WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION THIRTEEN:

 4:07AM EST - 4:57AM EST

TUESDAY JANUARY 30TH, 2024

1.30.2024

WRISTS BATHED IN RED

SESSION THIRTEEN: LIFE IS LIKE ALBUM TRACK EIGHT

PART TWO ON THE RUN CADENCE

PART TWO ON THE RUN

I'VE ALWAYS BEEN LONELY

SADLY IT'S THE ONLY SITUATION I'VE EVER KNOWN

PARENTS DIVORCED AND I WAS SEVEN

BOOM THE ILLUSION WAS BLOWN

MY MOTHER'S MOTHER IN THE SAME YEAR ENTERED HEAVEN

THE NEXT YEAR MY FATHER'S MOTHER WENT TO THE SAME PLACE

I'LL CHERISH THE MEMORIES EQUALLY AND I'LL MAKE THE SAME FACE

MY FATHER AND I USED TO WATCH MOVIES

FIVE YEARS AFTER HE LEFT I PICKED UP A CAMERA TO SOOTH ME

I WROTE MY FIRST POEM AT SEVEN

THE SAME YEAR I FIRST GRACED THE STAGE

I REALIZED THE TALENT WAS A GOD GIVEN BLESSING

I VOWED WE WOULD HAVE THE SAME AGE

IF I AM THIRTY FOUR NOW THEN MY PASSIONS ARE TWENTY SEVEN AND TWENTY TWO

I CAN GUARANTEE THE FUTURE WILL MENTION ME BUT I CAN'T GUARANTEE THEY WILL MENTION YOU

SEE I HAVE SEEN PLENTY BLUE

IF EMOTIONS HAD A COLOR

I'VE SEEN SO MANY COLORS OF THE EMOTIONAL SPECTRUM

MY MAIN AIM IS JUST TO HELP ANOTHER

HELP ANOTHER PERSON GET THRU

HELP ANOTHER PAY THEIR DUES

I STARTED WRITING BLUES

REGARDLESS OF THE SUBJECT THEME OR GENRE I START IT WRITING TRUE

I'LL KEEP IT REAL UNTIL I REACH THE MIDDLE

THEN I'LL END IT WITH AUTHENTICITY

I WRITE WHEN I'M CRYING UNTIL I GIGGLE

I FOCUS MORE ON EMOTIONAL DEPTH MORE SO THAN VIVID IMAGERY

I PAINT THE PICTURE OF WHAT CAN'T BE SEEN

SMELLED FELT TOUCHED TASTED OR HEARD WITH YOUR EARS

I TOUCH ON THE BASES OF MY FEARS

AS I STRETCH THE MIND TO KEEP THE BASIS CLEAR

I TRY TO KEEP THE ACTIONS OBJECTIVE

ONLY DOING WHAT THE MISSION DEMANDS

THE GOAL BEING KEEP THE THOUGHTS SELECTIVE

EVEN THOUGH THEY OFTEN RUN AWAY

THEY RETURN WITH A TON OF PAIN AS IT WEIGHS

ENOUGH TO WATCH GRAVITY PLUMMET THE HAND

AND AS THE HANDS HIT THE GROUND

THE KNEES THEN FOLLOW SUIT

SO I CLOSE MY EYES AND HANDS TOGETHER

WHILE PRAYING "GOD I JUST WANT TO FOLLOW YOU" 

GOD PUT MANY DREAMS ON MY HEART

AND THE TOOLS AT MY DISPOSAL TO SEE THEM BORN

MY DREAMS LEADS ME TO THE SUMMIT OF THE PLANS

ON MY DEATH BED I WOULD RATHER SEE HELL FIRE CONSUMING ME THAN MY UNCONSUMED DREAMS SCORN

WE CAME TO YOU TO BRING US TO LIFE

AND NOW WE ALL HAVE TO LEAVE TOGETHER

MY WORST NIGHTMARE AND SO I AIM TO LEAVE A CLEVER

LEGACY ON HOW TO BE FOREVER

I HAVE TO DIE SOMEDAY 

BUT MY DREAMS CAN LIVE ON EARTH FOR ETERNITY

I'M SO SELF CONSCIOUS OF MY HOURGLASS ON THE TREADMILL OF LIFE

WHAT'S AN EQUAL PAIN COMPARED TO HOW A WASTED DAY IS HURTING ME

I GAVE UP EVERYTHING I COULD HAVE EVER HAD FOR THE DREAMS ON MY HEART

INCLUDING CHILDREN AND A WIFE

I MAY NEVER SEE THOSE BUT I CAN SEE MY DREAMS ENTER THIS DIMENSION

I CAN'T GUARANTEE SOMEONE ELSE WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME

