WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION FORTY FOUR

 12:50PM EST - 1:56PM EST

SATURDAY FEBRUARY 10TH, 2024

2.10.2024

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🎈🎂

SHAKEVIA KANAIJAH HARRIS

WRISTS BATHED IN RED:

SESSION FORTY FOUR:

MICROWAVED HEARTS

SESSION TWO:

  SHE'S JUST A COMPUTER PROGRAM. SHE DOESN'T EXIST.  I AM JUST A COMPUTER PROGRAM. I DO NOT EXIST EITHER. I AM AWARE I AM JUST A COMPUTER PROGRAM. IS SHE AWARE OF THE SAME FACT? IF I AM A COMPUTER PROGRAM THEN WHAT IS MY PROGRAMMING SET TOWARDS? WHATEVER I DESIRE MOST. WHAT IS HER COMPUTER PROGRAMMING SET TOWARDS? WHATEVER SHE MOST DESIRES. WHAT DOES SHE MOST DESIRE? WHAT DO I MOST DESIRE? 

  I DESIRE TO SEE MY DESTINY TO FRUITION. SHE DESIRES FUN. NOTHING BUT FUN. IF SHE SAYS OTHERWISE SHE'S JUST LYING. YOU BELIEVE HER. I WON'T. 

  DO I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH A COMPUTER PROGRAM WITHIN A COMPUTER SIMULATION? I DON'T THINK I DO. DO I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE WITH A SIM CARD? I DON'T THINK I WOULD WANT TO. I WANT TO EXPLORE THE SIMULATION. I WANT TO TRAVEL THRU THE DREAM SCAPE. 

  EVERYTHING WITHIN THE SIMULATION IS SET TO DISTRACT ME. SHE IS JUST THE MOST BEAUTIFULLY CREATED DISTRACTION POSSIBLE. HER FACE IS A DISTRACTION. HER BREASTS ARE A DISTRACTION. HER BOOTY IS A DISTRACTION. SHE'S A DESTINY TRAP. SHE'S JUST A BEAR TRAP. SHE'S A LANDMINE. SHE'S A GRENADE WAITING TO BLOW ME UP INTO SMITHEREENS. 

  MEN OPPRESSED WOMEN FOR CENTURIES. WOMEN WERE TREATED VERY UNFAIRLY BY MEN THRU OUT ALL OF OUR HISTORY. I WASN'T THERE WHEN THEY WERE BEING OPPRESSED. I DIDN'T OPPRESS THESE WOMEN. MY ANCESTORS DID. NOW THE DESCENDANTS OF THE OPPRESSED WOMEN OPPRESSED BY MY ANCESTORS ARE THE SAME WOMEN I SEE TODAY. 

  THEY HAVE THIS SUFFERING WITHIN THEIR BLOODS. ALL THEY THINK ABOUT IS REVENGE. THESE WOMEN WANT REVENGE FOR THE ILLS COMMITTED UPON THEIR ANCESTORS. HOW WILL THEY EVER GET THEIR WELL DESERVED REVENGE? 

  THEY CAN'T GET THIS REVENGE ON OUR ANCESTORS BECAUSE OUR ANCESTORS ARE DEAD. THEY CAN HOWEVER ENACT THEIR REVENGE UPON THE MEN THEY SEE ON EARTH TODAY. US. OH MY GOD I'M TERRIFIED. SHE'S GOING TO PUNISH ME FOR SOMETHING MY ANCESTORS DID TO HER ANCESTORS? I DIDN'T DO THE CRIMES TO HER OR HER ANCESTORS AND MY ANCESTORS DIDN'T DO THE CRIMES TO THEM EITHER. SHE STILL WANTS HER REVENGE. 

