WRISTS BATHED IN RED SESSION TWENTY:

 7:10AM EST - 7:55AM EST

THESDAY FEBRUARY 6TH, 2024

2.6.2024

WRISTS BATHED IN RED

SESSION TWENTY: BUTT CHASERS

  ASK NOT WHAT THE UNIVERSE WILL DO FOR YOU. ASK WHAT YOU WILL DO FOR THE UNIVERSE? I HELP YOU YOU HELP ME. PASS THE MESSAGE ONWARDS. FREE AS MANY MINDS AS YOU CAN. I AM HERE TO HELP YOU HEAL THE PAIN. THE PAIN ONLY EXISTS WITHIN YOUR MIND. EVERYTHING YOU SEE OR TOUCH OR HEAR OR SMELL IS FAKE. EMOTION IS NOT PERCEIVED BY THE FIVE PHYSICAL SENSES.

  EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING IS JUST COMPUTER PROGRAMMING ACTING OUT IT'S CODE. GIGE NOTHING POWER OVER YOUR EMOTIONS. DEFINE YOUR ABSOLUTE OBJECTIVE THEN NO MATTER WHAT YOU MIST REMAIN OBJECTIVE. IF YOUR CURRENT EMOTIONAL STATE IS NOT CONDUCIVE TO THE OBJECTIVE'S COMPLETION THEN YOU MUST SHIFT YOUR EMOTIONS. 

  IT CAN BE DONE AND IT IS HARDER THAN IT SOUNDS OR FEELS. YOU'RE IN A TIGHT SPOT? GIVE IT LESS POWER. MAYBE IT'S ACTUALLY YOUR THINKING MANIFESTING YOUR REALITY. YOU CAN APPLY MORE POSITIVE MENTAL FOCUS INSIDE OF THE TIGHT SPOT WHICH EXPANDS WHAT YOU'RE FOCUSING ON. FOCUS LESS ON WHAT IS UNDESIRED AND FOCUS MORE ON WHAT IS ACTUALLY DESIRED OR PREFERRED. 

  BECOME OBSESSIVE OVER YOUR FOCUS. IF EVERY NEGATIVE THOUGHT COSTS YOU $1 TO THINK IT THEN WOULD YOU BE IN EMOTIONAL DEBT BY NOW? HOW MANY DOLLARS WOULD YOU OWE THE CREDITOR? IF I TYPE A BUTTON ON MY PHONE THE PHONE RESPONDS TO THE BUTTON PRESSED. 

  THE PHONE DOESN'T KNOW IF I WANTED TO INTENTIONALLY PRESS THE BUTTON OR NOT. THE PHONE ONLY FOLLOWED MY ORDER. ORDER YOUR THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS AROUND. IF IT'S JUST TOO FOGGY IN YOUR HEAD AT THE MOMENT THEN MAN YOU NEED TO BREAK OUT AND DANCE. DROP DOWN TO THE GROUND AND GIVE ME 100 PUSH UPS. DO SOME JUMPING JACKS UNTIL YOU FEEL STUPID. 

  DO WHATEVER YOU HAVE TO DO IN ORDER TO GAIN CONTROL OVER YOUR MIND. SOBER MIND YOU. IN SOBRIETY MAKE YOURSELF FEEL BETTER. ARTIFICIAL HAPPINESS IS NO BUENO. MUY MALO. YOUR EMOTIONS AND YOUR THOUGHTS ARE ALWAYS UNDER YOUR CONTROL. IF YOU DONT LIKE SOMETHING THEN STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. IT DOESN'T EVEN EXIST. YOU'RE JUST CRAZY. NO MY BAD I WAS WRONG. YOU'RE BORDERLINE INSANE. 

  YOU'RE THE DICTATOR OF YOUR MIND STATE. EVERYTHING IS FAKE. HOW MANY TIMES DO I NEED TO SAY THAT? YOU'RE PAYING ATTENTION TO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. EVERYTHING IS EVERYTHING AND NOTHING REALLY MATTERS AT ALL WAS SAID BY THE MISEDUCATED LAURYN HILL. 

  I DON'T GIVE ANYONE OR ANYTHING POWER OVER ME. WHEN SOMEONE SAYS SOMETHING OR DOES SOMETHING STUPID TO ME I IGNORE THEM. I LAUGH TO MYSELF WHILE REMEMBERING THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW THEY ARE FAKE. I KNOW IM AN ILLUSION. I'M JUST ENERGY IN MOTION. THEN I KEEP IT MOVING. I KNOW I'M IN A DREAM RIGHT NOW. 

  WHY WOULD I ARGUE WITH A DREAM CHARACTER? THE EPITOME OF WASTED DREAM TIME RIGHT THERE. WHY WASTE MY TIME WITH SOMEONE WHO THINKS EVERYTHING IS REAL? WHY WASTE MY TIME ARGUING WITH SOMEONE OVER ABSOLUTELY NOTHING? WHY WASTE MY TIME GOING BACK AND FORTH WITH NEGATIVITY WITH SOMEONE WHO GIVES POWER TO EVERYTHING HUT GOD. 

