKE SURE MY SPIRIT IS NEAR ME

TO MAKE SURE MY SPIRIT HEARS ME CLEARLY AND I ALSO DO THE SAME FOR IT DEARLY

I CALL MY SPIRIT PRALIF HOLLER IT OUT WHEN YOU'RE NEAR ME 

SEE WHO STARTS CONVERSING WITH YOU

I ONLY TALK TO MYSELF CAUSE I'M ADVERSELY DONE WITH YOU

I ONLY WASTE MY TIME WITH THOSE WHO AIN'T WASTING MY TIME

IS THAT JUST A CONUNDRUM OR MORE LIKE JUST A FUNNY LINE?

I'M ALWAYS UP FOR A GOOD ROAST SO DON'T TRY ME BABY

YOU CAN ASK ARI YEA SHE SHOULDNTVE PLAYED WITH ME 

SHE ONLY SAID ONE LINE LIKE ONE TIME

HIT HER ON TIKTOK WITH A QUIP EQUIPPED WITH 6 LINES 

TIMES 5 NAH THAT'S A LIE

TRUTH IS I RESPONDED TO ONE MESSAGE 30 TIMES

YEA I COUNTED CAUSE I'M COUNTED ON AND COUNTING ON LIKE A MOUNTAIN LOIN

A MOUNTAIN LION I AIN'T LYING SAID IT WRONG JUST SO IT RHYMED

IT'S MY TIME 

IT'S NOT MY TIME?

WELL IN DUE TIME IN GOD'S TIME 

WHEN IT'S SO THEN IT'S A NEW TIME

I CAN MAKE A NEW RHYME A NEW WHATEVER

WHENEVER I AIM TO DO SO I'M JUST TOO CLEVER

ONLY CAUSE I WON'T BE HERE FOR TWO EVERS

TIMES TWO FOUR EVER TIME'S UP RHYMES DOWN TEST OVER WHAT EVER

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION NINE: LIFE IS LIKE TRACK THREE

 3:45AM EST - 

SATURDAY JANUARY 27TH, 2024

1.27.2024

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN ROBERT GAUSE

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION NINE: LIFE IS LIKE TRACK THREE: I USED TO BE

I USED TO BE:

I USED TO BE

SO IN PAIN

I HEARD THE TEARS

HIT THE FLOOR

I USED TO SEE

NOTHING BUT RAIN 

IN THE BRAIN

RAIN INDICATES CHANGE

I DIDN'T CHANGE

I STAYED THE SAME

I STAYED IN PAIN

SO IN PAIN

OH MY GOD 

FEATHERS PLUCKED

LIGHTNING STRUCK

LIGHTNING STRIKES

IN THE SAME SAME PLACE

RAIN HITS MY FACE

CAMOUFLAGED WITH THE PAIN

PAINFUL TEARS FLOWING ALL DOWN MY FACE

MAN PLEASE WIPE YOUR FACE

FEELINGS UNCAGED

FILLED WITH RAGE

DON'T EVEN SPEAK TO ME

I JUST WANT TO LIGHT IT UP

LIGHT THIS BLUNT

SACRIFICING ALL OF MY TIME 

EVEN IF I WROTE A RHYME

HIGH STILL WASTING TIME TO FIND

SOMETHING TO SMOKE

MY LIFE WAS SUCH A JOKE

THEN GOD PROVOKES

A SUDDEN CHANGE

IN MY MIND

YO THIS PAIN IS HERE TO STAY

WHAT YOU CHOOSE TO DO

WITH THE PAIN ALL DAY

MAN THE CHOICE WAS ONLY MINE

IN MY MIND

I HAVE A FIND TO FIND

FIND A SPOT THAT WAS BLIND

FILLED WITH RAGE

ONCE AGAIN

OH MY GOD

AN ANGRY BEAST UNCAGED

PATHS PAVED IN THE SHADE

STILL HAVE TO BE FOUND

SO JOURNEY TO 

PRAY THE JOURNEY DOESN'T LOSE YOU

OR YOU LOSE YOUR WAY 

ON THE PATH

ON THE PATH TO SUCCESS

BUT WHAT EVEN IS SUCCESS?

TO SET A GOAL FOR YOURSELF

AND THEN ACCOMPLISH SUCH

SUCH GOALS WILL BE TOUCHED

ALL MY TIME

IS MY MINE OWN

EVERY SECOND BELONGS TO ME

MINUS EIGHT HOURS PER DAY

A SOLDIER HAS TO GO TO WORK

WORKING FOR A MAN 

WHO ISN'T ME

ECONOMIC SLAVERY 

THEY SAY THEY GIVE

A DOLLAR IN EXCHANGE FOR SOME MINUTES

THAT'S THE GIMMICK

A DOLLAR VOID OF BACKING

BY NATURAL RESOURCES

YO I'M NOT WITH IT 

THESE DOLLARS ARE AS FAKE

AS THE CAKE YOU BUY FROM A TOY STORE

I VALUE MY JOY MORE

NOT THIS FAKE BUCK

MATRIX GOT ME STUCK

BUT I'M BREAKING OUT

WOULD YOU LIKE TO COME WITH? 

AND IF NOT THEN FINE

YOU CAN JUST STAY IN IT

YOU CAN JUST PLAY IN IT

SPEND YOUR DAY WHOLE DAY IN IT

THEN YOUR WHOLE WEEK IN IT

THEN 51 MORE WEEKS IN IT

MAN THAT'S A WHOLE YEAR 

BUT DON'T YOU DARE COMPLAIN

ABOUT WHAT YOU DIDN'T CHANGE?

HOW ARE YOU A MAN WHEN YOU'RE ENSLAVED?

WHAT I ASK MYSELF

AS I GO THRU IT

I'M ALWAYS GOING THRU IT

SO DON'T YOU BOTHER ME

ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL

I'M NOT FDR

BUT THIS A NEW DEAL

THIS IS A NEW REAL

THIS IS A NEW FEEL

THIS IS A NEW HEAL

I'M NOT TRULY HEALED

BUT I TRULY FEEL 

THAT I TRULY WILL

BE ONE DAY

WHAT YOU GOT ON IT?

ON MY FORTY HOMIE

THAT'S A D BO JOKE

RIP TINY LISTER

I GOTTA KNOCK THE PAIN

KNOCK THE PAIN OUT

WANT SOME TOO OLD MAN?

UGH NO

I TOLD YOU ABOUT COMING DOWN HERE MESSING WITH THESE BOYS

GOD TOLD ME ABOUT COMING DOWN HERE MESSING WITH THESE TOYS

AND STRESSING THESE TOYS

FIGHTING OVER TOYS MAN

BOY THAT'S CHILD'S PLAY

AND I'M NOT CHUCK

AND IM NOT DRAKE

I'M MORE LIKE CHUCK BERRY

HOLD UP NOW WAIT

WHAT DID I JUST SAY? 

CAN'T PLAY GUITAR

BUT I PLAY THE DRUMS

WHERE YOUR DRUM KIT AT I'LL MAKE YOUR DAY?

YEA I'LL MAKE YOUR DAY

CAUSE ALL I'LL DO IS PLAY

PLAY ON THE DRUMS

UNTIL YOU FALL ASLEEP

AND BE STILL PLAYING

ONCE YOU RE AWAKE

ONCE YOU WAKE UP

YEA THE DRUMS GOT ME STUCK

BUT I'D RATHER BE

STUCK BY A DUMB DRUM IN A DUMB WORLD

RATHER THAN A DUMB GIRL IN A DUMB WORLD

15 MINUTES LEFT 

UNTIL I TAKE A BREAK

OR MAYBE MOVE ON

TO A NEW TRACK

CHAD WHERE THE NEW AT?

YEA I'M A FUTURIST

I SET THE NEW TREND

I GET THE NEW TREND

LIKE YOU GET THE NEW GIRL

AT SCHOOL HOMIE

WHEN YOU 'SPOSED TO BE

DOING YOUR SCHOOL WORK

NOW YOUR GRADES HURT

BUT YOU LOOK COOL

AND YOUR OUTFIT NEW

SOUNDS LIKE SUMMER SCHOOL

SKIP THE BUS DAWG

YOU GOT DETENTION HOMIE

WHERE THAT GIRL AT NOW?

AT HOME FLIRTING

AT HOME CAKING

IN THE BATHROOM TAKING

TAKING SELFIES HOMIE

OF HER WHOLE BODY

THATS A SCREENSHOT 

SNAPPED FROM HER INSTAGRAM

SHE'S A PUBLIC FIGURE

HER FIGURE BELONGS TO

THE ENTIRE PUBLIC

OH I HOPE YOU LOVE IT

WHILE YOU'RE CHASING HER

SHE AIN'T CHASING YOU

CAUSE ONE GOTTA RUN

FOR IT TO BE THE CHASE

BUT IT'S REALLY THE  RACE

THE FINISH LINE

ISN'T THINGS DAWG

IT'S ENLIGHTENMENT

SOMETHING YOU CAN'T BUY

BUT YOU CAN PAY FOR IT

WITH YOUR TIME HOMIE

CALLED SOLO TIME

YOU FEAR YOURSELF

WHY ARE NEVER YOURSELF?

CAUSE YOU FEAR YOURSELF

YEA I LOVE MYSELF

I DONT HAVE TIME FOR YOU

YOU'RE NOT INTERESTING

YOUR INTEREST IS THINGS 

IM ON TO IDEAS

ON TO THE NEXT ONE

NOW ON TO THE BEST ONE 

2 MINUTES LEFT

HOW I END IT OFF? 

I'LL JUST SEND IT OFF

WHEN MY TIME IS DONE

I'LL JUST STOP BRO

I'LL NEVER STOP THO

UNTIL I'M POPPED YO

THEN ITS ON TO THE NEXT LIFE

WHERE'S YOUR GIRL NOW?

OH SO YOU'RE ON TO THE NEXT WIFE? 

YIKES YIKES YIKES TWICE 

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION EIGHT LIFE IS LIKE ALBUM TRACK TWO

 12:02AM EST - 12:32AM EST

SATURDAY JANUARY 27TH, 2024

1.27.2024

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ROBERT GAUSE

I'M NOT IN AS MUCH PAIN AS I WAS IN BEFORE

AND I THANK FOR GOD FOR THIS 

MIRACLES ARE HEAVEN SENT

THE PAIN BODY WASN'T MEANT TO BE DEPLORED

PAIN IS MEANT TO BE ADORED

WITHOUT PAIN HOW DO WE GROW?

WITHOUT PAIN HOW DO WE KNOW?

HOW MUCH WE CAN CANDLE AND STILL GLOW? 

WITHOUT PAIN HOW CAN WE SCREAM?

WITHOUT PAIN HOW CAN JOY BE REDEEMED?