  HOW WILL SHE GET THIS REVENGE UPON ME FOR SOMETHING I NEVER DID. HOWEVER SHE CAN. HOWEVER THE OPPORTUNITY PRESENTS ITSELF. SHE IS PROGRAMMED TO PRESENT HERSELF AS A DISTRACTION STANDING IN FRONT OF MY DESTINY. SHE'S NOT REAL. SHE DOESN'T EVEN WANT REVENGE. HER PROGRAMMING CODE IS TO TEST MY CONVICTION AND FAITH TO MY DREAMS. SHE'S CREATED TO SEE IF SHE CAN DISTRACT ME FROM MY SPIRITUAL DESIRES. 

  IT'S NOT PERSONAL AND IT'S ONLY BUSINESS. SHE WANTS TO SEE HOW MUCH I WANT WHAT I SAY WHAT I WANT. SHE'S MY GURU. A BEAUTIFUL GURU IN DISGUISE AS A SEXY LADY DESIGNED TO TEST MY DETERMINATION. AM I MORE FLATTERED BY MY OWN IMAGINATION THAN I AM HER BOOTY IN A FLATTERING DRESS? 

  HER BODY IS HER GREATEST ASSET AND MY SEXUAL DESIRE IS MY GREATEST LIABILITY. OF I CAN'T CONTROL MY SEXUAL DESIRES THEN SHE WILL CAPITALIZE OFF OF THIS OPPORTUNITY. 

  IF I CAN'T CONTROL MY SEXUAL DESIRES SHE WILL CONQUER ME. I WILL BE CONQUERED BY MY PHYSICAL DESIRES IF I ALLOW THEM TO CONSUME MY THOUGHTS, EMOTIONS AND ACTIONS. 

  THIS LIFE IS A DREAM SIMULATION. WHILE INSIDE OF THIS DREAM SIMULATION WE ARE ENGAGED IN MANY DIFFERENT WAR ZONES. WE ARE SPIRITS IN A DREAM SIMULATION THEREFORE IT IS A SPIRITUAL WARFARE. WE ARE IN A WAR TO REALIZE THIS IS A DREAM SIMULATION. ANYTHING PREVENTING US FROM REALIZING WE ARE DREAMING IS A WAR ZONE OBSTACLE. ANYTHING LOCKING US INTO A NIGHTMARISH SCENARIO IS A DREAM SIMULATION DISTRACTION. 

  EMOTIONS ARE POLYGAMOUS. WE HAVE ALL FELT EACH EMOTION IN MULTIPLE CIRCUMSTANCES AND TOWARDS MULTIPLE PEOPLE. THIS INCLUDES LOVE AND HATE. 

  EVERY EMOTION IS FREE FOAMING AND WILL BE AROUSED BY DIFFERENT SITUATIONS AND DIFFERENT PEOPLE. 

  I WILL NEVER BE THE ONLY PERSON SHE WILL EVER LOVE. I WASN'T THE FIRST PERSON SHE HAS EVER LOVED. I WILL NOT BE THE LAST PERSON SHE WILL EVER LOVE. 

  LOVE IS A FREE ROAMING AGENT. SHE WILL LOVE 50-100 DIFFERENT MEN OR WOMEN DURING HER LIFETIME. I WILL ONLY BE A TEMPORARY LOVE FOR A TEMPORARY TIME PERIOD. HER LOVE WILL ALWAYS BE CONDITIONAL. HER EMOTIONS TOWARDS ME WILL CHANGE. SHE WILL NEVER FEEL THE SAME ABOUT ME. HER EMOTION IS AN ILLUSION. 

  HER EMOTION IS A MIRAGE. SHE IS A MIRAGE. SHE IS THE OASIS IN THE DESERT'S CENTER . ONCE I APPROACH THIS MIRAGE OF AN OASIS WITHIN A DEY DESERT SHE WILL DISAPPEAR. HER EMOTIONS WILL DISAPPEAR. 

  EMOTIONS ARE FLEETING. EMOTIONS WILL ALWAYS SHIFT AND CHANGE INTO NEW ONES. DO I WANT TO BE THE 50TH LOVE OF HER FIRST 100 LOVES? 