  NAH GOD WILL DEAL WITH MY PROBLEMS AND I WILL DEAL WITH MY DESTINY. I'M ALWAYS QUIET NOW. I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY TO ANYONE MOST OF THE TIME. IF I DON'T RESPECT YOUR LEVEL OF OPTIMISM OR POSITIVITY THEN YOU'RE GETTING NO WORDS FROM ME. MY SILENCE MAKES THOSE AROUND ME UNCOMFORTABLE. THEIR NEGATIVITY MAKES ME UNCOMFORTABLE. 

  ALL THEY SO IS COMPLAIN. EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS A PROBLEM. SUCKERS. COMPLETE SUCKER TO ME THEY ARE. JUST SHOOT YOURSELF IN THE LEFT FOOT WHY DON'T YOU? WHAT THEY'RE DOING IS CURSING THEMSELVES. I'M SPEAKING BLESSINGS. IM JUST TOO BUSY TO TALK ABOUT ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. YOU KNOW HOW MUCH MY TIME IS WORTH TO ME? 

  YOU KNOW WHAT MY GOALS ARE? I DO. I KNOW MY GOALS. SO I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR COMPUTER PROGRAMS UNAWARE THEY ARE COMPUTER PROGRAMS INSIDE OF A COMPUTER SIMULATION. NAW HOMIE I GOTTA BOUNCE. I'D RATHER DANCE BY MYSELF IN FRONT OF TRAFFIC ON THE SIDEWALK UNTIL I FEEL BETTER. I CAN MAKE MYSELF FEEL BETTER WITHOUT YOU AROUND.

  ITS ACTUALLY EASIER  TO MAINTAIN MY POSITIVE VIBE FAE AWAY FROM YOU. I DONT HAGE TIME FOR THEM. I HAVE TIME YOU FOR

 THE READER AND THE AUDIENCE. ONLY YOU EXIST TO ME. HOW DO I HELP YOU? HOW CAN I SHOW YOU THE LIGHT? THE TAO. HOW DO I GIVE YOU MY POWER? I'M TOO POWERFUL TO WASTE MY TIME TALKING IN PERSON. IF YOU'RE NOT ON MY FACEBOOKS YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M THINKING. 

  IN PERSON I'M LISTENING INTENTLY TO EVERYTHING YOU SAY. A PERSON CAN ONLY SAY WHAT'S ON THEIR MIND. SO I LISTEN. THEN I PUT MY HEADPHONES BACK ON. NAW I'LL LOSE ALL OF MY INTELLIGENCE BY SITTING HERE LISTENING TO THIS CLOWN TALK ALL DAY. WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? IF WE NOT TALKING SOLUTIONS TO THE MATRIX I'M DONE. IM LEAVING. HEY I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 

  I'M WORKING ON A BOOK. MY SPARE TIMES SHORT AND IT ALL BELONGS TO ME. I'M SO STINGY WITH MY TIME. YOU HAVE FIVE MINUTES TO IMPRESS MY MIND. MY IMAGINATIONS SO MUCH MORE INTERESTING THAN YOURS. I'M SO SELF SUFFICED EMOTIONALLY IT'S THE FUNNY. I HAVE MY SPOUTS OF DEPRESSION. THEN I'M REALLY ON MY OWN. NO ONE CAN SAVE ME THEN BUT GOD AND MYSELF. 

  THIS LIFE WAS A GIFT TO ME FROM GOD AND MY PARENTS AND I CHERISH IT. I SPENT HALF MY LIFE IN PAIN. MENTAL PAIN. I'M IN THE PROCESS OF OVERCOMING IT AND THE SUBSEQUENT EMOTIONS DERIVED FROM IT. I'M SHARING THE CODE WITH YOU. I'M AN AMBASSADOR FOR THE FUTURE GENERATIONS. I WAS SENT HERE TO FINISH UNFINISHED BUSINESS. 

  THE UNFINISHED BUSINESS OF AMERICA IS MY MISSION. WHAT AMERICA HAS FAILED TO DO FROM LONG AGO IS NOW KY BUSINESS. THE BALL IS IN MY COURT NOW AND I HAVE THE BALL. I TAKE THE LAST SHOT. I TAKE THE FIRST SHOT. I HAVE TO REBOUND THE BALL. I HAVE TO STEAL THE BALL. I HAVE TO GUARD THE HOOP. IF WE LOSE IT WAS ALL ON ME. WHEN WE WIN THE GLORY GOES TO GOD. 

  I DID WHAT I HAD TO DO. I SACRIFICED AS MANY PHYSICAL PLEASURES AS HUMANELY POSSIBLE. I ATE ONLY TO SURVIVE. I RARELY EVER HAD SEX. I DIDN'T GO OUT AND SOCIALIZE. FOR WHAT? SURROUND MYSELF BY INSECURE COMPUTER PROGRAMS WHO THINK THEY ACTUALLY EXIST? NAW THATS VERY DANGEROUS I'M STAYING INSIDE AND HONING MY ART CRAFT. 