WITHOUT PAIN WHAT IS JOY?

WITHOUT A GIRL TO CRUSH ON WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF A BOY?

WITHOUT TREES WHAT IS THE AIR?

WITHOUT THE AIR WHAT IS A CARNIVAL FAIR?

WITHOUT FAIR WHAT'S UNFAIR?

WITHOUT ONE IGNORING YOU

HOW CAN YOU APPRECIATE  WHEN ANOTHER ONE STARES?

WHAT'S VISION WITHOUT BLINDNESS?

WHAT'S THE OPPOSITE OF WELL WISHES?

AND WHAT'S THE ANSWER VERSUS KINDNESS?

HOW CAN WE LOVE JOY?

BUT NOT JUST AS MUCH LOVE THE PAIN? 

THAT'S DISCRIMINATORY AND OF SUCH ACTS YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED

WHAT'S GOING TO HEAL YOUR FEARS BESIDES FAITH? 

WHAT'S GOING TO TEST YOUR FAITH BESIDES FEAR?

WHAT'S HEARING CLEAR IF SOME WEREN'T DEAF? 

WHAT'S DEATH WITHOUT BREATH?

EVERY THING IS FAKE

YET IT ALL HAS A REAL PURPOSE

TO BE REAL IS TO BE FAKE

AND TO BE FAKE IS TO BE REAL

AND OF THIS MUCH I AM CERTAIN

HOW CAN YOU FEEL APPRECIATED IF YOU NEVER FELT UNAPPRECIATION? 

WHAT'S ABUSE TO REDAMANCY ?

WHAT'S TO NEGLECT IF IT'S NOT TO PROTECT

HOW CAN YOU FEEL NEGLECTED IF YOU NEVER BEEN NEGLECTED?

HOW CAN YOU FEEL NEGLECTED IF NEVER FEELING PROTECTED?

HOW CAN WE ENJOY THE GOOD TIMES 

WHILE WISHING THEY NEVER ENDED?

YOU CAN FEEL GOOD INSIDE OF A BAD CIRCUMSTANCE

AND THIS IS TRANSCENDANCE

TO TRANSCEND YOUR EMOTION

FEELING BETTER THAN YOU FEEL

IS HOW ATTACHMENT TO MENTAL PAIN IS KILLED

IS HOW ATTACHMENT TO 

MENTAL PAIN IS HEALED

IS HOW THE MENTAL PAIN IS EMBEDDED IN YOUR HEAD STILL

YET AND STILL

NOW YOUR PAIN BODY IS THRILLED

YOUR PAIN ONLY WANTS TO DANCE

YOUR PAIN ONLY YEARNS TO BE FREE

YOU KEEP YOUR PAIN LOCKED INSIDE OF YOUR BRAIN

THE INEVITABLE SOURCE OF YOUR NEVER ENDING MISERY

OF THIS CAN YOU NOT SEE? I SEE IT CLEARLY

I LOVE MY PAIN DEARLY

MY MISERY WILL NOT USE ME

I CHOOSE TO FEEL BETTER 

WHILE TAKING ALONG WITH ME MY MISERY

I WILL USE MY MISERY TO HEAL

HEAL THE WORLD FOR I NOW KNOW HOW MUCH MISERY

WE ALL ARE CAPABLE OF ENDURING

AND THIS IS SO ENDURING

NOW MATTER WHAT EMOTIONS THE MIND CREATES

I DON'T MAKE IT YET I TAKE IT I SHAKE IT AND I BAKE IT

I SHALL RE CREATE IT

FOR WE ARE JUST CREATORS CREATING

WHAT YOU SEE IS NOW YOUR RE CREATION

TO RECREATE IS TO JUST CHANGE IT

SO JUST CHANGE IT 

IT'S EITHER THAT OR YOU'RE FAKING

FAKING AS IF YOU WERE THE ONLY REALNESS INSIDE OF A FAKE CREATION

WHAT'S REAL IN A COMPUTER SIMULATION?

JUST COMPUTING AGITATION

AND SHAME ON YOU FOR TAKING IT 

PLACE ALL BETS ON YOURSELF

THEN START AWAKING

START AWAKING WITHIN A DREAM WITHIN A DREAM 

WITHIN A DREAMING AND DREAMY SIMULATION

NOW ANY TAKERS? 

YOU CAN MAKE IT

SEE I HAVE FAITH IN THIS

I HAVE FAITH IN MYSELF AND IN GOD

FOR WE ARE ALL IN HIS CREATION

WE CAN NEVER BE PERFECT

FOR THIS WAS NEVER THE POINT

WE CAN PERFECTLY ACCEPT OUR EMOTIONS AT ALL TIMES

THEN AT THIS POINT WE RUN THE JOINT

ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS POINT

POINT AT EVERYTHING YOU SEE

WHILE ASKING YOURSELF IF YOUR EYES DECEIVE?

THEY TRULY ARE LYING TO YOU

OR TO YOU CAN A FALSITY NOT BE PERCEIVED?

I KNOW WHAT A LIE LOOKS LIKE

IT IS VERY CONVINCING

AND IT SEEMED SO TRUE AT THE TIME

I NEVER SLIT MY WRISTS BC MY FINGERS WERE ALWAYS PINCHING

PINCHING MY ARM WHILE INQUIRING

AM I REALLY LOOKING AT THIS?

I AM BUT ARE THESE EYES EVEN REAL?

MY EYES ARE IN PAIN ALONG WITH MY MIND

I'M JUST KEEPING IT TRILL

IT'S TIME TO TOUCH A TRILLION DOLLARS

BC EVERY DOLLAR'S FAKE ANYWAYS

NOTHING HAS ANY POWER OVER ME

IF DESTINY IS INEVITABLE

UNREGRETTABLY I'LL ACHIEVE MINE ON ANY DAY

END THE SQUALOR IF YOU FEEL ME

NOW HOLLER IF YOU HEAR ME

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION SEVEN LIFE IS LIKE ALBUM

 11:00PM EST - 11:34PM EST

FRIDAY JANUARY 26TH, 2024

1.26.2024

WRISTS BATHED IN RED 

SESSION SEVEN: THIS LIFE IS LIKE LP INTRO TRACK

THIS LIFE

IS LIKE

A PEANUT WITH NO BUTTER

AND THE JELLY'S UNDER COVER

GAY AND THEY HAVEN'T EVEN DISCOVERED

EACH OTHER

MY DAYS 

WERE FULL

OF PAIN UNTIL I SPRAYED

THE PAIN AWAY

AS TEARS WASHED 

ALL OVER MY FACE

OK MY DAYS 

ARE NOW 

FULL OF CIRCUMSTANTIAL SUBSTANCE

OH HOW I LOVE IT

I'M THUGGING NOW

BUT THEN

I WAS BUGGING

IT WASN'T UP FOR DISCUSSION

AND NOW

I SEE MY PAIN AND THEN I HUG IT

YEA WE STEADY HUGGING

AND I HEARD WAYNE'S STEADY MOBBING

BUT HIS LEGACY IS COVERED

I'M NOT THERE YET BUT IT'S STEADY HOVERING

THIS LIFE 

IS LIKE

A COMPUTER SIMULATION

WHERE EVERYTHING IS SIMULATED

THE SOURCE OF MY FRUSTRATION

OR AGGRAVATED AGGRAVATION

AW DAM THIS SIMULATION

IN CIRCULATION WITH INFLATION

WHAT'S INFLATION? 

THAT'S THE ECONOMICAL ENSLAVEMENT

YOUR JOBS ARE JUST PLANTATIONS 

WHEN YOU GET THERE

THEY WERE ALREADY WAITING

OH YOU LATE BY A MINUTE?

THEN THEY LYNCH YOU IN AN INSTANT

THEY'LL CUT ALL TIES WITH YOUR WALLET WITH THE QUICKNESS

IT'S NO GIMMICK

I'M STILL IN IT

HOW ABOUT YOU?

HOW ABOUT NOW? 

HOW ABOUT THEN? 

THE BOSS IS THE BOSS IS THE BOSS

HE'S NOT YOUR FRIEND

EVEN WHEN HE PRETENDS

CAN'T MAKE AMENDS

WITH YOURSELF

UNLESS YOU INVEST YOUR FUNDS FOR YOUR HEALTH

OR YOUR WEALTH

I SPEND MOST OF MY TIME WITH MYSELF

MY BEST FRIEND

HE USED TO BE MY WORST ENEMY

DUE TO WHAT HE WAS YELLING DURING THE BEGINNING SCENES

AW YEA I HAVE SEEN MANY THINGS

AND MANY THINGS TURNED TO PLENTY THINGS

AND PLENTY THINGS BRING THIS IMAGERY

I'M SHARING WITH YOU MINI MES

IF YOU MET ME 

HOPE YOU DIDN'T DISRESPECT ME

CAUSE I REMEMBER

BORN IN DECEMBER

I LIVE WITH A NEW YEARS ENERGY

IF YOU MET ME 

AND DIDN'T RESPECT ME

JUST FORGET ME

CAUSE I'M NOW UNTO A WHOLE OTHER SYMMETRY

ASK MY BROTHER IF HE REMEMBERS ME? 

I CHANGED THE WORLD BC THEY DOUBTED ME

THEY FROWNED ON ME

I'M COOL WITH IT

IN MYSTERY I'M SHROUDED SEE

I FEEL NOTHING BUT THE CLOUT IN ME

MY SURROUNDINGS SEEM

UNDOUBTEDLY TRANSITIONING

IN MIST LIKE CLOUDS SEEM

MY DAYS ARE FOGGY

BUT THE MIND'S NOT CLOGGY 

I WRITE SO LONG 

MY CEREAL IS REAL SOGGY

BUT THE CEREALS NOT REAL

AND NEITHER AM I 

I WAS ONLY SENT HERE TO FEEL

A PAIN THAT WAS NEVER REAL

UNTIL I REALIZE THIS AND HEAL MY PAIN

THEN HELP YOU OUT UNTIL YOU'RE HEALED

AS WELL

OH WELL

YOU DIDN'T ASK

AND SO I CANNOT TELL

I'M JUST A GENIE 

WITH A WEENIE

AND A WHOLE LOT OF STRATEGY 

IN MY TEENY TINY POCKET

AND A NECKLACE WITH A LOCKET

IN THE SHAPE OF A HEART AND

THE MOON I CALLA SPACE ROCK

THEY SAY SPACE

IS WATER

SO WE LIVE IN-BETWEEN TWO OCEANS?