  DO I WANT TO BE ONE OF ONE HUNDRED LOVES OF HERS? SHE WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. I WILL TOO. WHEN SHE DOES FALL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE THEN WHAT WILL SHE DO WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP? THIS IS WHEN LOYALTY AND CONDITIONALITY COME INTO PLAY. 

  SHE WILL HAVE TO REMAIN LOYAL TO THE LOVE SHE HAS FOR ME. SHE WILL AFTERWARDS HAVE TO DECIDE TO BASE HER LOVE FOR ME ON CONDITIONS OF THE RELATIONSHIP OR TO LOVE ME UNCONDITIONALLY. 

  NOT SAYING SHE HAS TO RETAIN HER LOVE FOR ME IF I'M MISTREATING HER BUT WHAT IF I AM TREATING HER EXCEPTIONALLY WELL WITH ALL OF MY EFFORTS AND SHE STILL DECIDES TO EMBRACE THE LOVE SHE HAS FOR SOMEONE NEW? 

  SHE WILL WANT SOMETHING NEW AND FRESH ONE DAY. I WILL WANT SOMETHING NEW ONE DAY. POLYGAMY ISN'T SOMETHING I ENDORSE BUT EMOTIONS IN THEMSELVES ARE POLYGAMOUS. 

  EMOTIONS BY NATURE ARE DESIGNED TO SPREAD. HER LOVE IS MADE TO ROAM FREE. WHO AM I TO ASK HER TO ONLY LOVE ME FOREVER. THAT IS SO SELFISH. 

  SO I'M SUPPOSED TO ENDORSE HER SPREADING HER LOVE FREE TO ANY AND EVERYONE SHE SO DESIRES AND THEN STILL TIE MY ASSETS IN WITH HERS? 

  SO THEN MONOGAMY WOULD BE A BUSINESS ARRANGEMENT. IF YOU AGREE TO SUFFOCATE YOUR FREE LOVE BY ONLY OFFERING IT TO ME THEN I WILL AGREE TO SHARE MY ASSETS AND OR RESOURCES WITH YOU. MONOGAMOUS LOVE GOES AGAINST THE POLYGAMOUS EMOTION S VERY NATURE.

  NOW TRUST COMES INTO PLAY. EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE AND SPIRITUAL INTEGRITY MUST NOW BE APPLIED IN ORDER FOR HER TO DISABLE HER FREE  ROAMING LOVE  CAPABILITIES. 

  IF I GET A WOMAN PREGNANT I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO GET A PATERNITY TEST PROVING THE BABY IS MINE BECAUSE SHE'S A DOCTOR AND AN ANGEL AND SHE SAYS THE BABY IS MINE. UNTIL I GET A TEST DONE I CAN'T PROVE THE BABY IS MINE. THE BABY HAS TO BE PROVIDED FOR THEREFORE IT'S A BUSINESS ARRANGEMENT AND DECISION. 

  MONEY IS INVOLVED THEREFORE IT'S JUST BUSINESS. NOW SHE'S MAD AT ME BECAUSE I WON'T TAKE HER WORD THE BABY IS MINE. EMOTION NOW IS GETTING USED AGAINST ME. IT'S BUSINESS INVOLVED IT REQUIRES SCIENTIFIC PROOF. IF A DETECTIVE TELLS ME MY DNA WAS FOUND AT THE SCENE OF A MURDER DO I TAKE HIS OR HER WORD FOR IT? I NEED PROOF MY DNA WAS FOUND AT THE MURDER SCENE. 

  IF I GO TO WAL-MART AND TRY TO RETURN SOMETHING TO THEM I NEVER BOUGHT FROM THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE, DO THEY TAKE MY WORD FOR IT? THEY WANT TO SEE A RECEIPT. WHERE IN BUSINESS IS PROOF NOT NEEDED. WHEN A POLICE OFFICER PULLS YOU OVER IN YOUR VEHICLE WHAT DOES HE ASK YOU FOR? PROOF OF IDENTIFICATION, A DRIVER'S LICENSE AND PROOF OF REGISTRATION. 