  I'VE NEVER BEEN INVOLVED IN A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP AS AN ADULT. COMPLETE WASTE OF MY TIME. IF SHE HAS TIME FOR ME THEN SHE HAS NO GOALS. OH SHE'LL SAY SHE DOES. THEN WHY ARE YOU HERE WITH ME? YOU'LL LEAVE MY SIDE TO FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO OCCUPY YOUR TIME. CAN'T LIE TO ME. OR YOU'LL SPEND ALL DAY ALONE ENTERTAINING YOURSELF AND GETTING HIGH AND DRUNK. YEA WHATEVER. 

 LET ME SEE YOUR CURRENT PROJECT THEN. SHOW ME THE PROGRESS LET ME READ SOMETHING. LET ME SEE SOMETHING YOU'VE CREATED WITH YOUR TIME. SHOW ME RESULTS. I'M INTENTIONALLY GIVING HER A SMALL AMOUNT OF MY TIME THEN ITS BACK TO THE BOOTH. I'M ON A MISSION. 

  I DON'T WANT AN INSECURE PERSON WHOSE UNAWARE THEY ARE A CPU PROGRAM OR CPUP PLAYING WITH MY SELF CONFIDENCE. MY SELF CONFIDENCE IS UNBRIDLED AND UNMATCHED. YOU CAN'T FEEL THIS GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF UNLESS I TEACH YOU STEP BY STEP. EVEN THEN YOU'LL BLOCK YOUR OWN PROGRESS WITH OLD PROGRAMMING. 

  MY MIND IS TO FREE TO EVER BE ENCAGED EVER AGAIN. HOW? HOW WILL THEY LIE TO ME NOW? I HAVE 100% FAITH IN GOD AND IN MY OWN ABILITIES. IF YOU CAN'T SAY THAT WITH CONVICTION AND I DONT SEE IT IN EVERY INTERACTION WITH YOU I'M GRANTED I DONT BELIEVE YOU AND WE NOT COOL ENOUGH FOR ME TO SPEND MY PRECIOUS TIME WITH YOU.

  A MAN WHO DOESN'T BELIEVE IN HIMSELF IS DANGEROUS. THE LACK OF SELF CONFIDENCE IS A DISEASE. IF YOU'RE AROUND AN INSECURE PERSON THEY WILL THROW THEIR MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL INSECURITY ON TO YOU. EVERYTIME YOU SPEAK A BLESSING THEY WILL SPEAK TWO CURSES. MY CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF IS HIGHLY INTIMIDATING TO SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T BELIEVE IN THEMSELVES. 

  THAT'S NOT MY FAULT. YOU WANT ME TO CONFORM TO YOUR AAD WAY OF THINKING AND FEELING? NAW HOMIE I'M GOING TO LET YOU BE INSECURE OF YOURSELF ALL BY YOURSELF. YOU DON'T KNOW A CHAD. NOT THIS CHAD. NOT CHAD XZAVIER. I CHASE IDEAS. I SO DO NOT CHASE PEOPLE. I AM NOT CURIOUS ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE. I AM MORE SO CURIOUS OF OTHER IDEAS. 

  I HAVE A LONG LIST OF SPECIFIC TOPICS TO STUDY. A TOPIC WON'T STUDY ITSELF. I HAVE TO STUDY IT. I AM OBSESSED WITH LEARNING. I WANT TO LEARN AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE AND SPREAD AS MUCH OF WHAT I LEARNED AS POSSIBLE. MY AUDIENCE OF READERS AND ART OBSERVERS ARE MY MAIN FOCUS. IT'S YOU. ONLY YOU MATTER TO ME. EVERYONE ELSE IS NOT IMPORTANT. 

  I AM AN ARTIST. I CARE ABOUT MY ART THEN I CUT THE DECK. EVERYTHING ELSE IS FAKE. JUST AN ILLUSION. I LIVE MY DREAM. I LIVE WITHIN MY DREAM. I LIVE WITHIN A DREAM. I KNOW I AM DREAMING. EVERYTHING ELSE BESIDES MY VISION IS A WASTE OF DREAM TIME. I'M INTERESTED IN EXPANDING THE SCOP OF MY DREAM SCAPE I WANT TO EXPLORE THIS DREAMSCAPE.

  I WANT TO DEEP DISCOVER THE CONTENTS OF MY OWN DREAM. I WANT TO EXPLORE MY OWN MIND. THERE ARE UNDISCOVERED TREASURES WITHIN MY BRAIN. THERE'S AN UNIMAGINABLE GOLD MINE WITHIN MY MIND. THERE'S ONE IN YOURS AS WELL. I CAN'T FIND IT FOR YOU THOUGH. THAT'S YOUR JOB. OR YOU CAN SPEND YOUR LIFE CHASING OTHER PEOPLES BREASTS AND BUTTS. BUTT CHASERS AND BREAST FACERS.