STRENGTH OF THE FIRMAMENT IS POTENT

I BELIEVE IN IMPERMANENCE

FOR THE ONLY THING HERE THAT'S PERMANENT

IS GOD

THIS I BELIEVE

AND SO ALL I SEE

IS A PERSPECTIVE FROM THE OUTSIDE OF THE FIRMAMENT

PROPHECIES I'M WARNING IT

MY PERSPECTIVE IS WARRANTED

AND WARRANTS MUST BE PURSUED

UNTIL THE SUBPOENA GETS SERVED IN THIS

THIS GAME

OF JOY AND PAIN

JUST STAY THE SAME

EITHER WAY

MAKE SURE NEUTRALITY IS MAINTAINED

THEN DISPLAY A FACE

THATS BLANK

OF HUMAN EMOTION

BC THAT'S THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL

OR AT LEAST THE ATTACHMENT TO IT

OH BOY I HOPE YOU'RE LOVING THIS

CAUSE I'M ABOUT TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT WITH

MY TIME

IS ALL

I'LL EVER TRULY NEED

WITHOUT SUCH D E A D INDEED

WHILE I'M HERE JUST PLANT THE SEEDS

OF TREES

WHO SHADE

I'LL NEVER GET TO SIT IN 

THE STEP WAS THE WORD WRITTEN

BY MY PEN PENNING A SENTENCE

CONSTRUCTED BY MY INTENTION

TO CONSTRUCT YOU INTO A WHOLE NEW DIMENSION

OF THOUGHT

I JUST BROUGHT

TO A WHOLE NEW TABLE

THIS IS A WHOLE NEW FABLE

I HAVE THREE BROTHERS

WHICH ONE IS CAIN?

WHICH ONE IS ABEL?

YO I DON'T LIKE THE MATH

OF THIS EQUATION

SO I CUT OUT LIKE THE CABLE

OR DID I MEAN THE GREAT BRITISH POUND?

ONCE QUEEN ELIZABETH TRANSCENDED

AUSTRALIA'S DOLLAR STOPPED FALLING DOWN

THAT'S NOT A JOKE

ITS A QUOTE

LIKE THE PRICE

SO TAKE A HIKE

AND ELOPE

WITH YOURSELF

UNLESS YOU FEEL YOU NEED SOMEONE ELSE'S HELP

JUST TO LOVE YOURSELF

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION SIX:

 8:16AM EST - 8:54AM EST 

FRIDAY JANUARY 26TH, 2024

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION SIX: I AM NOT CONTROLLED BY MY EMOTION

  I AM NOT MY EMOTION. I AM NOT CONTROLLED BY MY EMOTION. I CHOOSE MY EMOTION. I WILL CHOOSE WHATEVER EMOTION I DESIRE. I WILL FEEL HOWEVER I WANT TO FEEL. I WILL FEEL LIKE HOWEVER I NEED TO FEEL IN ORDER TO COMPLETE THE MISSION AT HAND. THE MISSION IS THE CIRCUMSTANCE. WHATEVER EMOTION THE CIRCUMSTANCE REQUIRES I WILL DEAL WITH IT. 

  I WILL INEVITABLY FEEL SAD. IT IS NORMAL. IT IS NORMAL TO FEEL SAD. IT IS NOT NORMAL HOWEVER TO REMAIN SAD. THE PROCESS OF BEING STUCK IN THE SADNESS EMOTIONAL STATE IS A MENTAL DISEASE. THE MENTAL DISEASE IS CALLED ADDICTION TO ATTACHMENT. YOU ARE ATTACHED TO YOUR EMOTION. YOU THINK THE EMOTION IS REAL. YOU THINK THE EMOTION DEFINES YOU. 

  YOU THINK THE EMOTION CONTROLS YOU. THE EMOTION DOES CONTROL YOU UNTIL YOU BEGIN TO CONTROL THE EMOTION. YOU MUST CONTROL YOUR EMOTION OTHERWISE YOUR EMOTION MUST CONTROL YOU. YOU DO NOT MAKE THE CIRCUMSTANCE. YOU TAKE THE CIRCUMSTANCE. YOU ARE NOT THE CIRCUMSTANCE MAKER. YOU ARE THE CIRCUMSTANCE TAKER. YOU MUST TAKE THE CIRCUMSTANCE AND THEN SHAKE THE CIRCUMSTANCE AND BAKE THE CIRCUMSTANCE. 

  YOU JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH HOW YOU FEEL. ONCE YOU DEAL WITH YOUR FEELINGS YOU NOW CONTROL THEM. THE EMBRACING PROCESS WILL TAKE TIME. THE EMBRACEMENT WILL BURN. EMBRACING PAIN WILL HURT. EMBRACING PAIN HOWEVER WILL NOT HURT YOU AS MUCH AS RUNNING FROM THE PAIN. THE PAIN DOES NOT EXIST. NOTHING EXISTS BUT THE ILLUSION. 

  YOU CAN DO THIS. I BELIEVE IN YOU. AT WORK ON BREAKS I GO INTO THE BATHROOM. I GO INTO THE BATHROOM AND I CRY. AFTER MY BREAK IS OVER I WASH MY FACE AND THEN RETURN TO WORK. I IMMEDIATELY CONQUER THE EMOTION AND I RETURN TO THE PROPER MINDSET. YOU WILL ONE DAY HAVE THE SAME POWER.

   THE POWER TO CHOOSE A DESIRED EMOTION. THE POWER TO THEN LATER RELEASE AN UNDESIRED EMOTION BY EVOKING IT AT WILL AND THEN RELEASING IT. THE POWER TO DISCONNECT THE EMOTION AND TO PICK UP ANOTHER MORE DESIRED EMOTION AND THEN TO RETURN TO THE MISSION. YOU'RE CLOSER THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE NOW SO DO NOT WORRY. WORRY WILL GET YOU NOWHERE. FAITH IN GOD TRANSCENDS WORRY AND GETS YOU EVERYWHERE. 

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION FIVE

 10:25AM EST - 10:45AM EST 

WEDNESDAY JANUARY 24TH, 2024

1.24.2024

WRISTS BATHED IN RED 

SESSION FIVE: A POWER ONLY DEATH ITSELF CAN ROB YOU OF

  IMAGINE EMOTION AS A LIGHT SWITCH.. IMAGINE EMOTION AS A PHONE NUMBER YOU CAN DIAL AT ANY TIME. IMAGINE EMOTION AS A WEBSITE URL YOU CAN TYPE IN AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT. IMAGINE BEING ABLE TO INVOKE ANY DESIRED EMOTION WHENEVER YOU WANTED TO. IMAGINE THE POWER. 

  YOU CAN HOLD SUCH A POWER. TODAY. IT IS WITHIN YOUR GRASP. HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT? HOW DO YOU WANT IT? WHAT IS STOPPING YOU FROM SUCH A POWER? ONLY THE PROPER TECHNIQUE. HERE'S THE TECHNIQUE. 

  YOU ARE THE TECHNIQUE. YOU ARE THE TOOL. YOU ARE THE CONCEPT. WHATEVER YOU WANT TO FEEL LIKE JUST FEEL LIKE IT. IT IS YOUR CHOICE. JUST CHOOSE IT. SAY I AM READY TO FEEL ANGER. NOW THINK ABOUT WHAT MAKES YOU ANGRY. HOW ANGRY DO YOU WANT TO FEEL? JUST REMEMBER THE MEMORIES INVOKING THIS LEVEL OF DESIRED ANGER. 

  YOU ARE THE ANGER NOW. THE ANGER IS THE TOOL YOU NOW WIELD. WIELD THIS ANGER VERY CAREFULLY THOUGH. TROY CASEY ONCE TOLD ME I WOULD NEVER BE PUNISHED FOR MY ANGER BUT I WILL BE PUNISHED BY MY ANGER. THAT'S THE ONLY SMART THING TROY EVER TOLD ME. THAT'S A LIE, I'M JUST TROLLING TROY CASEY RIGHT NOW. 

  WHEN YOU NO LONGER DESIRE TO FEEL THIS ANGRY OR EVEN ANGRY AT ALL THEN IT'S TIME TO SWITCH THE ANGER LIGHT OFF. OK? NOW THE ANGRY ROOM LIGHT IS OFF. IT IS NOW COMPLETELY DARK IN THERE NOW. WHAT EMOTIONAL ROOM WILL YOU ENTER NEXT? PICK ONE EMOTION. ANY EMOTION. 

  DID YOU PICK IT YET? OK GOOD. NOW PICK IT UP. HOW DOES IT FEEL? DOES IT FEEL GOOD? IF IT DOES NOT FEEL GOOD THEN HOW LONG DO YOU WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY? OK COOL. NOW DROP IT. NOW PICK THE ANGER BACK UP. YOU ANGRY YET? NOW DROP THE ANGER. THE FASTER YOU CAN DO THIS THE MORE POWERFUL AND LESS EMOTIONALLY REACTIVE YOU GROW. 

  NOW IT IS JUST THIS SIMPLE. EMOTION IS NOW YOUR TOOL. YOU CAN INVOKE ANY EMOTION BY REMEMBERING WHATEVER MADE YOU FEEL SUCH A WAY. WAIT. I'M MAKING THIS SOUND WAY TOO EASY OR YOU'RE MAKING IT SEEM WAY HARDER THAN IT ACTUALLY IS. 

  IS IT REALLY HARD TO GRASP? I DON'T THINK SO. WHAT ABOUT YOU? WHAT DO YOU THINK? CAN YOU HANDLE THE POWER? THIS IS POWERFUL. WHAT EMOTION DO YOU FEEL NOW? IS THIS THE DESIRED EMOTION OF YOUR CHOOSING? IF NOT THEN JUST EMBRACE IT. LET ME SEE YOU HUG THIS EMOTION WITHIN YOUR MIND. ONCE EMOTION IS EMBRACED AND NOT RESISTED ONLY THEN IS IT UNDER YOUR WILL. 

  NEVER AGAIN SHALL YOU RUN FROM YOUR EMOTION. IT IS YOURS. EMBRACE THE EMOTION IN THE MOMENT. IF IT MAKES YOU CRY THEN CRY. IF IT MAKES YOU SCREAM FROM ANGER THEN SCREAM. IF IT MAKES YOU LAUGH THEN LAUGH. HOW OFTEN DO WE RESIST JOY AND REFRAIN FROM LAUGHING? ONLY WHEN IT IS SOCIALLY UNACCEPTABLE TO DO SO CIRCUMSTANTIALLY I WOULD THINK. 

  WHEN IS IT SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE TO RESIST CRYING WHEN YOU FEEL SAD? WHEN IS IT THEN SOCIALLY UNACCEPTABLE TO RESIST ANY EMOTION OTHER THAN JOY? WHY MUST THERE BE A BIAS SET TO IT? IF YOU WOULDN'T RESIST LAUGHING THEN WHY BE PREJUDICE TO ANY OTHER EMOTION. WHAT IF ALL EMOTION WERE EQUAL? DO WE NOT BELIEVE IN EQUALITY THEN? 

