WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION CYNICAL ANALYSIS MICROWAVED HEARTS SESSION

 12:21PM EST - 12:50PM EST

SATURDAY FEBRUARY 24TH, 2024

2.24.2024

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QQ HARRIS (NEPHEW)

WRISTS BATHED IN RED:

 SESSION 

CYNICAL ANALYSIS

 MICROWAVED HEARTS 

SESSION 

  I WENT TO BED EMO. I WOKE BACK UP. I WOKE BACK UP A LITTLE LESS EMO. WHEN I'M SLEEP DEPRIVED AFTER 16 HOURS THE EMO WILL ATTACK ME. IF I DON'T GET A NAP IN BEFORE 16 HOURS OF STRAIGHT WAKING LIFE I'LL MOST LIKELY GO EMO OUT OF NOWHERE. I'LL GET CRANKY. 

  I HAVEN'T BEEN DRINKING COFFEE ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT RECENTLY SO THAT PROBABLY HELPED ME NOT GET EMO. THIS BOOK IS ABOUT DEALING WITH YOUR INNER EMO MOOD AND OR EMO MODE. SO IT'S ONLY RIGHT I WRITE INSIDE IF THOSE MOODS AS WELL. LIFE ISN'T ALL SUNSHINE AND STRAWBERRY CUPCAKES. NEITHER CAN MY WRITINGS BE. 

  SOME EMOTIONS ARE GOING TO FEEL JUST GREAT. SOME EMOTIONS ARE GOING TO FEEL JUST TERRIBLE. I HAVE TO REMAIN WITH A NEUTRAL PERSPECTIVE THRU OUT ALL OF THEM. WHY SHOULD I SHUN THE PROCESS OF DEALING WITH UNDESIRED EMOTIONS? DO I SHUN THE PROCESS OF DEALING WITH DESIRED EMOTIONS? 

  I HAVE TO EMBRACE THE UNDESIRED EMOTIONS AS MUCH AS I WOULD EMBRACE THE DESIRED EMOTIONS. EMOTIONS ARE IMPARTIAL. EMOTIONS ARE JUST DOING THEIR JOBS. EVERY EMOTION HAS IT'S PURPOSE. EVERY EMOTION IS JUST A TEACHER IN IT'S OWN CLASS RUNNING THRU IT'S OWN COURSE OF LESSONS. 

  I CAN'T BE MEAN TO THE UNDESIRED EMOTIONS. I'M NOT MEAN TO THE DESIRED EMOTIONS. I LOVE FEELING GOOD. I HATE FEELING BAD. I AIM TO LOVE THE PROCESS OF EXPLORING EACH EMOTION. EACH EMOTION WILL HAVE IT'S TIME WITH ME AND I SHOULD JUST ENJOY THE LESSON EACH ONE BRINGS. 

  I'M NOT ALWAYS GOING TO FEEL SPLENDID INSIDE. I'M NOT ALWAYS GOING TO FEEL TERRIBLE INSIDE EITHER. I AM GOING TO FEEL BOTH THRU OUT THE WEEK. MY EMOTIONAL WEEKLY CANDLE WILL FLUCTUATE. MY MONTHLY EMOTIONAL CANDLE WILL FLUCTUATE. MY DAILY EMOTIONAL CANDLE WILL FLUCTUATE. MY FOUR HOUR EMOTIONAL CANDLE WILL FLUCTUATE. MY HOURLY EMO BARS WILL FOLLOW THE DIRECTION OF THE FOUR HOUR EMO CANDLE.

  MY FOUR HOUR EMO CANDLES WILL FOLLOW THE TREND DIRECTION OF MY DAILY EMO CANDLE. MY DAILY EMO CANDLE WILL FLOW ALONG IN THE DIRECTION OF THE WEEKLY EMO CANDLE. MY WEEKLY EMO CANDLE WILL GRAVITATE TOWARDS THE DIRECTION OF THE MONTHLY EMOTIONAL CANDLE. 

  MY EMOTIONAL CHART IS VOLATILE. MY EMOTIONAL CHART IS UNPREDICTABLE. YOU WOULD LOSE ALL OF YOUR INVESTMENT CAPITAL BETTING IN ADVANCE ON MY EMOTIONAL DIRECTION. DON'T BET ON MY MOOD. YOU'LL CRASH OUT EVERYTIME. 

