WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION CYNICAL ANALYSIS MICROWAVED HEARTS SESSION

 10:05PM EST - 10:26PM EST 

WEDNESDAY FEBRUARY 28TH, 2024

2.28.2024

WRISTS BATHED IN RED:

 SESSION 

CYNICAL ANALYSIS

 MICROWAVED HEARTS 

SESSION 

  I'VE BEEN SOBER FROM MARIJUANA FOR TWO MONTHS FOR THE SECOND CONSECUTIVE TIME. I HAVE BEEN GOING THRU A PSYCHIC CHANGE MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY, AND SPIRITUALLY. HERE'S HOW I THINK AND FEEL NOW. 

  I AM NOT MY MIND. I AM NOT MY THOUGHTS. I AM NOT MY EMOTIONS. I DON'T IDENTIFY WITH EVERY EMOTION I FEEL. I OBSERVE EVERY EMOTION I FEEL. I ENJOY THE OBSERVATION PROCESS OF EVERY FELT EMOTION. I WATCH MY EMOTION. I EMBRACE MY EMOTION. THEN AFTER THESE STEPS I TAKE CONTROL OF MY EMOTIONS. 

  AFTER TAKING CONTROL OF MY EMOTIONS I CHOOSE WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH THE EMOTION. I WILL EITHER RETAIN THE EMOTION IN IT'S CURRENT STATE OR I WILL REPLACE THE EMOTION WITH A DIFFERENT EMOTION OF MY CHOOSING. 

  I CHOOSE WHAT EMOTION I WANT TO FEEL. I MAY NOT DECIDE THE INITIAL EMOTIONAL ERUPTION YET I DO CONTROL HOW I RELATE TO THE EMOTION. I AM NOT MY EMOTION. MY EMOTION TO ME NOW IS NOTHING MORE THAN A PAGE IN A BOOK I AM READING OR A SCENE IN A FILM I AM WATCHING. 

  THE EMOTION DOES NOT CONTROL ME. I CONTROL MY EMOTION. THE EMOTION HAS IT'S PURPOSE. MY PURPOSE EMOTIONALLY IS TO SUBDUE THE EMOTION. THE EMOTION IS NOT REAL. THE EMOTION IS A MERE ILLUSION. EMOTION TO ME NOW IS JUST A MIRAGE IN THE DESERT SIMULATION FALSELY APPEARING AS AN OASIS OR A DUNGEON. 

  I MUST EMBRACE EVERY EMOTION AND SHOW IT IT'S DESIRED RESPECT. EVERY EMOTION HAS ITS ROLE IT PLAYS IN LIFE IN GENERAL AND IN MY LIFE SPECIFICALLY. I MUST NOT RESIST THE EMOTION ONLY FOR WHAT YOU RESIST PERSISTS. I MUST FACE THE EMOTION AND EMBRACE THE EMOTION IN ORDER TO REPLACE THE EMOTION. 

  EMOTION IS IMAGINARY. EMOTION IS A FICTIONAL CHARACTER IN MY LIFE. I WILL NOT RUN FROM MY EMOTIONS. I WILL NOT RUN FROM AN ATTACKING DOG. I WILL FACE THE DOG. I WILL STAND MY GROUND IN FRONT OF THE ATTACKING DOG. I WILL SILENTLY STARE AT THE DOG BARKING AT ME WHILE I AM REMAINING STILL AND CALM. 

  IF I WOULD NOT RUN FROM THE DOG THEN I WOULD NOT RUN FROM THE EMOTION I FEEL. I AM STRONGER THAN THE EMOTION. I AM NOT WEAKER THAN MY OWN EMOTION. KY EMOTION IS NOT STRONGER THAN I AM. I AM THE MASTER OF MY EMOTION. THIS PROCESS IS BRINGING ABOUT A PSYCHIC CHANGE WITHIN MY MIND AND MENTALITY. 

  I WILL FEEL AT PEACE NO MATTER WHAT EMOTIONAL STATE I FIND MYSELF IN MENTALLY AT THE MOMENT. I WILL PEACEFULLY DEAL WITH AND TRANSMUTE ANY EMOTION BROUGHT BEFORE ME. MY PRESENT LIFE CIRCUMSTANCES WILL NOT DETERMINE MY EMOTIONAL STATE. I AM BLESSED TO HAVE UNDERGONE THIS PSYCHIC CHANGE AND I AM SPREADING IT IN MY ART. 

  MY PREVIOUS ARTWORK AND WRITING WAS CREATED BY A PERSON WHO WAS EMOTIONALLY DISTRAUGHT AND EMOTIONALLY DISHEVELED. I AM NO LONGER EMOTIONALLY DISTRAUGHT AND EMOTIONALLY DISHEVELED. THE PERSON CREATING THIS NEW ARTWORK AND WRITING IS IN CONTROL OF THE EMOTIONAL OBSERVATION PROCESS. 

  I WANT YOU TO FEEL THIS SAME WAY. YOU WANT TO FEEL THIS SAME WAY AS WELL I WOULD THINK. DO YOU FEEL AS IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO FEEL THIS SAME WAY? I HOPE YOU DO. IF YOU DO THEN HOPEFULLY I EXPRESS THE SENTIMENT AND PROCESS PROPERLY AND EFFICIENTLY. I WANT TO SPREAD THIS MESSAGE. THIS IS THE MESSAGE I WANT TO SPREAD TO THE WORLD THRU MY WORDS. 

  DO NOT RUN FROM YOUR EMOTIONS. TWO NIGHTS AGO I FOUND MYSELF FACING MY WORST EMOTIONS. MY WORST MEMORIES AND MOST HORRIBLE DEEDS WERE BEING CONFRONTED MENTALLY BY ME. THEY CONFRONTED ME AND THEN I HAD TO CONFRONT THEM BACK. I DID NOT BACK DOWN FROM THE HEAVIEST FELT EMOTIONS. 

  I EMBRACED THE EMOTIONS. I FELT THE PAIN. I DID NOT GET HIGH TO COVER THEM UP. I AM IK A DRUG ADDICTION RECOVERY PROGRAM. HAD I CHOSE TO GET HIGH THEN I WOULD HAVE FAILED THE NEXT DRUG TEST. HAD I FAILED THE NEXT DRUG TEST I WOULD BE KICKED OUT OF THE RECOVERY PROGRAM. HAD I GOTTEN KICKED OUT OF THE RECOVERY PROGRAM AFTER FAILING THE NEXT DRUG TEST BECAUSE I CHOSE TO GET HIGH THEN I WOULD HAVE NOWHERE TO GO. 

  MAKING A DECISION TO GET HIGH NOW WOULD HAVE TERRIBLE REPURCUSSIONS FOR ME NOW. IT'S EASY TO NOT GET HIGH NOW OUT OF FEAR OF THE CONSEQUENCES WHILE IN THIS PROGRAM. WHAT ABOUT ONCE I EXIT THIS PROGRAM AND AM BACK IN THE NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCE OF LIVING ON MY OWN OR WITH SOMEONE ELSE? 

  I AM TAKING THIS TIME PERIOD WHILE IN THE RECOVERY PROGRAM TO BUILD A STRONGER MINS FOR MYSELF. I AM BUILDING A MINDSET STRONG ENOUGH TO REMAIN SOBER WHILE BACK IN THE FREE CHOICE ENVIRONMENT. DO I STILL OBSESS IN THE MIND OVER SMOKING MARIJUANA? I'LL ALWAYS MISS SMOKING MARIJUANA. I JUST WON'T MISS THE POWER IT HELD OVER ME.