  SHOULD NOT ALL EMOTION BE ACCEPTED AS MUCH AS JOY AND BLISS? THEN YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT BLISS IS. BLISS IS THIS. THIS IS BLISS. TO BE AT PEACE REGARDLESS OF THE EMOTION. ITS OK. YOU'LL GET THERE SOON. AND IF NOT THEN YOU'RE DOOMED 

  

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION FOUR

 10:52AM EST - 11:50AM EST

TUESDAY JANUARY 23RD, 2024

1.23.2024

1 MONTH SOBER ANNIVERSARY

WRISTS BATHED IN RED

SESSION FOUR: WRISTS BATHED IN RED

  IMAGINE BEING LOST. IMAGINE BEING LOST IN YOUR PAIN. REMEMBER BEING SO PAINFULLY LOST WITHIN. REMEMBER BEING SO LOST WITHIN YOUR OWN PAIN. REMEMBER BEING SO LOST WITHIN YOUR OWN PAIN YOU DECIDE TO DO THE UNTHINKABLE. HOW CAN IT ACTUALLY BE UNTHINKABLE IF YOU'RE CONSTANTLY THINKING IT? 

  IT'S THE ONLY THING ON YOUR MIND. BESIDES THE PAIN IT'S ALL YOU CAN THINK ABOUT. YOU'RE ONLY THINKING ABOUT IT BC OF THE PAIN ITSELF. IF SOMEONE TOLD YOU THE PAIN IN YOUR BRAIN WOULD LEAVE ONE DAY YOU WOULD LASH OUT AT THEM? IF SOMEONE TOLD YOU IT'S ALL IN YOUR MIND YOU WOULD SCREAM AT THEM CALLING THEM A LIAR. 

  IF I TELL YOU I FELT THE SAME WAY YOU WOULD BELIEVE ME. I HAVE NO CUT MARKS ON MY BODY. I AM NOT A CUTTER. I AM AN ADDICT. I WAS ADDICTED TO POISON. I WANTED TO POISON MYSELF TO DEATH. I WANTED TO SMOKE UNTIL MY HEART EXPLODED. I WANTED TO SMOKE POISON UNTIL IT KILLED ME. I FAILED. IT DIDN'T WORK. I REFUSED TO SLICE MY WRISTS HORIZONTALLY FOR ATTENTION OR VERTICALLY TO END IT ALL. 

  I THOUGHT SMOKING POISON WAS A MORE ACCIDENTAL LOOKING SUICIDE. POISON IS STILL SUICIDE. I KNEW WHAT I WAS DOING. I NEVER TOLD ANYONE THIS BEFORE. I WAS GOING TO POISON MYSELF SLOWLY UNTIL IT KILLED ME. MY LUNGS CAN STILL GIVE OUT AT ANY MOMENT. I STILL SMOKE TOBACCO. MY HEART CAN STILL EXPLODE.

  IS THIS STILL NOT A SLOW SUICIDE? WHY NOT JUST BUY ONE GUN AND ONE BULLET? ONE BULLET WILL PUT AN END TO IT ALL. ALL YOU NEED IS TO CUT ONE ARTERY DEEP ENOUGH AND YOU'LL SURELY DIE. WHAT IF YOU FELL ON A KNIFE AIMED TOWARDS YOUR HEART? WHAT IF YOU DROWNED YOURSELF? 

  I THOUGHT ABOUT DROWNING MYSELF IN A LAKE. WHAT WOULD KEEP ME UNDER WATER? WHAT IF I WENT SWIMMING IN THE LAKE WITH ANKLE WEIGHS ON? WOULD I SURELY DIE? WHAT IF I TRULY ABANDON EVERYONE WHOM I THOUGHT HAD TRULY ABANDONED ME? WHAT IF I LET MY OPPONENTS OR PERCEIVED ENEMIES WIN? 

  THEY WERE WAITING FOR ME TO KILL MYSELF. EVEN AT MY LOWEST POINT I THREATENED THEIR VERY BELIEF SYSTEM. THEY WANTED TO LAUGH OVER MY DEAD BODY. THEY COULD NEVER DESTROY ME THEMSELVES SO THEY PUSHED ME AS MUCH AS THEY COULD TOWARDS THE DARK SIDE. IF I RIDICULE HIM ENOUGH FOR BELIEVING IN HIMSELF MAYBE HE WILL STOP. IF HE EVER STOPS BELIEVING IN HIMSELF HE WILL SURELY SUICIDE HIMSELF. 

  THEY WERE THE COWARDS. THEY PICKED ON SOMEONE SUFFERING FROM A DEADLY DISEASE. THEY WERE OF NO HELP TO ME THEY WANTED ME TO HURT MYSELF. WHY WOULD THEY OTHERWISE BE SO CRUEL TO SOMEONE IN NEED? THEY JUST SILENTLY WATCHED ME SUFFER. JUST WAITING WERE THEY ALL. THEY THOUGHT OF ME AS A COMPLETE AND UTTER FAILURE. THIS IS HOW THEY TREATED ME. THIS IS WHAT THEY TOLD ME TO MY CIRCUMSTANTIAL FACE. 

  NEVER LET THEM TELL YOU DIFFERENT. NEVER LET THEM TELL YOU THEY ADMIRED ME. THEY WERE DISGUSTED BY THE VERY SIGHT OF ME. AND I AM SO HANDSOME. THEY LIED TO ME EVEN THEN. I AM NOT JUST HANDSOME. I AM SO HANDSOME I AM ACTUALLY PRETTY. I AM VERY PRETTY. I AM AS PRETTY AS A GIRL. I LOOK LIKE A GIRL. THIS IS HOW PRETTY I ACTUALLY AM. THEY WILL NEVER BE AS PRETTY AS ME. 

  DON'T LET THEM WIN. THEY WANT YOU TO HURT YOURSELF. WHY WOULD YOU TAKE YOURSELF OUT OF THE GAME? PLAY THE GAME. IT IS ALL A GAME. YOU'RE IN THE GAME TO WIN. GAMES ARE MEANT TO BE WON. WINNERS ARE MEANT TO WIN THE GAME. JUST WIN THE GAME ALREADY. 

WHAT'S STOPPING YOU? OH I KNOW. YOU DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE IN A DREAM? OH THE DREAM FELT LIKE A NIGHTMARE HUH? OH YOU WAKE UP IN PAIN? YOU WAKE UP IN THE SAME PAIN YOU FELL ASLEEP WITH HUH? SOMEWHERE ALONG THE LINE YOU BECAME ATTACHED TO ONE COLOR. EVERY EMOTION HAS A COLOR. AN AURA OR A VIBE EVERY COLOR HAS. 

  PAIN IS A CHOICE. YOU CAN DISCONNECT YOUR PAIN. THE ANSWER IS IN DANCING. PAIN CANNOT EXIST WHILE YOU DANCE. WHY ARE YOU NOT DANCING? YOU'RE A LIVING DREAM CHARACTER. YOU ARE A LIVING DREAM CHARACTER WITHIN YOUR OWN DREAM. THESE OTHER DREAM CHARACTERS YOU SEE EVERYDAY ARE YOUR DREAM CHARACTERS WITHIN YOUR DREAM. 

  THESE DREAM CHARACTERS WITHIN YOUR OWN DREAM HAVE NO POWER OVER YOU. THIS IS YOUR DREAM. DANCE BY YOURSELF. DANCE IN FRONT OF OTHERS. WHEN THEY ASK YOU WHY YOU ARE DANCING I WANT YOU TO GET ANGRY. WALK UP TO THEM ANGRILY AND TELL THEM I AM DANCING BC DEEP DOWN INSIDE I WISH I WAS DEAD AND I'M BEGGING MYSELF NOT TO END IT ALL RIGHT NOW AT THIS VERY MOMENT AND IF THEY DON'T MIND YOU'RE GOING TO CONTINUE SAVING YOUR OWN LIFE BC THEY HAVE NO POWER POWERFUL ENOUGH TO STOP YOU FROM BLOWING YOUR CIRCUMSTANTIAL BRAINS OUT RIGHT AT THIS VERY MOMENT AND ONLY GOD AND YOUR PLAYLIST WILL SAVE YOU. 

  I BET THEY LEAVE YOU ALONE. I BET THEY NEVER BOTHER YOUR DANCE ROUTINE EVER AGAIN. NEVER STOP DANCING. IT'S THE ONLY WEAPON YOU HAVE. DANCING IS THE LAST THING YOU FEEL LIKE DOING WHEN YOU ARE IN MENTAL PAIN. THINK ABOUT WHY THIS MUST BE. WHY WOULD DANCING BE THE LAST THOUGHT TO CROSS YOUR MIND. THIS IS BC YOUR MIND IS ADDICTED TO PAIN. 

  YOUR MIND IS THE ADDICT. YOUR MIND IS THE LOSER. NOT YOU. YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF YOUR MIND ONLY ONCE YOU HARNESS THE ABILITY TO HARVEST THE DESIRED EMOTION OF YOUR OWN CHOOSING. YOU CHOOSE THE EMOTION. YOUR MIND'S JUST STUPID AND IT CAN NOT BE TRUSTED. YOU MUST STOP THE PAIN. ITS YOUR PAIN. IT IS YOUR MIND. IT BELONGS ONLY TO YOU. I CAN'T CONTROL YOUR BRAIN. IF I COULD MAKE YOU DO ANYTHING I'D MAKE YOU CLEAN YOUR ROOM. 

  YOUR ROOMS A COMPLETE MESS AND YOU SHOULD BE ABSOLUTELY ASHAMED OF YOURSELF. WHY DID YOU FIRE YOUR MAID? YOUR BEDROOM IS ATROCIOUS. YOUR ROOM LOOKS LIKE A MONSTER CAME IN THERE LOOKING FOR YOU AND THEY FOUND YOU AND KIDNAPPED YOU. WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE IF YOUR ROOM LOOKS LIKE THIS? 

  THE MONSTER SHOULD HAVE FOUND YOU WITH THIS ROOM LOOKING LIKE THIS. YOU BETTER BE SOMEWHERE BLEEDING TO DEATH WITH YOUR ROOM LOOKING LIKE THIS. YOUR ROOM LOOKS LIKE IT BELONGS TO A BARBARIAN MARRIED TO A SAVAGE WHO HAS A BLIND LOVER ON THE SIDE. 

  JENNY AND KENNY ARE MARRIED. JENNY COMES HOME AND SEES KENNY DANCING. JENNY ASKS KENNY WHY IS HE CIRCUMSTANTIALLY DANCING. KENNY SAYS BC IM CIRCUMSTANTIALLY DEPRESSED. JENNY SAYS TO KENNY WELL YOU DON'T LOOK CIRCUMSTANTIALLY DEPRESSED TO ME. KENNY LOOKS BACK AT JENNY WHILE SMILING ONLY TO ASKWELL NOW ISN'T THAT CIRCUMSTANTIALLY CONSEQUENTIAL? 