YET I CAN ALWAYS LOVE MYSELF

I CAN'T PROMISE MY CHILD THEIR PARENTS WILL ALWAYS WANT TO BE TOGETHER

HOWEVER I CONTROL IF THIS MANUSCRIPT GETS FINISHED

I CAN GUARANTEE THIS ALBUM IS COMPLETED

UNTIL MY DAILY CANDLE IS DEPLETED

I CAN PROMISE TO KEEP CLIMBING THE CHARTS

UNTIL MY ACCUMULATION DISTRIBUTION IS DELETED

INDEED IT'S NOT A DEFEATIST

MINDSET I WEILD 

IT'S MORE LIKE I NEVER YIELD

DESPITE THE EMOTION I FEEL

NO MATTER HOW I FEEL I WILL CONTINUE

CONTINUE STRIVING TOWARDS MY GOAL

IT IS EXHAUSTING I ADMIT IT

BUT MY EMOTIONS AND THOUGHTS ARE THE ONLY THING ON EARTH ACTUALLY UNDER MY CONTROL

ONLY WHILE EMBRACING THE EMOTIONS I HOLD

CAN I GUARANTEE IF I'LL A STAND B ASK HIT ME OR C FOLD

I JUST REPLACED COMMAS WITH LETTERS

MAYBE NEXT TIME I'LL USE NUMBERS INSTEAD

KEEP GOING STRONG YEA YOU BETTER

I CALCULATE NUMBERS OF PROFITS FROM INVESTING MY BREAD ALL DAY IN THE HEAD

I'LL USE A CALCULATOR AFTERWARDS FOR LORD KNOWS EVERYTIME I FAILED MATH

I STILL HAD THE HIGHEST GRADES IN ECONOMICS

ONE THING TO ALWAYS MAKE ME LAUGH

I ALWAYS TRY TO FIND THE FUNNY

IN A SITUATION OF DESTITUTION LIKE WHERE'S THE MONEY?

IF I CAN FIND SOMETHING FUNNY 

ABOUT SOMETHING I DON'T EVEN WANT TO LAUGH ABOUT

THEN WHAT ABOUT IT WAS WORTH REMAINING SAD?

INITIALLY

THEN NEXT THING YOU KNOW I'M SHOUTING AS I LAUGH

OFFICIALLY

INSTEAD OF POUTING AS I GRAPH

GRAPH OUT A NEGATIVE VIBRATION

MANIFESTING MY FUTURE PRESENT MOMENTS BASED ON IMAGES FROM THE PAST

NEGATIVE EMOTION STUCK IN THE MIND IS A VIRUS

MAYBE ONE DAY I'LL DISCOVER CURES

IF NOT THEN AT LEAST IN AN IMPERFECT WORLD

I'LL FIND A WAY TO REMAIN SURE

IN MY ABILITY TO SMILE THRU THE PAIN

AFTER EMBRACING THE PAIN OF COURSE

EMBRACING THE PAIN UNTIL IT NO LONGER YEARNS TO STAY

IT'LL ALWAYS RETURN FOR MORE

OF THIS LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP IT SEEMS SO MUCH TO ENJOY

AS IT ONLY AIMS TO RUN ITS COURSE

EMOTION ISN'T BAD EITHER WAY

EVERYONE WAS CREATED FOR A REASON

CREATED TO HAVE ITS SEASON

TO RESIST ANYONE IS ALWAYS TREASON

MAYBE THEIR PURPOSE IS TO TEACH US TO REMAIN EVEN

TO REMAIN EVEN KEELED

THRU OUT THE BAD ONE UNTIL THE GOOD ONES COME BACK UNTIL THEY ARE ALL EVEN STILL

IF I PRAY TO BE HAPPY WHEN I'M SAD

THEN SADNESS ALLOWS ME TO APPRECIATE WHAT HAPPINESS CAN BRING

WHAT IF SADNESS WERE THE REASON I WOULD EVEN SING

BUT IF I'M REALLY HAPPY THEN I END UP DOING THE SAME THING

SO IF I SING REGARDLESS?

REGARDLESS OF HOW I FEEL EITHER WAY

THEN WHAT REALLY WILL DESTROY MY BLING BLING?

THE JEWELS I CHERISH ARE IMMATERIAL

NOT TO BE SEEN BY THE NAKED EYE

THE CROWN I WEAR IS ETHEREAL

BORN FROM A SOUL FAMILY ROYAL ENOUGH TO KNOW

I CAN NEVER MAKE IT UNTIL I TRY

I WAS SAD WHEN I WAS LOSING

YET IT NEVER STOPPED ME FROM TAKING ANOTHER SHOT

I'LL BE EVEN SADDER WHEN I MAKE IT AND I'M WINNING

CAUSE I WOULDN'T FEEL TOO GOOD KNOWING MY DESTINY BOILED THE HOTTEST IN THE POT

I'LL GIVE MY DESTINY EVERYTHING I HAVE UNTIL IT IN RETURN GIVES ME BACK EVERYTHING IT HAS FOR ME

I CAN'T WIN THE GAME OF LIFE FOR YOU I CAN ONLY WIN MINE BUT I WILL I PROMISE FOR THIS IS HOW IT HAS TO BE

I HAVE TO BE

THE ONLY ONE WHO MAKES IT THRU

IF NO ONE ELSE IS PAR FOR THE COURSE

BUT I CAN LEAVE THE BREADCRUMBS BEHIND ON THE TRAIL

FOR THE FUTURE GENERATIONS OF EMOTIONAL SOLDIERS WHO THEN ARE AT THEIR WORST

THEIR WORST FEELING CHALLENGES

I CAN LEAVE THE INSTRUCTIONS ON BUILDING THE TOOLS USED TO CHALLENGE THIS

WHETHER YOU USE THEM TO SALVAGE FOR FISH

OR TO CABBAGE A DISH 

NO MATTER WHAT YOUR CALLING MAY BE 

I CAN HELP YOU ANSWER THE CALL AND HEAR IT BABY