  IF I COULD GET PAID IN A GAME OF SOMEONE BETTING ON MY EMO CANDLES THRU OUT THE DAY THAT WOULD BE SO FUN. I WOULD LOSE MONEY SOMETIMES IF THEY GUESSED RIGHT IN ADVANCE AND I BET WRONG. I WOULD EARN CASH IF WE BET DIFFERENT IN ADVANCE AND I WAS RIGHT. 

  WOULD I FEEL GOOD IN AN HOUR? I WOULDN'T PLACE THE BET. BUT WHAT IF I DID? WHAT IF I BET MYSELF 100 PUSHUPS I WOULD FEEL BETTER IN AN HOUR? I WOULD DO EVERYTHING I COULD TO INDUCE PEACE WITHIN MY SOUL IN AN HOUR'S TIME TO NOT LOSE THE BET. 

  THE CHIPS MUST BE PLACED ON THE TABLE BEFOREHAND THOUGH RIGHT? IF I LOST THE BET I OWE MYSELF 100 PUSHUPS. DO I DO 100 PUSHUPS JUST TO PLACE THE CHIPS ON THE TABLE? DO I PUT UP 100 TABLES ON THE TABLE AND THEN OFFER UP ANOTHER 100 PUSHUPS IF I LOSE? 

  DO I SPEND THE ENTIRE HOUR DOING 100 PUSHUPS WHILE WATCHING VIDEOS INTENDED TO UPLIFT MY OWN MOOD? WILL THE PUSHUPS THEMSELVES HELP ME FEEL BETTER THEMSELVES? I'M GOING TO HAVE TO START WORKING OUT MY BODY IN ORDER FOR MY MIND TO RELEASE THE DESIRED CHEMICAL BOOST THE DRUGS USED TO GIVE ME. 

  SOUNDS LIKE SUCH A MORE LOGICAL METHOD OF INDUCING DOPAMINE RELEASE WITHIN THE BRAIN RIGHT? I'LL JUST HAVE TO SHOWER IMMEDIATELY FOLLOWING THE WORK OUT. I ENJOY BENCH PRESSING. THERE ARE JUST NO BENCHES TO PRESS OR PRESS WITH OR ON. 

  I'LL PROBABLY HAVE TO USE THE EMO MOOD YO WORK OUT WITH. MAYBE MY UNDESIRED EMOTIONS JUST WANT SOME DOPAMINE. I DONT HAVE THE DRUGS IN MY LIFE ANYMORE TO CREATE THE DOPAMINE. DOPAMINE BY ANY HEALTHY AND LOGICAL MEANS NECESSARY. 

  WHEN I GET EMO THEN HOW MANY REPS OF DIFFERENT WORKOUTS WILL IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF THE TOOTSIE POP? I HAVE TO EMBRACE MY EMO CANDLES AND JUST CREATE SOME EMO ART. THIS BOOK IS ALL ABOUT DEALING WITH EVERY SINGLE PRESENTED EMOTIONS. EVERY PAGE WON'T MAKE YOU SMILE. EVERY PAGE WON'T MAKE YOU CRY. IN LIFE EVERYDAY WON'T MAKE YOU SMILE. EVERYDAY WON'T MAKE YOU SMILE. THIS BOOK IS DESIGNED TO SHOW HOW I LEARNED TO CHOOSE TO MAKE MYSELF SMILE IN BOTH SCENARIOS. 

  I WON'T ALWAYS FEEL LIKE SMILING. I WILL HOWEVER EVENTUALLY CHOOSE TO SMILE AFTER GOING THRU THE EMOTIONAL EMBRACEMENT PROCESS. HOW WILL YOU MAKE YOURSELF FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU DON'T? IT'S AN INTERNAL PROCESS. NO MATERIALS AND NO DRUGS WILL DO THE JOB PERMANENTLY. YOU'LL HAVE TO BE PERMANENTLY DEDICATED TO THE PROCESS. THE EMOTIONAL EMBRACEMENT PROCESS.