  PAIN AND JOY CAN NOT EXIST WITHIN THE MIND SIMULTANEOUSLY. IT'S ALWAYS GOING TO BE ONE OR THE OTHER. IF YOU'RE NOT SMILING THEN YOU ARE FROWNING. IF YOU ARE NOT FROWNING THEN YOU ARE SMILING. IT'S YOUR CHOICE. IT'S EASY TO DANCE WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE DANCING. DUH. WHO RAISED YOU? THEY FAILED YOU.  IT'S HARD TO DANCE WHEN YOU DO NOT FEEL LIKE DANCING? 

  WHEN YOU'RE DANCING WHILE YOU'RE ALREADY HAPPY THIS IS CIRCUMSTANTIAL HAPPINESS. WHEN YOU CAN DANCE WHEN YOU ARE IN PAIN THEN THIS IS REFERRED TO AS UN CIRCUMSTANTIAL HAPPINESS. THIS IS THE PATH TO TRUE JOY. TRUE BLISS COMES FROM CONTROLLING YOUR POSITIVE EMOTION WHILE DEALING WITH AN UNPLEASANT CIRCUMSTANCE. BE UN CIRCUMSTANTIAL. CIRCUMSTANCE DOES NOT DEFINE YOU. IF YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES DETERMINE YOUR EMOTIONS YOU'RE JUST A CIRCUMSTANTIAL LOSER. 

JUST BC YOU ARE IN AN UNDESIRED CIRCUMSTANCE DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO FEEL BAD ABOUT IT? MAN WHO RAISED YOU? THEY DID A GREAT JOB. GIVE THEM A PAT ON THE BACK FOR ME. SAY GREAT JOB MOM AND DAD YOU RAISED A COMPLETE LOSER DEFINED BY CIRCUMSTANCE. WHO TAUGHT YOU TO CARE ABOUT WHAT YOU GO THRU? WHO TAUGHT YOU IT WAS ACCEPTABLE TO FEEL BAD ABOUT SOMETHING YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OVER? 

  OH I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THIS CIRCUMSTANCE SO I'M JUST GOING TO CRY ABOUT IT? WHAT? ARE YOU NUTS? YOU ARE THE ENTIRE DEFINITION OF INSANITY. MAYBE THIS CIRCUMSTANCE IS ANOTHER COMPUTER PROGRAM AIMED AT TESTING YOUR FAITH IN GOD AS YOU UNDERSTAND THE CONCEPT OF. WHAT IF GOD WANTED TO TEST YOUR FAITH IN HIS ABILITY TO TRANSCEND THE CIRCUMSTANCE BY SENDING IT TO YOU BEFORE SENDING A MORE DESIRED CIRCUMSTANCE?

  OH YOU THOUGHT LIFE WERE FULL OF ROSES AND CHERRIES DIPPED IN APPLE SAUCE? DON'T FORGET TO LEAVE THE MILK OUT FOR SANTA CLAUSE. HEY WHEN ALL THAT METH SMOKING KNOCKS YOUR TEETH OUT DON'T FORGET TO PUT THEM UNDER YOUR PILLOW FOR THE TOOTH FAIRY. HEY WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD? HE WAS RUNNING FROM HIS PAIN. WHY DID THE CHICKEN NOT CROSS THE ROAD AGAIN? HE WAS RUNNING FROM A PAIN THAT NEVER EXISTED AND GOT RAN OVER IN THE ROAD'S MIDDLE. 

  I'M A JERK. THIS IS TRUE. YOU'RE A JERK TOO THOUGH. YOU THOUGHT I WAS REAL. I WAS NEVER REAL. YOU WERE NEVER REAL EITHER. THE CHICKEN WAS NEVER REAL. THE CHICKEN'S PAIN NEVER REAL EITHER. THE TRUCK WASNT REAL EITHER. THE CHICKEN'S STILL DEAD IN THE STREET THOUGH. THE STREET WASN'T REAL. YET IT ALL REALLY HAPPENED. ONLY WITHIN A COMPUTER SIMULATION THOUGH. GOD IS LAUGHING AT YOU. ONLY BC YOU DON'T REALIZE NONE OF THIS IS REAL. 

  YOUR ANGELS WATCH YOUR SPIRITUAL PROGRESSION WHILE UTTERLY TERRIFIED. OMG HE THINKS THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING. OMG SHE THINKS SHE IS REAL. GOD AND THE DEVIL MADE A BET AT THE BEGINNING OF HUMAN CREATION. GOD SAID TO THE DEVIL HEY I JUST MADE HUMAN BEINGS IN MY IMAGE.

   THE DEVIL SAID I BET YOU I CAN DESTROY THEIR PERCEPTION OF UNITY CONVINCING THEM THEY ARE ALL SEPARATE FROM ONE ANOTHER AND CAUSE CHAOS AND DESTRUCTION. GOD ASKED HOW MUCH DO YOU WANT TO BET LUCIFER? LUCIFER SAID HOW MUCH YOU GOT? GOD PUT EVERYTHING ON THE LINE FOR THE BET. 

  GOD IS LOSING THE BET. IT'S ALL BC OF YOU. YOU THINK THIS WORLD IS REAL. YOU THINK EVERYTHING IS REAL EXCEPT GOD. NOTHING BUT GOD IS REAL. THE DEVIL IS AN UNDERCOVER AGENT WORKING FOR GOD IN ORDER TO TEST YOUR FAITH IN GOD. THE DEVIL HAS A JOB TO TEMPT YOU TO STRAY FROM GOD. THE MOMENT YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE SEPARATE FROM THE UNIVERSE THEN THE DEVIL WINS. 

  IT'S YOUR FAULT GOD LOST THE BET. HE CAN ONLY SAVE YOU WITH CIRCUMSTANCE. CIRCUMSTANCE PROVOKES FATE'S PRODUCTION. WITHOUT A SET OF EVER CHANGING CIRCUMSTANCE CANNOT YOUR DESTINY MANIFEST. YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES ARE YOUR DESTINY POINTS. EACH CIRCUMSTANCE TAKES YOU ONE STEP CLOSER TO YOUR DESTINY AND YOUR FATE. MAN WHO RAISED YOU? 

  WHY DIDN'T THEY EVER TELL YOU THIS? I HOPE YOU FEEL A LITTLE BETTER. GIVE ME THE GUN OR I'M CALLING THE COPS. PUT THE KNIFE DOWN OR I'LL CUT YOU MYSELF. THAT'S A JOKE. I WILL NEVER HURT YOU. AND NEITHER WILL YOUR MENTAL PAIN. THAT'S NOT A JOKE. BUT I PRAY YOU FIND THE FUNNY. 

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION 3✖️❌ CANCEL ✖️❌ THE SIMULATION

 2:12AM EST - 3:00AM EST

MONDAY JANUARY 22ND, 2024

1.22.2024

CANCEL THE SIMULATION

SESSION THREE: YOU ARE NOT YOUR PAIN

  YOU DEFINE YOUR PAIN. YOUR PAIN DOES NOT DEFINE YOU. YOUR PAIN CAN NOT CONTROL YOU FOREVER IF YOU FOREVER CONTROL YOUR PAIN. YOU WILL LEARN TO DROP THE PAIN. YOU WILL LEARN TO PICK THE PAIN BACK UP. THEN YOU WILL DROP THE PAIN BACK DOWN TO THE GROUND ONCE AGAIN. FACE THE WORST PAIN IN YOUR BRAIN. LEARN TO FACE THE WORST PAIN YOU HAVE. 

  ONCE YOU FACE THE PAIN ITSELF IT WILL LESSEN UP. THIS IS YOUR LESSON. THE LESSON IS TO OBSERVE THE PAIN UNTIL IT LESSENS. REALIZE NO MATTER HOW DEEP THE PAIN IS AND HOW HARD IT FEELS TO STARE AT YOU ARE STILL ALIVE. MENTAL PAIN ALONE CAN NEVER KILL YOU. MENTAL PAIN CAN ONLY MAKE YOU FEEL MENTAL PAIN. MENTAL PAIN CAN ONLY MAKE YOU CRY. MENTAL PAIN CAN ONLY MAKE YOU FEEL SAD ENOUGH TO CRY. MENTAL PAIN CAN ONLY MAKE YOU SCREAM. MENTAL PAIN CAN ONLY MAKE YOU ANGRY. MENTAL PAIN CAN ONLY TAKE YOU THRU THE EMOTIONAL RANGE. 

  PICK THE PAIN UP AND FACE IT. NOW TURN YOUR BACK ON THE PAIN. DO NOT RUN FROM THE PAIN. WHEREVER YOU RUN TO THE PAIN WILL ONLY BE THERE ALREADY AWAITING YOUR ARRIVAL. NOW TURN AND FACE THE PAIN. IS THE PAIN STILL THERE? WHERE ELSE CAN IT GO? IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY. YOU CAN ONLY DISCONNECT FROM THE PAIN. THE IMAGE IS A MEMORY AND THE MEMORY IS JUST AN ILLUSION. 

  YOU DON'T WANT TO FEEL THE PAIN? YOU DON'T WANT TO FEEL THE PAIN AFTER FACING IT RIGHT? FACE THE PAIN ANYWAY. ASK YOURSELF ONE QUESTION. HAS THE PAIN KILLED YOU YET? YOU CAN KILL THE PAIN. THE PAIN CAN NEVER KILL YOU. KILLING YOURSELF TO END THE PAIN IS LIKE BREAKING A VIRUS INFECTED COMPUTER TO CURE THE VIRUS. THE VIRUS IS STILL THERE. ALL YOU DID WAS BREAK THE COMPUTER. 

  YOU NEED A NEW CODE PROGRAMMED WITHIN YOUR CODED PROGRAM. THE PAIN WILL NEVER GO AWAY. YOU MUST REDIRECT HOW YOU RELATE TO THE PAIN. PAIN IS A MOTIVATING FORCE. WITH FACING THE PAIN BRINGS GROWTH. YOU CAN NOT GROW YOUR MENTAL STRENGTH WITHOUT EMBRACING THE PAIN. YOU CAN NOT GROW YOUR PHYSICAL MUSCLES WITHOUT EMBRACING THE PAIN OF THE DUMBBELL. 