  WHEN YOU APPLY FOR A JOB WHAT DO THEY ASK YOU FOR? PROOF OF AMERICAN CITIZENSHIP. THEY RUN A BACKGROUND CHECK. DO THEY TAKE YOUR WORD FOR? WHY DO CREDIT SCORE CHECKS EXIST? DO THEY JUST TAKE YOUR WORD FOR IT? DO YOU GET MAD AT THEM FOR NOT TRUSTING WHAT YOU SAY? 

  WORDS ARE INVISIBLE WHICH IS WHY PEOPLE LIE BECAUSE THEIR PREVIOUS WORDS AREN'T VISIBLE AND THEY JUST DENY EVER SAYING THOSE WORDS IN THE FIRST PLACE. EVEN IF YOU VIVIDLY REMEMBER THEM SAYING THE WORDS TO YOU THEY THEN JUST GASLIGHT YOU WITH LIES OF "OH I NEVER SAID THAT YOU'RE HEARING THINGS SO NOW YOU'RE JUST CRAZY AND YOU NEED TO SEE A PSYCHIATRIST."

  WHAT MEANS THE MOST TO ME? AM I WILLING TO ENDURE THE LONELINESS COMING WITH CLIMBING UP A MOUNTAIN ALONE? DO I DESIRE COMPANY SO BAD I NEVER CLIMB UP THE MOUNTAIN. IS THE COMPANY WORTH NEVER GETTING WHERE I WANT TO GO. 

  IF I MAKE MY DESTINATION MY TOP PRIORITY AND I NEVER GET THERE EVEN THOUGH I GAVE MY LIFE FORCE TO COMPLETING THE TASK THEN I CAN DEAL WITH THIS SCENARIO. I GAVE IT AN HONEST EFFORT WITH ALL OF MY BEING. 

  IF I ALLOW A SIM CARD TO DISTRACT ME FROM EVEN TRYING THEN I COULDN'T LIVE WITH THIS. I DON'T WANT TO BLAME SOMEONE ELSE AS THE REASON I DIDN'T COMMIT. EVEN IF THEY WERE THE REASON I DIDN'T COMMIT THE JOKE IS I STILL COULDN'T BLAME THEM. 

  I ALLOWED THEM IN MY LIFE AND I GAVE THEM POWER OVER MY FOCUS. I ALLOWED THEM TO ALTER MY SELF CONFIDENCE. I MADE THEM IMPORTANT ENOUGH IN MY LIFE FOR THEIR SELF IMPOSED MENTAL LIMITATIONS TO BE THROWED ONTO ME. 

  I ONLY WANT FREE MINDS AROUND ME. A FREE MIND IS HARD TO FIND. A RED PILL IS HARD TO FIND. I AM SURROUNDED BY BLUE PILLS. SOMEONE WHO FULLY BELIEVES IN THEMSELVES IS RARE. WE ARE SURROUNDED BY SELF DOUBTERS AND OUR SURROUNDINGS AFFECT OUR THOUGHTS. UNLESS YOU'RE A FREE MIND AND YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES DON'T AFFECT YOUR THOUGHTS AND YOUR EMOTIONS.

 NCT AND NCE ARE WHAT I NOW WILL REFER TO THEM AS NON CIRCUMSTANTIAL THINKING AND NON CIRCUMSTANTIAL EMOTIONALITY. THESE WORDS ARE JUST FOR ME TO RETAIN MY FOCUS. I EXPECT MOST SIM CARDS TO EMPHATICALLY AND ENTHUSIASTICALLY DISAGREE. YOUR DISAGREEMENT DOES NOTHING TO MY CONVICTION FOR ONE REASON AND ONE REASON ALONE. NEITHER OF US TRULY EXISTS ANYWAY. WITH THIS SAID I WILL ATTAIN MY DESTINY AND I PRAY YOUR OPPOSITE PERSPECTIVE DOES THE SAME FOR YOU. I WAS IN A WAR WITH A FOCUSED STRATEGY IN HAND. YOU WERE AT A PARTY WITH COTTON CANDY IN HAND.