  THE MENTAL PAIN IS JUST A DUMBBELL. LIFT THE DUMBBELL UP AND EXERCISE YOUR STRENGTH. IF YOU DO NOT FEEL STRONG ENOUGH TO FACE THE PAIN IT IS ONLY BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T BEEN PRACTICING. PRACTICE EMBRACING THE PAIN. WITH EVERY TEAR SHED ASK YOURSELF ONE QUESTION. AM I STILL ALIVE? DO YOU FEEL ALIVE? YOU FEEL IN PAIN? TO BE ABLE TO FEEL ANYTHING IS A SIGN OF LIFE. 

  IF YOU CAN FEEL THE PAIN THEN YOU ARE STILL ALIVE. IF YOU ARE STILL ALIVE WHILE STILL IN PAIN THEN THE PAIN HAS YET TO KILL YOU. I GET TIRED OF MY PAIN AS WELL. IT NEVER WENT ANYWHERE FROM DAY ONE. IT NEVER LEFT ME. IT WAS THE ONLY CONSTANT. DAY IN AND DAY OUT IT WAS THERE WITH ME. FROM DUSK TO DAWN I HAD TO FEEL IT. FROM DAWN UNTIL DUSK I HAD TO DEAL WITH IT. 

  IF ALL I EVER FELT WAS HAPPINESS THEN WHAT COULD I DO FOR YOU NOW? YOU MUST BE WORTHY OF HAPPINESS. YOU MIST BE WORTHY OF PEACE. HOW CAN YOU KNOW YOU ARE WORTHY OF WHAT YOU ARE GOING AFTER UNTIL YOU CONQUER WHAT IS GOING AFTER YOU? PAIN IS YOUR SENSEI. PAIN IS YOUR TRAINER. THE PAIN WILL EVENTUALLY CONQUER YOU OR YOU WILL EVENTUALLY CONQUER THE PAIN. I BELIEVE IN YOU. BUT YOU MUST BELIEVE IN YOU.

  BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. BELIEVE IN GOD. GOD WILL OPEN YOUR EYES. GIVE NOTHING OUTSIDE OF GOD ANY POWER OVER YOUR DREAM. YOUR EMOTIONS ARE NOT IN CONTROL OF YOU. YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF YOUR EMOTIONS. IF IT WAS GOING TO BE EASY TO DO THEN WHAT WAS THE POINT OF THE TEST? 

  THE STRONGEST MOST POTENT PAIN IS STILL JUST ILLUSORY. IT IS NOT REAL. GIVE IT NO POWER. IT'S POWERLESS ONCE YOU EMBRACE IT. THE PAIN IS POWERLESS OVER YOU ONCE YOU ADMIT YOU WILL FACE IT NO MATTER WHAT. WHEN YOUR PAIN ATTACKS YOU EMBRACE IT. YOUR PAIN REPRESENTS YOUR ECKHART TOLLE PAIN BODY. THE POWER OF NOW AND A NEW EARTH. 

  YOUR PAIN BODY IS ALL OF YOUR PAIN. YOU HAVE TO FORGIVE YOURSELF FROM RUNNING FROM THE PAIN. THE PAIN YOU FEEL IS YOUR PAIN. IT BELONGS TO YOU BUT IT IS NOT YOU. IT IS EVERY TEAR YOU HAVE EVER SHED. THE PAIN IS EVERY SCREAM YOU EVER RELEASED. EVERY BETRAYAL YOU ENDURED GREW A CELL AND A LIMB. 

  YOUR PAIN FEELS MISUNDERSTOOD. IT WAS CREATED BUT ITS CREATOR DOES NOT WANT IT. YOUR PAIN FEELS ABANDONED. YOUR PAIN FEELS LOST. YOU'RE NOT FEELING YOUR EMOTION. YOU HAVE NO EMOTION. EMOTION DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU. EMOTION IS JUST THERE. 

  AN ILLUSORY CIRCUMSTANCE CAUSED THE EMOTION. THE PAIN IS THE ABANDONED CHILD WITHIN YOUR SOUL. THE CHILD YOU ONCE WERE WAS CONSUMED BY PAIN. THE CHILD WITHIN YOU IS LOST. PAIN COVERED MEMORIES EMBEDDED THEMSELVES WITHIN YOUR PROGRAMMING. 

  THE CHILD YOU ONCE WERE ENDURED TRAGEDY. YOU'VE BEEN RUNNING FROM HIM OR HER EVER SINCE. THE CHILD YOU ONCE WERE IS STILL IN YOU. THEY JUST GOT COVERED IN PAIN. WHAT DOES A CHILD WHO SURVIVED TRAGEDY DO? THEY CHANGE FOREVER. YOU CAN GET THEM BACK. IT DOESN'T HAVE TO FEEL THIS WAY FOREVER. 

  WHO ARE YOU TO WISH YOU NEVER FELT THAT PAIN? ARE YOU THE ONLY ONE EVER ALIVE ON EARTH WHO HAS FELT SUCH A PAIN BEFORE? ARE YOU THE LAST PERSON EVER ON EARTH TO GO THRU SUCH PAIN? NO AND NO IS THE ANSWER TO BOTH QUESTIONS JUST POSED. ONCE YOU LEARN TO EMBRACE EVERY EMOTION YOU EVER FEEL THEN YOU WILL GROW THE POWER TO CHANGE THE EMOTION AT WILL. 

  YOU WILL BE THE EMOTIONAL SENSEI ONE DAY. I KNOW YOU WILL. THIS IS YOUR TRAINING AND THESE MEMORIES ARE YOUR TRAINING GROUNDS. TRAINING IS NEVER BASIC. NEVER EASY IS TRAINING. AS MUCH AS I ALSO WISHED I NEVER FELT MY PAIN I HAVE BUT ONE QUESTION FOR US BOTH. IF I NEVER FELT ALL OF THE PAIN I HAVE EVER FELT THEN OF WHAT GOOD USE TO YOU IN YOUR TIME OF SINCERE NEED WOULD I BE? I WOULD BE OF NO USE TO YOU OR ANYONE WE KNOW IF I DIDN'T ENDURE TRAGEDY. YET I SURVIVED MY TRAGIC MOMENTS AND SO DID YOU. 

  WE ARE BOTH SURVIVORS. ONLY A SURVIVOR CAN HELP ANOTHER SURVIVOR. I'M HELPING YOU FROM ONE SURVIVOR TO THE NEXT SO YOU MAY ONE DAY SOON HELP THE NEXT SURVIVOR YOU ENCOUNTER. THEY WILL BE AS LOST THEN AS YOU MAY BE NOW AND YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU ARE GOING TO FIND THEM. THEN YOU WILL HELP THEM FIND THEIR WAY OUT OF THE PAIN FILLED DUNGEON. 

  

WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION TWO✖️❌ CANCEL ✖️❌ THE SIMULATION

 4:03PM EST - 4:59PM EST

SUNDAY JANUARY 21ST, 2024

1.21.2024

CANCEL THE SIMULATION

SESSION TWO: YOU ARE THE DREAMER

  YOU ARE NOT YOUR MIND. YOU ARE NOT YOUR MIND'S THOUGHTS. YOU ARE NOT WHAT YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT. YOUR MIND CREATES FOR YOU WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT. YOU ARE NOT WHAT YOU FEEL. YOU ARE THE OBSERVER OF THE MIND WITHIN THE DREAM OBSERVING WHAT IS FELT. BY YOU OBSERVING WHAT YOU FEEL AND THEN RELEASING HOW YOU DO NOT DESIRE TO FEEL YOU CAN FEEL HOW YOU DESIRE TO FEEL. 

  DROP HOW YOU DO NOT WANT TO FEEL THEN PICK UP THE DESIRED EMOTION. YOUR EMOTION IS YOUR TOOL. A TOOL IS YOURS TO WIELD. IF YOU HOLD THE WRONG TOOL FOR THE TASK AT HAND THEN DROP IT DOWN TO THE GROUND BEFORE PICKING UP THE PROPER TOOL FOR THE TASK AT HAND. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO HOLD ON TO AN UN USEFUL TOOL. 

  YOUR MIND IS IN PAIN. YOU FEEL AS IF YOU CAN STOP THE PAIN. THE PAIN IS CONSTANT. THERE IS NOWHERE TO TURN. EVERYWHERE YOU LOOK, EVERYTHING YOU SEE REMINDS YOU OF THE TRAUMA. REALIZE THE TRAUMA IS NOT REAL ONCE YOU FACE IT. STARE AT THE MEMORY. FACE IT. ARE YOU FLINCHING YET?

DO NOT FLINCH. DO NOT RUN. THIS DOG WILL CHASE YOU IF YOU RUN. IF THE DOG OF YOUR TRAUMATIC PAST IS TO BITE YOU THEN IT WILL HAVE TO BITE YOU ON YOUR ARM. IF YOU RUN FROM THE DOG THEN IT WILL ONLY BITE YOU ON THE BUTTOCKS. IF THE DOG BITES YOU FROM BEHIND HOW CAN YOU EMBRACE FOR THE PAIN? 

  STAND YOUR GROUND AGAINST THE DOG. THERE IS NO DOG. THERE IS NO TRAUMA. THERE IS NO MEMORY. THERE IS NO PAIN. THERE IS NO EMOTION. THERE IS NO MIND TO THINK PAINFUL THOUGHTS CAUSING PAINFUL EMOTIONS. EVERY EMOTION YOU FEEL IS AN ILLUSION. GOOD OR BAD THE EMOTION SHALL AT SOME POINT PASS BY YOU. 

  EVERY THOUGHT YOU THINK IS AN ILLUSION. EVERY MEMORY YOU HAVE EVER REMEMBERED WAS CREATED INSIDE OF AN ILLUSION. THE ILLUSION IS A COMPUTER PROGRAM. THIS LIFE IS SIMULATED. THIS LIFE EXISTS ONLY WITHIN A SIMULATION. WE LIVE IN A COMPUTER CHIP. EVERYTHING IS WITHIN THE CHIP. WE ARE JUST SEMI CONDUCTORS SEMI CONDUCTING. SEMI CONDUCT EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT. 

  NOW PLEASE STARE AT YOUR HANDS. STARE AT BOTH OF THEM. NOW PLEASE ASK YOURSELF IF YOU ARE DREAMING NOW? THE ANSWER IS YES. AN EMPHATICALLY RESOUNDING YES SAID WITH ENTHUSIASM. YOU ARE DREAMING. ONCE YOU REALIZE YOU ARE ACTUALLY DREAMING NOW THEN YOU BREAK THRU THE SIMULATION CODE AND ARE THEN NO LONGER SUBJECT TO THE VICTIM MINDSET. 

  DO NOT EVER BE THE VICTIM WITHIN YOUR DREAM. NEVER BE WITH THE VICTIM PERSPECTIVE WITHIN YOUR OWN DREAM. SEPARATENESS IS AN ILLUSION. THE CONCEPT OF SEPARATENESS IS A FALSE BELIEVE PERPETUATED BY LIARS. EVERYTHING YOU SEE OR THINK AND FEEL IS A LIE. DOUBT EVERYTHING. DOUBT EVERYTHING IS REALLY HAPPENING OUTSIDE OF YOUR MIND. 

  GOD PLACED YOU HERE TO GROW CLOSER TO HIM. GROW CLOSER TO GOD TO SEE THRU THE ILLUSION. THE DEVIL'S JOB IS TO CONVINCE YOU OF THE CONCEPT OF SEPARATENESS. IF YOU BELIEVE YOU ARE SEPARATE FROM EVERYTHING YOU SEE THE DEVIL WINS. YOU ARE THE DREAMER. EVERYTHING YOU SEE IS PLIABLE. BEND THE SPOON. YOU CAN BEND THE SPOON IF YOU REALIZE THERE IS NO SPOON. 

  THE MIND CAN NOT BEND SOMETHING IT PERCEIVES TO BE REAL. THE MIND IS A TOOL. NEVER LET THE TOOL USE YOU. ALWAYS USE THE TOOL. YOUR MIND PRODUCES A THOUGHT AND THE THOUGHT PRODUCES AN EMOTION. IF YOUR MIND PRODUCES AN UNWANTED THOUGHT THEN THE UNWANTED THOUGHT SUBSEQUENTLY PRODUCES AN UNWANTED EMOTION. IF THE MIND PRODUCES UNDESIRED THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS THEN JUST CHANGE YOUR MIND. 

  IT IS GOING TO BE IMPOSSIBLE TO CHANGE YOUR MIND AT WILL WITHIN 24 HOURS IF YOU FALL FOR THE LIE. THE LIE IS YOU ARE NOT IN CONTROL OF WHAT YOU THINK AND WHAT YOU FEEL. IF YOU ARE NOT IN CONTROL OF WHAT YOU THINK AND WHAT YOU FEEL THEREAFTER THEN WHO IS IN CONTROL? IF NOT YOU THEN WHO? I CAN NOT MAKE YOU FEEL ANYTHING LONGER THAN HOWEVER LONG YOU WANT TO FEEL IT. 

  THE SIMULATION WILL TEST YOU. THIS SIMULATION IS NOTHING BUT A TEST. EVERY SITUATION IS A TEST. EVERY CIRCUMSTANCE IS A TEST. GOD ALLOWS THE SIMULATION TO TEST YOUR FAITH IN GOD. NEVER ALLOW YOUR FAITH IN GOD TO WAIVER. BE UNFLINCHING. BE AS UNFLINCHING AS KOBE BRYANT WAS WHEN MATT BARNES PUMP FAKED THE BASKETBALL IN HIS FACE FROM THE SIDELINE OF THE COURT BEFORE THE PLAY BEGAN. 

  NEVER FLINCH IN FRONT OF THE DOG FROM YOUR PAST. THE DOG DOES NOT EXIST. YOUR PAST DOES NOT EXIST. YOU ARE REMEMBERING A LIE YOU SAW. LIES ARE VERBAL AND LIES ARE VISUAL. EVERY MEMORY YOU DO OR DO NOT HOLD DEAR AND CLOSE TO YOUR HEART IS A LIE. IT ONLY HAPPENED WITHIN THE CONFINES OF A COMPUTED SIMULATION. 

  RELEASE THE PAIN. IT WILL TAKE TIME BUT THE LIE ITSELF TOOK TIME TO CONVINCE YOU. READ THESE WORDS UNTIL YOU BELIEVE THEM FROM DEEP WITHIN YOUR CORE BEING. YOUR SOUL NEEDS TO HEAR THESE WORDS VERBALIZED. YOUR SOUL DESIRES TO BE FREE FROM THE PAIN. GIVE THE PAIN A LITTLE LESS POWER. THEN YOU GIVE THE PAIN A LITTLE MORE LESS POWER. PRETTY SOON THIS PAIN WILL BE POWERLESS OVER YOU. 

  YOU ARE NOT POWERLESS OVER YOUR MIND. YOU ARE NOT POWERLESS FROM THE MENTAL PAIN THE MIND PRODUCES FROM THE THOUGHT'S MEMORY. THE MEMORY WILL NEVER GO AWAY. THE PAIN HOWEVER CAN GO AWAY. I CAN'T DO THIS FOR YOU. YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN. YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS ENDEAVOR HOWEVER. 

  THE PAIN WILL ALWAYS BE THERE. YOU DO NOT HOWEVER HAVE TO BE VICTIMIZED BY THE MENTAL PAIN. NOT ANYMORE YOU DON'T. YOU CAN SEE THRU THE ILLUSION. SO JUST SEE THRU THE ILLUSION. YOU NO LONGER HAVE TO BE ANTAGONIZED BY THE PAIN WITHIN YOUR OWN DREAM. 

  EVERYONE YOU MEET IS YOUR SENSEI. THEY ARE YOUR GURU. THEY ARE HERE TO TEACH YOU TO LOVE YOURSELF NO MATTER WHAT. IF EVERYONE YOU MET TREATED YOU WITH LOVE THEN LOVE WOULD BE ALL YOU EVER SAW. IF LOVE WAS SOMETHING YOU ONLY REMEMBER SEEING THEN IT WOULD BE EASIER TO RECOGNIZE THE UNITED SIMULATION. 

  THE SIMULATION'S JOB IS TO TEST YOUR CONVICTION OF YOUR LUCIDITY. LUCIDITY IS YOUR ABILITY TO BE AWARE OF THE FACT YOU ARE DREAMING THIS DREAM. I AM NOT EXEMPT. I WAS THERE NOT TOO LONG AGO. I AM NOT TOO MANY STEPS IN FRONT OF WHERE I ONCE WAS MENTALLY. I THOUGHT IT WAS REAL TOO. I THOUGHT MY MEMORIES WERE REAL. I BELIEVED THE MEMORIES OF MY SEXUAL TRAUMA TRULY OCCURED. 

  I WAS IN DEEP MENTAL PAIN MY ENTIRE LIFE. UNTIL A MONTH AGO I COULDN'T FULLY RELEASE IT. THE PAIN WILL ALWAYS BE THERE. I DO NOT BELIEVE THE MEMORIES ACTUALLY HAPPENED ANYMORE. IT WAS A TOUGH PROCESS. YEARS OF CRYING. YEARS OF BLAMING MYSELF. YEARS OF PAIN. YEARS OF WAKING UP IN TEARS. YEARS OF CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP. YEARS OF PRAYING I WOULDN'T AWAKE FROM MY SLEEP. YEARS OF CURSING THE BLESSING I EVEN WOKE UP AGAIN. 

  YEARS OF BEING UNGRATEFUL FOR THE CHANCE TO GET OVER IT. YEARS OF NOT GETTING OVER IT. TO TELL SOMEONE TO GET OVER SOMETHING TRAGIC THEY BELIEVE ACTUALLY HAPPENED IS RUDE. IT IS JUST DISRESPECTFUL TO DO SO. TO TELL SOMEONE TO GET OVER SOMETHING NEVER ACTUALLY HAPPENING IS NOT RUDE AT ALL. 

  I WAS MOLESTED BY SEVERAL STRANGERS AS A CHILD. THIS IS TRUE. I WAS HOWEVER ONLY MOLESTED BY SEVERAL STRANGERS WITHIN THE CONFINES OF AN ILLUSION. THOSE MEMORIES HAPPENED IN A DREAM. IT WAS A NIGHTMARE I DIDN'T WAKE UP FROM. I'M STILL INSIDE OF THS SAME DREAM BUT THE DREAM IS NO LONGER NIGHTMARISH. 

  I AWOKE INSIDE OF THE DREAM. WHILE STILL DREAMING I REMEMBERED I WAS DREAMING. NOW LIFE IS JUST A DREAM. WHATEVER I DESIRE HAPPENS TO ME IN DUE TIME. I HAD TO DO THE TIME. IT WON'T BE EASY YET I AM HERE TO GUIDE YOU. IF YOU DON'T TRUST THE MESSAGE THE MESSAGE THEN CAN NOT HELP YOU. THE MESSAGE IS HERE TO HELP YOU. I DO NOT KNOW YOUR TRAUMA BUT I KNOW TRAUMA IN GENERAL.

  I DO NOT KNOW YOUR SPECIFIC HORRIBLE MEMORIES YET I DO KNOW HORRIBLE MEMORIES IN GENERAL. WHEN I SAY I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GOING THRU I'M BEING HONEST. WHEN I SAY I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GOING THRU EVEN THOUGH I DO NOT SPECIFICALLY KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN THRU. 

  I KNOW IT SUCKED VERY BAD THOUGH. I KNOW IT MADE YOU CRY. I KNOW YOU HATED BEING ALIVE AT TIMES. I'M SURE YOU FELT NEGLECTED. I'M SURE YOU FELT ABANDONED. I'M SURE YOU FELT INSECURE ABOUT IT. I'M SURE IT BOTHERED YOU. I'M SURE YOU BLAMED YOURSELF. I'M SURE YOU EVEN BLAMED OTHERS. 

  I'M SURE YOU'RE STILL DREAMING IF THESE WORDS ARE WHAT YOU ARE OBSERVING NOW THOUGH. IF YOU ARE READING THIS THEN IT IS NOT TOO LATE. I'M SURE YOU'RE STILL DREAMING. IF YOU ARE STILL DREAMING THEN THIS MAKES YOU A SURVIVOR OF WHATEVER YOU DID GO THRU. 

  POUR YOURSELF A GLASS OF APPLE JUICE FOR US BOTH AND LET'S HAVE A TOAST. WE BOTH MADE IT TO THIS POINT. WE ARE ALL SURVIVORS OF A HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE. THEN WE AWOKE. WE AWOKE STILL WITHIN THE DREAM. NOW THE DREAM IS UNDER OUR CONTROL. GIVE NOTHING POWER OVER YOUR DREAM EXCEPT GOD. THE GOD AS YOU UNDERSTAND HIM. THEN EVERYTHING GOT BETTER. I LOVE YOU. THANK YOU FOR SURVIVING. 

❌ ✖️ WRISTS BATHED IN RED INTRO SESSION ONECANCEL THE SIMULATION🔩 🥜 1.19.24 PAGE 1

 SATURDAY JANUARY 20TH, 2024

1.19.2024

9:27AM EST - 10:04AM EST

SESSION ONE: THE FOOD FOR ALL ACT

  STARVATION IS A COMMON HUMAN ISSUE. ALL COMMON ISSUES WILL BE SOLVED FOR ALL. WE WILL PROVIDE FOOD FUNDS FOR EVERY PERSON. WE WILL FEED EVERYONE. WE WILL FEED OUR FRIENDS. WE WILL FEED OUR FAMILIES. WE WILL FEED OUR ENEMIES. WE WILL FEED OUR OPPONENTS. WE WILL FEED OUR ALLIES. EVERYONE WILL EAT. NO ONE WILL STARVE UNLESS THEY DESIRE TO. WHO DESIRES TO STARVE?

  WHO DESIRES TO STARVE? NO ONE DESIRES TO STARVE. WE WILL DELIVER A LIST OF GOOD DEEDS TO EVERY PERSON IN EXCHANGE FOR THEIR GROCERY SHOPPING LIST. THEY COMPLETE THE TASKS ON OUR LIST TO THEM. WE WILL COMPLETE THE TASKS ON THEIR LIST TO US. WE WILL CURE THEIR SUFFERING DUE TO HUNGER. THEY WILL HELP AID OTHERS IN SUFFERING. 

  WE WILL NOT WATCH THEM SUFFER. THEY WILL NOT WATCH OTHERS SUFFER. THEY ARE NOT SEPARATE FROM US. WE ARE NOT SEPARATE FROM THEM. WE ARE ALL ONE. WE ALL HAVE THE SAME MAIN ISSUES. WE CAN ALL CARE. WE ALL WILL CARE. IF WE CAN DO IT THEN WE SHOULD DO IT. 

  IF WE SHOULD DO IT THEN WE WILL DO IT. WE WILL SET THE PROPER EXAMPLE. WE WILL LEAD THE WAY. THOSE IN NEED WILL FOLLOW. WE MUST LIGHT THE WAY. THEY WILL FOLLOW THE LIGHT. EVERYONE YOU SEE IS ACTUALLY YOU IN DISGUISE. THEY ARE IN DISGUISE IN ANOTHER PHYSICAL FORM TO TEST YOU. THE TEST IS TO REALIZE THEY ARE ACTUALLY YOU IN DISGUISE. 

  ONCE WE REALIZE WE ARE US IN DISGUISE WE CAN SEE THE THRU THE SICKNESS OF SEPARATE AS A CONCEPT. NOTHING WE SEE IS NOT WITHIN US. SEPARATENESS AS A CONCEPT IN ITSELF IS A MENTAL DISORDER. TO SEE SOMEONE ELSE'S SUFFERING AS SEPARATE FROM YOURS IS A MENTAL DISEASE. ARE YOU SICK? ARE YOU TWISTED? ARE YOU DELUSIONAL? ARE YOU INSANE? I THINK YOU ARE. 

  IF YOU SEE ME AS SEPARATE FROM YOU THEN I SEE YOU AS UTTERLY INSANE. YOU NEED SERIOUS PROFESSIONALLY TRAINED ASSISTANCE IF YOU CAN NOT SEE I AM YOU. IF I CAN SUFFER THEN YOU TOO CAN SUFFER. IF I CAN GO HUNGRY THEN YOU AS WELL CAN ALSO GO HUNGRY. IF I AM IN DANGER OF STARVING THEN YOU ARE ALSO CAPABLE OF BEING IN DANGER OF STARVATION. 

  IF YOU CAN WATCH ME SUFFER THEN SOMEONE ELSE CAN BE AS SICK AND TWISTED AS YOU CAN BE WHILE WATCHING YOU SUFFER. IF YOU CAN LAUGH AT MY PAIN THEN SOMEONE ELSE WHO SEES YOU AS SOMEONE ELSE CAN ALSO LAUGH AT YOUR PAIN. OH WE ARE NOT EXEMPTION GRANTED. 

  WE DID NOT CAUSE THE ISSUE. WE ARE NOW WATCHING THE PROBLEM CONTINUE. WHO CHALLENGED US TO WATCH THE ISSUE WORSEN? WHO ASKED US TO SILENTLY WATCH OTHERS IN PAIN WHILE PRAYING OUR PAIN GOES AWAY? WHO GAVE US PERMISSION TO DO NOTHING?

 WHO AGREED IT WAS OK TO SAY WE WILL DO MORE WHEN WE HAVE ENOUGH? AS A WHOLE WE HAVE ENOUGH TO DO MORE NOW. AS A COLLECTIVE PARTY WE CAN HEAL THE PAIN. WE CAN AID THE SOLUTION'S MANIFESTATION AS A GROUP. WE ARE IN CHARGE NOW. 

  WHO CAN STOP US FROM REALIZED TRUTH? ONCE TRUTH IS REALIZED WHO IS IN OUR WAY? WHO IS IN OUR WAY IF WE ARE ONE? WE ARE IN OUR WAY AS LONG AS WE SEE US AS SEPARATE. HOW DIFFERENT ARE YOU FROM ME? HOW DIFFERENT ARE WE FROM THEM? WHAT PAINS HAVE THEY FELT WE OURSELVES HAVE NEVER FELT? 

  WHAT FEARS DO THEY HAVE WE SO DO NOT SHARE? WHAT DO WE FEAR THEY DON'T FEAR? WHAT ARE YOUR TOP ONE THOUSAND FEARS? DO YOU NOT FEAR ONE THOUSAND SITUATIONS? NOW PUT ALL OF THE ANSWERS TOGETHER IN ONE PILE. HOW MANY FEARS WERE ONLY WRITTEN ONCE? 

JUSTSTOPPO CHAPTER ONE

 3:42PM EST - 3:58PM ESTI

FRIDAY JANUARY 12TH, 2024

JUSTSTOPPO THE NOVEL

CHAPTER ONE: JUST STOP 🛑 🚏

CHAPTER ONE: JUST STOP 🛑 🚏

I WAS SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM. I WAS SITTING IN THE LIVING ROOM WITH BOBBY. BOBBY HAD JUST POURED MILK 🥛🍼 IN HIS BOWL 🥣🍜 OF CEREAL. BOBBY WAS ABOUT TO EAT FROSTED FLAKES. AS SOON AS BOBBY SAT BACK DOWN AFTER PUTTING THE MILK 🥛 🍼  GALLON BACK IN THE FRIDGE, THE DOOR 🚪 BUSTED OPEN. NEXT THING YOU KNOW, 20 JUSTSTOPPO AGENTS BURSTED THRU THE DOOR 🚪. THE AGENT'S GUNS WERE DRAWN OUT. THE AGENTS ORDERED US TO GET DOWN. I BEGAN TO SMILE 😊😁. BOBBY HAD A DREAM. BOBBY HAD A DREAM BUT BOBBY DOUBTED HIMSELF. OUR COUNTRY HAD RECENTLY BEEN OVERTAKEN BY A MADMAN 💢😡 DICTATOR NAMED MONTARIO WALKER. 

MONTARIO WALKER WAS ALL ABOUT DREAMING. ANYONE CAUGHT NOT DREAMING WOULD BE CAPTURED. ANYONE CAUGHT NOT DREAMING WOULD BE CAPTURED AND TRIED IN COURT. ANYONE CAUGHT NOT DREAMING WOULD BE CAPTURED, TRIED AND FOUND GUILTY. ANYONE CAUGHT NOT DREAMING WOULD BE CAPTURED, TRIED, FOUND GUILTY AND SENT TO A CONCENTRATION CAMP. ANYONE SENT TO THE CONCENTRATION CAMP WOULD BE EXECUTED AFTER THIRTY DAYS. 

I WAS MONTARIO WALKER'S TOP AGENT. I WAS A SPY. I WAS SENT OUT TO FIND THE NON DREAMERS. I WAS SENT TO FIND THE NON BELIEVERS. I WAS SENT TO FIND THE SELF DOUBTERS. I WAS A SPY WALKER. I WAS SENT TO PURGE THE EARTH OF SELF DOUBTERS. IN THIS NEW REGIME, SELF DOUBTERS WOULD NOT BE TOLERATED. IN THIS NEW REGIME, SELF DOUBTERS HAD TO GO. MONTARIO WALKER BELIEVED IN THE PURGING OF THE SELF DOUBT PLAGUING HUMANITY. SELF DOUBT WAS A DEADLY DISEASE WITH NO CURE. IF YOU DOUBTED YOURSELF IN THIS NEW SOCIETY, YOU WENT MISSING. 

BOBBY HAD BEEN COMPLETELY FILLED WITH SELF DOUBT FOR SOME TIME. I TRIED TO HELP HIM. I TRIED TO TELL HIM TO JUST FOCUS. JUST BELIEVE IN YOURSELF BOBBY. BOBBY WOULDN'T LISTEN TO ME. HE JUST WOULDN'T HAVE IT. NOW BOBBY'S BEING DRAGGED AWAY IN HAND ✋👌 CUFFS. I DON'T KNOW WHO CALLED THE JUSTSTOPPO ON BOBBY. I HAVE NO CLUE 🧩🗝️. 

EVERYWHERE FOR A MINUTE

THURSDAY JANUARY 11TH, 2024

7:15PM EST -7:27PM EST

 THE INTRODUCTION: YOU MAKE ME SICK TO MY STOMACH

YOU MAKE ME SICK TO MY STOMACH. WHY? WE ARE THE ANTITHESIS OF EACH OTHER, THAT'S WHY. I DON'T THINK I REALLY EXIST. I DON'T THINK YOU REALLY EXISTS EITHER. I DON'T THINK ANY OF THIS EXISTS. I BELIEVE I LIVE IN A COMPUTER PROGRAM. I AM SURROUNDED BY ROGUE COMPUTER PROGRAMS. YOU ARE A COMPUTER PROGRAM RUNNING WILD. 

YOU GOT CAUGHT UP INSIDE OF THIS COMPUTER PROGRAM. I DIDN'T. I NEVER TOOK THIS PROGRAM SERIOUSLY. YOU ALWAYS TALK AND YOU'RE ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT NOTHING. YOU'RE ONLY EVER TALKING ABOUT THE PHYSICAL EXPERIENCE. IS THIS YOUR FIRST TIME IN THE PROGRAM? I THINK SO. 

I HAVE BEEN IN THIS PROGRAM MANY TIMES OVER. I ALWAYS FELT OUT OF PLACE HERE. I WAS CODED DIFFERENT. YOU CAN'T ALTER SOMEONE'S CODE. HOWEVER THEY ARE CODED THEY ARE LITERALLY STUCK IN THAT CODE. I AM EMBEDDED WITH THE LUCID CODE. I AM STUCK ON LUCID. I AM AWARE OF THE DREAM. 

I AM A DREAMER. I AM THE DREAMER. I AM THE DREAMER WITHIN THE DREAM. I AM AWARE I AM DREAMING NOW. I POSSESS THE LUCID DREAMER POWER WITHIN MY DREAM. IF YOU DON'T RELATE TO THIS THEN YOU ARE JUST A DREAM CHARACTER IN YOUR OWN DREAM.